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i pray every day and night that maybe something could happen between us
but i just don’t know…i don’t know how to broach the subject with him, i don’t know how to do this appropriately
i don’t even know if he would want to date a stupid boymoding tranny loser failure like me, even if he was open to dating a fan…
he makes me so happy…i wish i could be his and make him happy, too…chatting with him and being on vc with him are the parts of my day i look forward to the most…the other night he was playing bf6 and rambling and talking a bit and i laid on my bed with my shark and imagined i was sleeping on his lap, it was so nice, but then i started crying because i felt so creepy and awful…
i don’t even speak in the vc i use a mute chat he set up because im too scared to use my stupid tranny voice, i hate it so much
i really really pray and hope that somehow my wish can come true, he makes me so happy