after 26 years I can accept that I'm supposed to be alone and ostracised
I've travelled to many countries and cities, met many people and none of it amounted to anything
I'm not autistic, not a virgin or a crazy person, I'm socially competent and normal looking but I haven't had a single real life friend in over 10 years, let alone a group of friends
The best life for me to live is a nomadic one, going to a different country every few months and meeting random strangers who will forget me, that's probably all I can hope for in life.