>>713380061ok, I'll give that one to you
looking from the outside, yes, you could argue that I haven't done enough to change my life around, to actually seek happiness, satisfaction, achievements
but fuck, man. I'm not made out of iron. I'm an old man now (31) and have been plagued by constant failures to launch anything in my life ever since high school. I did EVERYTHING I was told to do by my family and peers. I've lived every single second of my life to satisfy them. But now, after so much failing, they've all begun to turn away from me. I can't even go to family gatherings without feeling like a failure.
I just want to be alone and relax. I'm tired of people. Tired of being looked at, talked to, judged.
Tell me, anon. Am I that wrong? Am I such a failure that I can't even recognize what's wrong with me? That I'm about to fall into a slippery slope just in order to satisfy my own ego? should I just blow my own head off?