My (cis m 19) ex just made gave me a blowjob and cummed so hard sorry guys I failed nnn but it felt so good and I was missing my ex anyway

On a scale from 1-10 how satisfied are you with your life?
I would say 3-4. I am not hungry, I have a place to stay and all those other basic survival needs which I don't need to stuggle daily for. I am physically comfortable for the most parts.
But I am also mentally ill. I regret a lot of my life and feel like I have been stunted because of it. I feel as if I missed out on a lot of opportunities that I maybe could have taken. I am 23 and have no degree, no hobbies, no skills, no real purpose and I'm a khv that has never been loved. So I'm in no way happy.
I feel like I lack any motivation because I'm unsure how to make things better for myself.

>y will happen if you do x
>shes suprised y happened when she did x

Foids are fucking tiring man, why do they insist on being retarded