>>41501275
I don't feel much aside from different shades of sadness, disappointment and indifference idk if there is anything else past that. I haven't seen the irl friends in months and don't really care about it past just being lonely, can't hold a job due to my mental and don't really care about dropping the school, idk what else to mention. And when it comes to dream I don't even know if I ever had them past "I wish I would be born a women" but even that wasn't strong enough to be very visible until 18 and even then I just rotted for years before starting anything because of depression hit and possible adhd making fallowing thru things hard but even now I pretty much stopped at starting hrt, aside from that maybe dreaming about someone who could just save me from myself to preferably date but chances of that are close ot zero so there are no things I could even try to achieve at this point