>be me
>start dressing as femboy 4 years ago
>fall in the rabbit hole of HFO or "sissygasm"
>they say it's the best orgasm
>try it for 2 years, every try ended up just peeing
>finally met someone that gave me the key to achieve it
>after 2 or 3 sessions i achieved it
>finally, it feels amazing
>keep doing it
>the magic goes off
>try other ways of reaching a HFO
>nipple play
>done
>plapping balls
>done
>just kissing
>done
>jacking off a dildo
>done
>just listening to moans
>done
>get back to penis stimulation after months
>had the biggest orgasm of my life
>what does this means?