>>11435404 (OP)idk, really
I'm to a point where while i appreciate the female beauty, females are just something that fill the environment i look at.
I'll try to be clearer, think about stunning supercars in videogames: you like them, their shapes, colors, sounds, performance, engineering; but in the end you don't really care since it's nothing but a rendition of pixels on a screen of something you most likely (surely) won't ever even get close enough, let alone own and use them.
On the other side there are toys which are way more tangible and obtainable, kind of, still related to something i used to like, care and dream about when i wasn't old and jaded. Ah and can't exclude the slight brief dopanine rush of consumerism too.
>>11435418blessed
>>11436773been to a comicon recently for the first time. While interesting nothing changed from the social interaction perspective.
I can be in a room packed with people who share my interests, have similar mindset, willingly to talk about topic and still stand there as if there was no one there.
>>11439786seems like you're just insecure about yourself and can't stand your own reflection in the mirror, somehow a bit bitter against who embraced their being instead. Not trying to judge you down or bullshits, just what i seem to grasp