>>513832408
Im sorry man, I feel for you, but you've become mentally demoralized. Yuri Bezmenov outlines demoralization really well, but because you are already demoralized, I dont think there is anything I can say to you to bring you back.

I could get any 5'9+ white guys an actual runway model in 2-3 weeks.

It's honestly not hard, you've just had your brains fucked hard.