Are you sad and have a messy room like me?

Please post yours and maybe I wont feel so alone

>>34035944 (OP)
its baffling to me that there are rotmax ladies out there. Or am I making assumptions?

>>34035995
hmmm, I cannot speak for other ladies but I have OCPD and go through long periods of stability and extreme cleanliness and then there’s time like now where I just want to be consensually beaten and raped to a bloody pulp or overdose on fentanyl even though I’ve never tried drugs, I have Severe major DD

DD as in depressive disorder

>>34036002
this is just an observation which I still don't understand, but what is with the desire to be raped? Like I get that most ladies with that desire have some shit they're going through but why?

>>34036002
In short your a mentally fucked and right now you are in your messy phase

>>34036009
I just feel numb and I want so desperately to feel something, I have the nicest boyfriend I’ve ever had and he is also the largest I’ve ever had laut I can’t orgasm. I am so sad and I feel like I need to cry in order to orgasm during sex.

Also, only pretty girls get raped and I wish I was a pretty girl

How long does each phase last for you usually?
Do you take anything to help you with this stuff?

>>34036013
sho gaping void

>>34036011
Yeah, I’m pretty miserable. I usually stuff these symptoms away and try to be as happy seeking and normal as possible. But I’m at my breaking point. I just want to cry but I have no tears left

I’m sorry for being mentally fucked ;<

>>34036013
well I guess you settled that debate about size vs motion of the ocean. Anywho, I mean generally speaking ladies sexuality is tied to emotions more so than the physicality of it all. so yeah I guess your depression is affecting your libido and that's rough hun

>>34036013
If you have a boyfriend you have to be somewhat attractive.
Or is it because you're mentally ill that you can't believe you are attractive and want to be assaulted to confirm that you are?

>>34036021
you aint gotta apologize

>>34036028
I think he pities me. I am so depressed and insecure about my appearance that I cannot even fathom someone thinking of me as attractive, or even human. I grew up being told I was subhuman and needed to be exterminated , not because I’m Jewish , but because of a deformity

>>34036036
Do you have a tail?

>>34036017
ummm I’m too insecure and shy. and it’s not gaping unfortunately I haven’t had a lot of encounters

>>34036027
Yeah it’s embarrassing. I wish I could open up to him about it but I don’t know what to say. Thanks for being there

>>34036036
Is it Vitiligo cause some dude on the board was looking for that in a girl

>>34036044
whats the "deformity" if i may ask?

>>34036040
much worse. I have a disturbing eye mutation and it’s hard for me to make eye contact even with my closest friends

>>34036046
no I didn’t see that, what happebed?>>34036048
I have a thread on /fa/ of my eye deformity right now with my face and everything, I’m not savvy enough to know how to link it

>>34036065
ngl and I'm not trying to glaze but you are pretty, even with this so called "deformity." Like in all honesty you don't look bad at all. Genuinely

>>34036044
I've seen your gaping void before.

>>34036068
it’s so hard to believe. I can’t comprehend it. I feel subhuman and like I am not worthy of life, especially with this overpopulated planet. There are starving children in the world that deserve better than me who are also genetically superior . I wish I could give my life to save someone else’s

I’m so sad. I’ve lived long enough. Life’s been ok. I know I’d go to hell because I haven’t been baptized yet but maybe that’s where I belong

>>34036074
why am I still alive? :’(

>>34036074

>>34036083
So embarrassing. My boyfriend would have a heart attack

>>34036082
Because I love you and I want to hold your hand.

>>34036086
We’ll I need to clean my room first haha

I love you too

>>34036085
If it's any consolation, it's not like I would have saved these and remember what you look like because I think you're a hideous freak.

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>>34036077
I mean you're not subhuman but perhaps this destructive behavior aint helping and i just mean like the self deprecation or sending your nudes to people. but youre definitely not ugly. banging bod though if i may so. but you gotta like learn not to associate yourself worth based on your image yknow?

>>34036100
ayy gurl, are you Finnish?
because I'd like to finish inside you.

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>>34036118
In conclusion: Would.

Well I bought some fentanyl and I’m planning on ending it as soon as possible before it gets any worse.

I texted this guy who ghosted me because I got too clingy or something else. I hope it doesn’t hurt. I hope I just go to sleep

Thanks for trying to make me better guys. I think I’ve lived enough life. Hopefully God will at least let me hug him before he sends me to the netherworld.

>>34036159
thats a bit drastic, dont do it seriously.

>>34036174
Last time I attempted was ‘21 and I went through so much he’ll surviving it. I better just get it over with. I don’t deserve to live…plus I already took the shot. Don’t feel anything yet . I put it in a syringe and broke off the needle and snorted it. Shouldn’t be long.

>>34036013
>only pretty girls get raped
are you fucking stupid? ugly girls will often get raped if it's easy to do so. with that logic, it's pretty obvious you must be ugly lol

*hell

I hear a pack of wolves outside

>>34036203
Yes I am stupid and yes I am ugly , you’re right. I’m getting sent to Hell dw I didn’t mean to hurt anyone else but myself

I’m sorry mom

>>34036202
nah, you didn't

>>34036202
Drop a pin on where we can find the body before the cops.

>>34036208
Maybe they are telling you it's not your time yet

>>34036234
I actually had arranged it but it went serious about following through but I did take it and now I’m having second thoughts feeling a lot of burning pain in my belly
>>34036250
This hurts so bad and I only feel slightly nodded out so far what do I do? Should I call an ambulance I’m honestly really scared b

I didn’t know it would hurt this much and I really don’t want to I’m scared what do I do

>>34036275
You didn't larper, that's not how opiates work

>>34036275
Paw Paw Lake, south of Mattawan, Michigan.
>>34036302
If she was actually trying to buy fentanyl it would be 99% fillers, anyway.

>>34036328
Thanks for thinking of me ;’<

I’m so sorry about this guys, my mom woke up to me vomiting blood and I told her everything and took me to the ER and I’m getting fluids and an ekg and they’re trying to figure out what it was that I snorted out of the syringe. I’m pretty groggy but I remember cooking up a white powder i bought a week ago in a spooon, putting it in the syringe with the needle snapped off, and snorted it. I used to do it with heroin only once or twice and almost overdosed

I am really sorry about this. Just know I’m going to be put away for a long time again.. thanks for your kindness

Let's chat and see where things go... I don't disappoint. cccxyy.847

reading thru this post sure was a ride, glad you made it