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Funnily enough, such an extreme, self-loathing internal monologue was a key factor in that one fanfic that used Symphony Song (the not-Tavia background pony). It's a fascinating character trait, but I'm not sure if I'd assign it to Octavia, at least not in such an extreme manner. There'd be self-doubts and self-loathing, but not to the point of breaking down crying during sex due to feeling worthless or anything like that.