>>33522441
I'm also trapped in wagie purgatory though; even when grafting full-time as a wageslave, I make just enough to get by, so it feels like I'm perpetually stuck. I shouldn't have flunked out of school and given up on a career (but then I'm too mentally unstable to have managed it anyway desu)
Anyway I guess it's a matter of perspective and I suppose I should remmeber I'm living a more luxurious life than the vast majority of people on the planet. You sound like you have a really good head on your shoulders and a very constructive and zen outlook on things
But really I just fantasise about death all day every day. I'm obsessed with dying, and funerals, and the concept of time, mortality and sand, and communicating with the supernatural, and other crazy up shit like that. I try not to entertain this dark part of my mind too much because it's a dangerous rabbit hole, but it's difficult to veer away from
>>33522492
But flat is justice