https://youtu.be/0hztIhU28dY?si=Cqb_biS8qgrMa8g2

ill get back to 140 and then ill be prime health and efficient proportionally
>>40759190
it was the best thing ive ever had tbqh. to melt into someones arms and forget about troon thoughts as i felt his stubble against my head. feeling his hands stroke my hair. aaaahhhhhhh fuck im retarded. its ok tho :x
>>40759217
glad you did. playlist curating is always a neat little activity
>>40759271
its really my fault in the end. ive had many chances to escape but i think my brain is comfortable in conflict. i get itchy and anxious when things seem too "ok" like i need to knock it down before life does. idk why. friends have offered help. that guy wanted to be a stable presence in my life and wanted to help be a positive presence in my life. i practically gave em all the middle finger by my absence. thats prolly how they felt anyway. this is all old news and way past its day. its just a scab i pick at every once in a while now. i miss them. i miss who i was when i knew em. i dont deserve happiness. i made my bed and i must lay