I got a girl's number after class the other day. We talked for over an hour. She kept asking me a lot of questions about myself and just seemed really engaged and interested in me. I texted her asking to get coffee this weekend and she took three days to reply and just said she was busy and nothing else.

I hate myself for this but I've been considering suicide for a while and I think that was enough to push me over the edge. I'm 25, no friends, no gf in 6 years. Less than two months from graduating college. I work remote so no hope of dating or meeting women anymore.

I know some people would be perfectly content to be in my situation and I wish I was too. But I don't want to go through life without a family. My little brother is already married with one kid. No one even asks me when I'm going to get a girlfriend or settle down anymore because they know it isn't happening.

I already wrote a note and threw away most of my stuff. I have a little savings so I might skip graduation and just travel for a while. Would appreciate recommendations for places to check out.

Blogpost over.