listen to how retarded I am
>be me
>18 year old mtf, 2.5 years hrt, look nice, sound OK
>let's see, a dozen or two dead end talking stages with various guys and girls
>fumbled the best guy ever by not persuing him, and by the time I had the chance to even talk to him again, it was too late
>lost my virginity to random dude in a hotel when i was 17, we never talked again and never will
>recently got a boyfreind which lasted all of 1 (one) week. I dumped him because he was realistically the best I could do, and I wanted more
>no job
>stuck in community college hell
>no noteable talents

there was this european guy I knew on the internet who was madly in love with me, but I think if I try and get into a relationship before I get a job, I'll just end up self-sabotoging (again); so I think I'm going to start another job search tommorow. The issue is the hiring market is complete GARBAGE rn *sigh*

but will employment fix my issues?
I wish I had an older bro I could just date