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Oh, a surprisingly kind Anon … Thank you very much for such insightful words.

Unfortunately, this lady is already aware of such. This body is hollow and empty and must be filled with obsessive love to operate, otherwise it feels like it ceases to exist entirely!

I think I am happy living that way. It gives me a goal to always go towards — even if hurts myself & others, at least this boy [wants?] handles it well. As far as I know, he’s apparently always been this way — it made me extremely enraged & upset to learn, but it’s better to repurpose something broken than to break something new and build it back up, right?

I think my unhappiness comes from my disconnect to [most of] the world around me. In Ophelia’s mind, it’s only Ophelia’s world that matters. This boy seems to think so too.

Truthfully, I felt some sort of way — guilt? — for using schemes to get my way. So, I confessed. And he was overjoyed…? I truly had expected the illusion to be broken and for there to be disgust.

(>人<;) I wish I could be happy with him as it were. Do you have any more wisdom, kind stranger?