No relapse, no regret, no going back, no false pride.
Find yourself a woman with narcissistic tendency. She'll apreciate be above yourself to counterbalance being below her lovers. They want to fuck her, she like to idealize them. And you can take care or her since they wont. Yes, she'll place herself above you, she'll use you to boost her ego (and so will her lovers). But the freedom of doing what you sexually crave, be under the control/protection of a woman and all the kinky adventures you'll live...
Don't stress about how your entourage will react. You'll change that landscape and be around people who appreciate your service.
