I spent hundreds of dollars to nimi over the years because U genuinely love her. Should I just kms? Whenever I think about her having a man and what they might get up to my chest starts to hurt

>>102558284 (OP)
what's stopping you?

Boohoo, I gambled away thousands.
>genuinely love her
No you didn't, retard. Jerk off (preferably to someone else) and move on.

>>102558398
Idk either, watching her stream was ny usual highlight

>>102558284 (OP)
dont kill yourself
>hundreds of dollars
you will make those back

>>102558284 (OP)
You are free now bro. Use this as an opportunity to leave this "hobby" and convert your obsession into something else now that you know this shit isn't worth it.

>>102558284 (OP)
Show me receipts motherfucker, i want to see how much did you dono to her.

>>102558284 (OP)

You are out and I'm in.
I have the purpose of spending hundreds of dollars on Nimi.

>>102558559
then watch someone else, lol, you don't own her any loyalty just like none of them do to you.

She wasn't even in my top 10 most watched and it still makes me feel like vomiting knowing someone is pumping her.

>>102558284 (OP)
no, just find a better oshi

>>102558284 (OP)
You want to kys because some complete stranger who voice acts a fake anime girl turned out being a normal adult with normal relationships?
That would win you the world cup of retardness, anon.
Giving her a lot of money was dumb enough, harming yourself would be the peak of stupid.
Take it as a good life lesson. Now you know the people who kept writing everywhere to not be parasocial, just take it as a fun diversion like watching an anime or playing a game, and touch grass were completely right, despite you ignoring them.
Just take their advice, stop giving money to strangers online and enjoy watching some streams sometimes as a form of alternative to watching a movie, without much meaning to it.
You must never get emotionally invested into a complete stranger.
Take a break from vtubers, go to a cinema or a comicon and have fun. Start a diet. Start a new hobby. Work on making your life better. You'll feel great in no time.

Groom an indie. There are a lot of other cute girls out there. Sorry for your pain.

>>102558284 (OP)
never kill yourself
there are hundreds of vtubers like nimi, she was completely generic, I don't even understand why you guys have such a strong attachment

>>102559131
would it make you feel better to know that the husband isn't attractive or anything? you didn't lose, they just love each other

>>102558284 (OP)
a couple hundred isn't worth an heroing for
cut your losses, learn your lesson, and move on

>>102559424
no. i just preferred not having that image at all in my head. i just assumed she was a single dorky girl living life.
idk really. I don't envision myself with chuubas & it still bugs me.

>>102558284 (OP)
You finally free

>>102558284 (OP)
It could be worse, cut your losses and become your own oshi

>>102558284 (OP)
welcome to the club bro, you have 3 choices
1. become a whore and move from girl to girl, if you don't get attached to anyone nobody can hurt you
2. leave while you can, you are now free (at least cut back on watch time and spend less money only as a reward if they deserve it)
3. find a new oshi and risk repeating the cycle

from experience I've been happier with a mix of 1 and 2 after doing 3 a couple of times...

>>102559424
>would it make you feel better to know that the husband isn't attractive or anything
yes because it means that I have a chance to find a girl some day, no because some ugly bastard found a great girl and I haven't yet

>>102559567
I know this is going to sound like misogyny but that's just women. I don't blame them, maybe it is society, I don't know, but that's how it is and sometimes you have to accept things, take the L and just not think about it

>>102558284 (OP)
Op is a gay fake nigger but i'll bite.

You are and were unhappy because of your lifestyle. You are a man, men are meant to make things happen. If you are not making things happen you will be depressed and use surrogates to try to replace the feeling of making things happen. Basically, you have to start doing things, like getting a job, going to the gym, and talking to strangers. When you start living more like how you were made to live you will not need surrogates anymore. Okay schizo ramble over.

You will feel better if you embrace it and start fantasizing about it more.

>>102560069
I think you are projecting, I do plenty in my life, I don't know why you assume no one here has anything going on for them. I just like vtubers - but not all of them, specially not after this. it's not that I imagined them better, I imagined them smarter

Either genuinely try to improve your life or find a less pathetic form of escapism. Go back to anime/vidya waifus. People like you are the reason a lot of these women (a small few have paid their dues so I'm not attacking them. Not necessarily attacking Nimi in particular either.) get to live life on easy mode. Hell, god mode. You would be disgusted if you knew how much money they make, while you rot away in your loneliness. Follow Ame's advice: improve yourself.

>>102560069
This is 100% the truth. If you're capable, meaning you don't have some kind of really bad physical or mental disability, you need to be making things happen. Small, incremental improvements. If you stay in your room all day, start walking for 30 minutes a day a few times a week. That kind of thing. Or try a part time job without too many hours.

>>102560917
not even ame follows her own advice, why would anyone else?

>>102560067
yep. I know. I think most people will get over it in a week or two.

>>102561012
I tried the walking thing but I live in the middle of nowhere and I usually don't see a single person for miles. Driving into a town just to walk around feels pointless.

>>102559424
I mean, she isn't even that good looking honestly. I was a bit sad about the whole thing (mostly due to existential dread) but then I remembered how she looks irl and I felt better. or maybe I should feel worse knowing that someone whose a 5 got married before me....Ah fuck the dread is coming back

>>102561387
>Driving into a town just to walk around feels pointless.
See that's the type of shit thinking that'll keep you in this mind state. You're gonna avoid a walk not because you can't physically go, but because it's pointless? If you're gonna quit before even trying then you weren't serious about trying at all

>>102558284 (OP)
Please do. We really don't need more people like you around here.

>>102558284 (OP)
>Freaking out over a couple of hundreds
So either you don't have a job, or your job pays like shit. Believe me, once you start getting paid more, losing a couple hundred doesn't hurt as much.

>>102561091
It's good advice regardless. She was basically just saying don't be a fucking loser

>>102562053
It is pointless in most of America. The whole town is big box stores and neighborhoods full of old people. You don't meet anyone this way except the crackheads panhandling next to the walmart.

>>102561387
the point is to move your body and get some sunlight and fresh air
and most importantly to give your mind a break and time to think
i'd say the middle of nowhere is perfect for that