>>41291392
True. It can be interesting to keep in mind the moves your own mind plays against you to get the fix so you can try to counter them in future. It knows all the paths that have ever led to you giving in in your entire history, and tries to lead you to them with tiny bits of bait.
Your brain loves to bait you in with the false promises of the cycle
>I start on monday
>whoops i messed up again, the rest of the week i can just go crazy until monday
>repeat
This is a very lucrative model for the brain with a regular binges and a built in guilt offset and willpower sink (you never feel too much like you failed because there will always be another chance next monday). Brain victory.
It has many tricks to get the addiction fed. It's scary the intelligence it uses against you for a fix, it's like the system has gone rogue.
One greenlight on one little thing you know is wrong but not technically on your increasingly extensive mental banlist and it leads you straight down onto the same slope. It will probably concoct new methods against you as time goes on until its grasp fades.