How do I feel the his love? How do I feel the peace that billions of Christians feel across the world? I call his name he never answers. I beg for him he never answers.

>>40477059 (OP)
Fasting, prayer, semen retention, dopamine fasting. That’s it. If you do this for a month you will feel it.

I will help you, I am a true son of God.
First, you must love Jesus Christ and accept that he was God, he knows things he couldn't say plainly.

So the first big step you need to take is
"If you love me, keep my commandments"
That means the 10 commandments plus everything he taught, and this is gonna be hard, INCLUDING loving everyone unconditionally and universally.
That is how you become a son of God and perfect in God's eyes.

>>40477059 (OP)
Read his words aloud. Meditate on them. Seek with a pure heart. He will hear you.

>>40477059 (OP)
Sometimes it's hard and I drift but in the back of my mind I know he watches over me.

I just can't stop having evil emotions when I sleep. I wake up angry and then I mellow out once I'm up.

I went through a lot in life. people have gone through much worse than I did but it still makes me mad at this crappy world.

Love nothing in this planet . Live on this world but not In this world. don't be apart of this sinful world but just exist until we all go home

I think that's the message

>>40477059 (OP)
Christians do not feel love. They feel hate more than anything. Christians are weird and have no realistic origin of their religion. They are cults designed from older religions. If your a baptist your in a cult, if your mormon your in a cult, if your catholic your part of a corporation. Religion has always and will always be a filter. A reason to not explore and to not advance because they have all the answers. Pawns will always gladly latch on to somthing they think makes sense or are born into it and taught to never question it.

Please Rabbi Yeshua..

>>40477204
love you anon

>>40477224
See this anon loved himself by responding to his own post

>>40477059 (OP)
... you just Love. Use your heart. Love others. Forgive them. Like he said.

WEF has subdued all the worlds religions keeping them in place. If you knew there would be no divided religions.

Religion is all about living in the way that gives you a good outcome. Ask yourself what has your religion done (jews excluded because they refuse to tell what really happened)

... when did Jesus say "you need to suck up and praise me", I don't recall him saying that

THE TEACHING WAS LOVE.

L O V E

>>40477289
go back to your meth pipe. Jesus has been used as a drug for decades

>>40477059 (OP)
34 “Do not think that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I have not come to bring peace, but a sword. 35 For I have come to set a man against his father, and a daughter against her mother, and a daughter-in-law against her mother-in-law. 36 And a person's enemies will be those of his own household. 37 Whoever loves father or mother more than me is not worthy of me, and whoever loves son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. 38 And whoever does not take his cross and follow me is not worthy of me. 39 Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it.
40 “Whoever receives you receives me, and whoever receives me receives him who sent me. 41 The one who receives a prophet because he is a prophet will receive a prophet's reward, and the one who receives a righteous person because he is a righteous person will receive a righteous person's reward. 42 And whoever gives one of these little ones even a cup of cold water because he is a disciple, truly, I say to you, he will by no means lose his reward.”

>>40477303
I have never smoked meth.

i think i can give up everything but gooning, it's difficult like quitting crack. I went to church every sunday, tried reading the bible cover to cover even though i have crippling ADHD, read about the church fathers and councils, bought a rosary, prayed not a lot but i took a fair bit of time to meditate on Christ and I just don't feel it. I'm going to pray for my dedication to the faith to return

>>40477059 (OP)
You could use a little churching up. Slide on down to the Triple Rock, and catch Rev. Cleophus. You listen to what he's got to say.

>>40477333
you failed to understand jesus is the meth? you pay for him. he makes you feel good. What is the difference?

>>40477374
... I'm so glad the Age of Pisces is over

>>40477362
Just read the red letters. All the cultural trappings are optional.

you have to have an inner awakening first. follow the 12 steps of AA but replace "alcohol" with sin

4th step is the hardest good luck

>>40477211
You’re*

>>40477746
thank you mrs dieckenheimer.

>>40478154
Thank* Mrs.* Dickenheimer*

>>40477746
<3

>>40478162
ugh sorry ill go to detention see you on monday gosh

>>40477059 (OP)
it takes time, im 4 years into this life, i still havent given up all my sins, and im just as confused, but he brings me peace

>>40477059 (OP)
All I’ve ever been given was pain. Agony was my gift. Longsuffering is the way. It’s ok, I’m no longer mad about it. Pain is a wonderful teacher. The agony I’ve faced has lead me to the conclusion that I need to take part in exorcising the power of God. It took me a few years to get it but I’m fully awake now. Death isn’t possible. When you understand that, there’s no need to care. The pain itself becomes a dull ache, then you become numb and immune to it after a while. You can only be beat down so many times before standing up. Then you realize that it no longer hurts. You’re just numb to it. Dead to the world. Not a thing matters anymore. Then in quiet contemplation you find yourself wondering why God created evil. Then it clicks, for his Joy and amusement. I got angry then sad, then I understood. God didn’t even spare his own son from the cross. He allowed him to raise again to give us eternal life. It’s probably going to hurt. That’s why you numb yourself to the pain. Idk how anyone can say they feel God’s love when you hurt to the point of numbness. If God loves me, he has a funny way of showing it. I don’t think he much cares for me. God only seeks to cause pain and suffering. It’s through our suffering that we’re given the grace to march onward. To do what’s right through the fire and flames. No stone will go unturned and everything will be tested with God’s holy fire. Anything that doesn’t stand up, gets burnt to a crisp.

>he’s a bro
>he’s a friend
>he’s your daddy
No, he’s God and you need to start acting like it. You need to respect his great authority. He created us to love one another. For in doing so we are the perfection of His will and testament. Stop seeking God’s love and start seeking God’s providence.

>>40478561
You are 4 years old? :o you are wel spoken for someone your age :---DD

>>40477204
Same, but I wake up optimistic and always feel a crippling depression before bed.

>>40477204
>until we all go home
home isn’t a place, it’s wherever you lay your hat. if you let go all the resistance to this moment, which is no small feat, you will see what He meant when He said the kingdom of Heaven is within you. the Hereafter isn’t a place we all go after we die, it’s here, but it needs to be worked for. you need to change the way you see - from a victim, alone in a murderous universe to a Child of God, inheritor of His power, progeny of His love, and profoundly safe in a creation built in His image: harmonious and beautiful beyond words.
what i mean by all that is, heaven and hell is a matter of perspective. what all this christian and buddhist monks and healers and spiritual seekers are trying to do is remove the scales from their eyes so they can see the Truth. i can personally attest to the fact that all the death and misery in the world is merely a mirage. blindingly convincing, yet unreal all the same. you’d think people would, at least on some level, feel relieved at such news but the common reaction is anger. oh well, you can onlj see for yourself

>>40477059 (OP)
Before bed, say the Our Father. But do it differently this time, and continue doing it this way for some time. Say it one verse at a time, and reflect on each verse and it's meaning. When you get to forgive those, reflect on that, and on yourself for your own forgivenss on what.

If you need help understanding the prayer better, read this, a page from the Catena Aurealis, different church fathers chime in. Each one of them very, close to God. https://www.ecatholic2000.com/catena/untitled-13.shtml (6:9)

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>>40478623
anyways

>>40477059 (OP)
He is in every bird, bee, flower, and tree. every stormcloud, every storm, every creature, every worm.
He’s in everyone and everything you see. even your mf gay ass enemies.
so until you love everything and open your heart to all; until you love the All in One you won’t feel the One in All

You want a legit answer from someone who God listened to and got what he asked for? It's all about FAITH and INTENT.

A few years ago I was at the end of my rope. Nothing was going right and the worst thing was that my wife was being a huge pain in the ass, I was only staying with her because I did not want to deprive my children of their mother (one of my kids has a disability and I would not trust another woman would love him unconditionally), but more often than not I wondered if they'd be better off if she just left. One day shit got REALLY bad, and I was feeling all kinds of emotions including anger and frustration and I decided enough was enough. So I prayed to God, in a sincere and heartfelt way, and I basically demanded that he do something about her: Either fix her shit or get her out of the way. I remember what strong intent I had when I asked this, I had faith that Jesus could do this and he would do this for me, because otherwise the situation was going to turn really bad really fast.

Miraculously, she found god, became an excellent mother and good wife, and 4 years later we have an awesome life. She now goes to church and I feel HIS presence continuously, but especially at junctures in my life I can tell that he's right there with me.

>>40477059 (OP)
>the peace that billions of Christians feel across the world?
You're idealizing it. Billions of christians across the world feel liberated through the figure of Jesus because it takes causal responsibility away from them and promises noncausal recompense at the same time, not because of "love", specially not because of agape.

The fact you're expecting someone to physically answer you when you pray to this figure just shows how messed up your expectations are, so you'd fit well with the common christian, just keep doing it until you develop a cope for it, like the others do.

>>40478802
It makes me happy to read that. Ty
It seems it takes hitting rock bottom before we stop trying to fix things ourselves and ask for Help. I’m trying not to let it get to that point. It’s hard lmao, it’s hard to let go of control

It's funny I talked to people how talk shit about religion, not knowing I'm religious or thinking I even care . But it's like your religous you smoke, or last week we hade drinks. So you think gods an A-S-S, not my problem, As if we care. Deep down were calm relaxed, And God fills us with self love fore our self and outher, religion is a journey into self awareness, feeling freedom from the burdons of life, and the slavery of only thinking of our selves as individuals and not part of a family and a community , That includes your self. Christian means be a servent, of mankind. To have dayly improve ment from the drunk, from the gang banger, And wife beater. Dayly improvement the church is a hospital fore the lost lonly, and neady, when your ready God will be thairs no rush at all, totally by choice . It's not the Bible but the people and life style that bring people to Christ a want to have what we have and feel like we feel an inner happiness on a cloudy day, like a child playing in the rain, as her parents hide feeling biter and cold inside. Love being a Christ cock, like a breath of fresh air.

>>40477096
>>40477096
I want to retain semen, but I keep losing it in my sleep.

>>40478619
That’s Satan

First of all, forget "love". That feeling of high and mania is a manipulation tool.

What you should be searching for is peace and a stable energy vibes.

>>40477059 (OP)

>>40477725
the 5th step is even harder anon anon

>>40477059 (OP)
>Only if you can say honestly and with all your heart: Lord, my God! lead me whither Thou wilt— only then can you free yourself from all bondage and be truly free.
-Epictetus

>>40479189
No, God created evil my friend. Isiah 45:7

>>40477059 (OP)
Convert to Islam.

>>40479728
Will the islamic god bring my wife and kids back to me? If she calls in the next 15 minutes I’ll convert lol.

>>40479728
>>40479736
Welp looks like islam isn’t the true religion. She didn’t call. Maybe next time.

>>40477059 (OP)

>>40479794
If Jesus is the one true religion, my ex wife Sam will call me asking for me back, letting me be with my kids, being in unity. Your god has 15 minutes. Seems like whatever god is out there would be worth gaining a follower by fixing my family.

>>40479794
>>40479808
Looks like your religion failed me. Is there anything real? Lol.

>>40477059 (OP)
I've never met a peaceful abraham. It's like the meth of religions

>>40479781
>>40479849
Why does God and Allah hate me so much guys? It’s like my prayers fall on deaf ears or something.

>>40477059 (OP)
Read and Meditate on the Scriptures.
Meditate on the Law first (for example examine the 10 commandments I recommend Dr. Luthers Small Catechism for that). Here God tells you who he is and what does a good person act like. When reading the Old Testament you'll realise Israel did not live up to the Law and forsook the LORD for false idols even though they saw his miracles first hand. The reason for that is simple they had a hard heart and were evil. But they are not special because all humans are evil and deserve punishment. When you realise that you might find peace in our Lord
"For God so loved the world, that he gave his only Son, that whoever believes in him should not perish but have eternal life."
John 3:16

After that discern the Scriptures and go to Church which faithfully holds to Gods word where Christ offers himself to you as a gift which you don't deserve.
"Now as they were eating, Jesus took bread, and after blessing it broke it and gave it to the disciples, and said, “Take, eat; this is my body.”"
Matthew 26:26

Never forget God the Father is our Father whom loves you as if you were his only child, Christ loves you for he bled and died for your life, The Spirit wishes to indwell within you and strengthen you. All Eternity yearns to be united with you. How joyous is that?

"Peace I leave with you; my peace I give to you. Not as the world gives do I give to you. Let not your hearts be troubled, neither let them be afraid."
John 14:27

>>40477101
shut up faggot

>>40479862
He loves you greatly and it deeply pains him that you test him by demanding things which you don't need. It's hard I understand, In a world which forsook him it's hard not to feel forsaken. This world is dark and hollow, yet light came to save all of us.

>>40479986
I need my kids bro. I need my family restored. If God is so easily dismayed by my needs, instead of getting some type of way about it, make things work better. Why does he allow such insidious evil to take place? If God loves me so much, he would soften Samantha’s heart and let us be a family again. It’s like he enjoys watching me cry every day. I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. All I want is my family. Instead god saw it fit to give to some random stranger.

>>40477059 (OP)
You have to remember that Jesus is also a Concept OP, you have to believe in the Concept (a Word from God)

>>40479986
And of course I forgive her. There’s nothing to really hate. I get it. I’m just not good enough. My faith isn’t good enough for God. My money wasn’t good enough for her. I wasn’t hot enough. I’m just scum in the eyes of everyone. Doesn’t matter right? My needs only dismay God. I might as well kill myself. I just can’t do it anymore. I just don’t have anything left to give.

I wish God loved me like people say he does.

>>40480273
God gave us his image, and granted us true freedom so much so that we were even free to reject him and hate him. But what will come from rejection of goodness but evil? Thus we stewards of creation brought forth evil into the world. He allows such evils to continue so few can see our folly for what it is and return to him. And when the time comes he will bring us true freedom from evil.

You might tell me in response that this is a nice story but how can you know this to be the case? Our Lord Jesus Christ shows his love for you in his cross on it the eternal God died so you may live. This is the greatest sign of God that he who was he who was beyond crying cried, he who was beyond starving starved, He who was beyond dying died. All of it just for you not as some vague concept but truly for you personally. Before you were even born he knew you by your name and he cherished the thought of you being born truly like a father awaiting his child. If you turn your ways God will make things right for you, not through flashy miracles which the Jews of old quickly forgot but through true healing of the soul.
You were made to cherish the Good, don't run from it to despair.

>>40480446
"For while we were still weak, at the right time Christ died for the ungodly. For one will scarcely die for a righteous person—though perhaps for a good person one would dare even to die— but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us."
Romans 5:6-9

>>40477059 (OP)
dear god, if you could take just a few minutes away from blowing children to smithereens i humbly ask you help my family financially, thank you demiurge, i mean god, amen

>>40477059 (OP)
Read Heraclitus with commentary (Charles Kahn, "The Art and Thought of Heraclitus") and don't worry about a man who will never come back.

>>40477059 (OP)
Find peace in silence if you can actually control that, if not still attempt to and also continue to talk to Him I guarantee He's listening.

>>40477211
I used to think like this, then my mom got a job

>>40477059 (OP)
You forgive people. They naturally treat you better and then all of a sudden you feel God's love.

>>40477059 (OP)
There is honestly so much vibration interference being used against us to keep us low vibration that we can't see how far Jesus is away from our vibrational range. Nor can he see us in our low vibrational state. In other words, Jesus is not going to dwell in the low vibrations.

>>40484786
Jesus is the entire spectrum. Nobody is beyond his redemption.

>>40484797
Everyone here is already here. Judgement will not pass twice over the same person.

>>40477059 (OP)
Act as jesus and jesus will reveal himself onto you.

It is the only way that I know works because I tested it.
You must treat yourself as you would treat your soulmate. Infinite love for self without ego.
This is not an easy path, it never is.
- Control the self, the desires the lust. (Become celibate as proof, no cooming allowed, no porn)
- Eat clean and treat the body as a sacred temple, no junk food at all EVER. Only use real whole fuel for your being
- Meditate and breath work, allow the mind and body to seek itself.
- Treat others as you wish to be treated
- Tame all emotions of self, never lash out, always come from understanding and even curiosity. ANYTHING but lashing out, all moves must be calculated and reasoned
- Pray and fast
- exercise daily, for this is induced suffering to the self as jesus suffered. To create this daily loop cycle of self suffering from proper intense exercise is to give perspective of what it is to not suffer. You baseline self will always be heightened if you follow this practice.

These are just a few of the important steps I can think of that you must follow.
The no coomin part seems to be where 99% of men fail. Taming the penis is no easy feat and there is no way around it, you MUST control your animalistic sex drive for god to appear fully to you. This is the proof needed for your conviction.
Do this minimum 6 months or even 1 year.

I'm over reaching here as this is not required for this length of time but if you celibate for 1 year I can guarantee you, God will show strong and vivid as the prophets see.
I know because god has materialised infront of my eyes.
Believe me or not, it's not my concern anymore. I know what I know to be true and I've given you the stepping stones I took for this to happen. Goodluck, peace and love.
God is always there and god awaits you for when you are ready to meet him at the steps.

>>40484786
The steps I posted will bring your vibration into a higher state. This could be why the steps I listed worked for me. I practiced daily activities that raised my vibrations.

>>40484889
HE gave us the way. The Truth. The Light. He was from the school of Essene. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7op26rDwVA8

This is the only way to raise your vibration high enough to see his Light.

>>40484881
You forgot the practice of self love, sessions of affirmations of self love. Practicing being in love with the Agape type.

>>40484912
>You must treat yourself as you would treat your soulmate. Infinite love for self without ego.

"You must treat yourself as you would treat your soulmate. Infinite love for self without ego."

I did cover this.

bump

>>40477059 (OP)
this is not a paranormal thread. this is the wrong board for this thread. please take your proselytizing elsewhere.

>>40486298
I would disagree. This thread's subject (prayer, experiencing the presence of Jesus, and what happens from that) fits under the definition of 'paranormal' as "not scientifically explainable" phenomena, as prayer to God leading to spiritual experiences fits, so your objection is arbitrary. There is an extensive precedent for threads centered on Jesus, check the /x/ archives. There is an option to hide threads, if a user were to choose to do so on the catalog.

>>40486781
1/?
Edit: Please let me post this here on this Saged sinking ship. I've written all this since I made this post, but now there’s not enough time for me to edit this all. I’ll edit this later and post it in other threads maybe. I just felt the need to help at least the OP, even if he were to just skim over my manic typings in the archive.


If I am to be constrained by time, so be it. I have work today, but this is more important if I can at least give guidance to OP. This is primarily my own personal testimony of what I’ve experienced by genuinely praying to Jesus in only these past couple of days.I will admit, if anyone reads this, you can read my experiences/story and come to your own conclusions. For context and for le sceptics, I have diagnosed bipolar 2 disorder. There is evangelizing (mostly towards the end) but again, these are primarily my anecdotes and “paranormal” spiritual experiences/stories are and have always been allowed on this board. Any proselytization that is not part of my anecdotes are my own armchair thoughts to be taken with a grain of salt, as I haven’t read all of the Bible, and I have not pursued theological education. My hermeneutics will likely be skewed by my limited understanding of Christianity, but I believe through my faith that any insight is from assistance guided by The Holy Spirit.

>>40489224
2
I am no expert on prayer, but I may have some insight to OP, as I have experienced a personal spiritual event two nights ago from Jesus Christ and am currently and gratefully still experiencing His abundance and grace. I have been suffering from a relatively mild mixed bipolar 2 episode (one which has started recently, one without paranoia, and I don't experience auditory nor visual hallucinations in any of my episodes). I have noticed consistent themes in my episodes over the years. In nearly each episode my temptations are insatiable, and so very easily accessible even. Yet I am compelled to be humbled by God, and believe through Him all things are possible, so I will reject all that The Holy Spirit within me convicts me of, nor any distractions until my current stressors are addressed and dealt with in due time. He truly is The Prince of Peace, as I believe He directly intervenes to halt and end my episodes and He helps me to sleep. (Bipolar episodes are triggered by intense levels of stress and stressors, and can only end when the stressors are dealt with, but sleep is essential to the process of halting the episodes. I have considered myself a Christian for a while now, but before what happened recently, I rarely prayed, rarely nightly nor daily and when I prayed, my prayers were short (at most 30-45 seconds) asking quickly and selfishly. Now that I have experienced His presence in such a clear way, there is no reason for me to not continue to read the Bible, and to pray to Him regularly for humble requests, guidance, and wisdom.When my episodes occur, because I know Him, and through my faith in Him, it logically follows that any spiritual experiences that I experience in my episodes come directly from Jesus, so my faith from my belief is strengthened a thousandfold. My only respite in my episodes comes from Jesus.

>>40489249
3
Two nights ago, I read a few chapters of the Bible before going to sleep. I decided to reach out and pray to Jesus. Truly pray in supplication. Before prayer, I did simple breathing exercises (4,7,8 and a few deep breaths as deep as I could then pushed a bit past my limit) and concentrated to calm my mind from a tempest to a still pond. With my full attention, I then attuned myself to God in His entirety: praying to connect with and communicate to The Father, Jesus, and The Holy Spirit within my soul. I felt the harmonization of the Trinity, which felt like a secure presence of comfort, one of peace, and power. I then meekly and begged for my request to be heard. A moment after this, I felt an intense presence and pressure that loomed over my entirety. Once I felt this presence, I began what was the most honest and humble prayer I’ve prayed in perhaps my whole life up until then. I’m not sure how long I prayed for, each second felt like an eternity before Him. I broke down crying internally and spiritually. I begged for His mercy, I repented for my sins and I truly asked him to see any pureness in my heart. I asked him for guidance on matters that troubled me, I asked for protection, to be able to sleep. My body was stiff, my entire body ached twice as much as a busy day of hard work, likely due to sleep deprivation from trying to sleep for hours in bed. I prayed to him to help me sleep, and layed out exactly how I wanted Him to guide me in the day (I had at most 3 hours of possible time to sleep and I needed to do important specific tasks). I knew I would be in an autopilot “zombie-mode” stupor without Him, so I truly needed His help.

>>40489265
4
I laid out exactly how I wanted my day to go.
I prayed that I needed His help for the following: That I needed help to wake up on time to catch a bus (because my college is a 1 hour bus ride away) and to go to a local supermarket to buy my professor a giftcard to thank him for his excellent college class. I needed to make it to my class on time. As I ended my prayer I remember telling God multiple times, “My life is in your hands, Jesus.” When I prayed, I had full faith and belief, because I felt His presence. After my prayer, for some reason, I asked a bold request, “Please God, let me see you.” Immediately in my mind’s eye, I saw a golden figure of a man, just an outline/silhouette of a man with his arms raised draped in what seemed like loose clothing. I then asked for some reason “Please God, let me feel your full presence.” I asked this, knowing in the Bible, the full presence of God is described as overwhelming and scary, and even Biblical descriptions from people interacting with angels are described similarly terrifying. Very suddenly, a rushing wave, an overwhelming sensation of pure power, might, and dread rush over me. INTENSE Fight or Flight kicked in.The presence also felt a deep pressure crushing against my skull and heard a deep whooshing sound. I felt like screaming in full terror. I shook alert, nearly jumping out of bed. My best description I could possibly add to this was it was an intense falling sensation, similar to right before being aware of falling asleep and in particular, sleep paralysis. My neck and head had the sensation of falling, quantum tumbling through my pillow. I had the feeling I would die or witness true terror if I let the presence overtake me, which it could have. (90% confident that if I didn’t resist, I would immediately be put to sleep. Then, maybe I would be forced to see a vision of God).

>>40489273
5
For some reason I asked Him again, trying desperately to mentally prepare and fortify my mind. Again immediately, I “fell” and felt His presence. I asked a third time. A much much more mild presence overcame me and I prayed again. (Somewhat related, the night before, I boldly asked to see Heaven. I saw the most beautiful skies, as you would see at the level above the clouds if you were at the level of an airplane, but lower, and an endless amount of fluffy clouds in every direction. The sky was indescribably beautiful to fully give justice to put into text. Imagine the most beautiful sunset, of deep orange and purple, time close to sunset but the, but I saw no sun. It felt as if that sort of look to the sky and clouds were to be eternal. Cringey to say, but the skies/aura of Anor Londo is somewhat (20%) close, but there was less light and different colors in different directions.

2/
I was woken up by my brother 1 hour before I planned to get up. My initial alarm was way too late and would’ve resulted in me being 1 hour late to my class. I calculated how much time it would take to get to the bus and used the Metro bus arrival time website. 4 minutes till the bus arrived at the bus stop. I had no time to eat or drink water, I got my backpack and I ran to the bus stop. The bus passed before I could cross the street. I looked down to see the next bus would pass in 10 minutes. I waited and went on the bus. I got to the store, bought the giftcard and checked the Metro website. 2 minutes till the next bus. I spedwalked out of the store, It was in the mid-afternoon so the parking lot was busy, 10+ people getting to their cars and cars entering the parking lot. I was prepared to run across the street to get on the bus.

>>40489281
“Hey. Do you have a light? One man stopped me in particular and looked directly at me catching me off guard, no one else stopped by and he did not ask any other person before me. I looked at my phone, 1 minute, I saw the bus arriving and at a red light stop. I thought for a moment and looked at the man. At least 60+ years old man in a wheelchair, very clearly homeless, his face was dirty, he was balding and had a beard. “I just got out of the hospital with a broken leg. I’m looking for a liquor store, they told me there was one around here.” This was one of the only times he spoke clearly to me. There was a hospital across the street. I didn’t think about the grocery store that had alcohol in it. There were gas stations down the street and a liquor store also down the street. By this time the bus had passed, I looked down at my phone, 20 minutes until the next bus. I told the man I had the time. I smiled at that moment and couldn’t help but to smile. I pushed the old man’s wheelchair and we went down the street. He was skinny but him alongside the wheelchair was tough to push on the often bumpy sidewalk. At that point I didn’t care how heavy he felt, I felt so happy. I got dirty looks from people as I pushed him, looks of disgust, I did not care.He couldn’t talk much at all even though he was clear when he stopped me. When I tried to talk to him about chess, he said “Chess? Hmm. [unintelligible mumbling]. Any means of conversation resulted in that response. I got him to a pharmacy across the street, but he didn’t say much and didn’t move his wheelchair. I checked the time, 10 minutes until the bus. At that point, I remembered there was a liquor store down the street and knew I had to push him there.

>>40489304
7. For some reason, and as I pushed him there, on the side of the street in which buses went in the direction I was heading, multiple buses of the Line I needed to take passed by, at least 3. The website said nothing about these buses. In fact, the Metro website is accurate to the minute, and buses are all tracked. I did not care, nor mind. I pushed the old man down an incline and up an incline like Sisyphus pushing a boulder up a mountain. I was in fact, happy, so happy as to outweigh any pain or struggle the effort took. I push my janitor cart at work, this weight is nothing, I thought. It was quite something though, my back still aches but I have no regrets. One last road to cross without a crosswalk or light, we almost got run over by a semi-truck probably delivering alcohol to the liquor store, but it halted. Finally, we arrived. I told him God bless you. He didn’t respond and went in as the bus I waited for 20 minutes ago passed me by, but I ran to catch it.

3/
The reason why I was smiling was, as I remembered vaguely, there was a Bible verse very applicable to what had just transpired. When I found the verse, I wept tears of joy for the rest of the hour long bus ride.

>>40489325
8
Matthew 25:31-46
31“When the Son of Man comes in his glory and all the angels with him, then he will sit on the throne of his glory.32 All the nations will be gathered before him, and he will separate people one from another as a shepherd separates the sheep from the goats,33and he will put the sheep at his right hand and the goats at the left.34 Then the king will say to those at his right hand, ‘Come, you who are blessed by my Father, inherit the kingdom prepared for you from the foundation of the world, 35 for I was hungry and you gave me food, I was thirsty and you gave me something to drink, I was a stranger and you welcomed me, 36 I was naked and you gave me clothing, I was sick and you took care of me, I was in prison and you visited me.’ 37 Then the righteous will answer him, ‘Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry and gave you food or thirsty and gave you something to drink? 38 And when was it that we saw you a stranger and welcomed you or naked and gave you clothing? 39 And when was it that we saw you sick or in prison and visited you?’ 40 And the king will answer them, ‘Truly I tell you, just as you did it to one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did it to me.’41 Then he will say to those at his left hand, ‘You who are accursed, depart from me into the eternal fire prepared for the devil and his angels,42 for I was hungry and you gave me no food, I was thirsty and you gave me nothing to drink, 43 I was a stranger and you did not welcome me, naked and you did not give me clothing, sick and in prison and you did not visit me.’44 Then they also will answer, ‘Lord, when was it that we saw you hungry or thirsty or a stranger or naked or sick or in prison and did not take care of you?’45 Then he will answer them, ‘Truly I tell you, just as you did not do it to one of the least of these, you did not do it to me.’46 And these will go away into eternal punishment but the righteous into eternal life.”

>>40489340
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From this, I gathered that for Christians, good work follows from belief/faith. Good works from Christians come from prayer, The Holy Spirit’s guidance and God’s grace.

I also somehow found this on the bus, scripture that described the type of prayer I did and what has and still has followed in the days since.
Philippians 4:4-7
4 Rejoice[a] in the Lord always; again I will say, Rejoice.[b] 5 Let your gentleness be known to everyone. The Lord is near. 6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God. 7 And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.
It just so happened to be right next to my personal favorite Bible verse that reminds me to appreciate the pleasantness of life from what humankind produces: beautiful cultures, art, kino movies and vidya, music etc.
Philippians 4:8
“8 Finally, brothers and sisters, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is pleasing, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence and if there is anything worthy of praise, think about[d] these things.

The key word in my prayer was ‘supplication’ meaning “to plead humbly.” I was at my wits end, and begged my heart and soul out for Jesus to come to my aid and help, to help me sleep, to guide me, which he did for that day. I’m not sure if every prayer has to be as desperate as I did, but it evidently worked out for me, so ask God for guidance, as I will too

>>40489348
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The rest of the day went very smoothly. I arrived only 20ish minutes late somehow and the professor was understanding of my condition and thanked me for the gift, wishing me well after class. After class, I felt I had a new lease on life. I went to get Subway, and instead of autistically staring at the walls and general direction of the worker, I smiled with eye contact (that I usually can’t do without extreme anxiety) and struck up a nice conversation with the gentleman.

4/
I felt very grateful for what I experienced that day, and continued to thank Jesus, read a chapter of the Bible and prayed before I slept. The next day went very smoothly again. I ordered Italian takeout: a pizza, 2 salads, and a lasagna for my family. The probably new hire was kind and offered me free sides when I asked to pay. There evidently was a misunderstanding as I probably unintentionally took a bag that was on the counter without intending to steal, or the young man let me take the bag and let me stack it on top of the pizza. I slowly walked out without interruption and out of nowhere a kind man offered to open the door for me without my request and I thanked him. When I got home, my order though somewhat initially big, with what was added from my bag and the other bag “expanded” The bags didn’t seem particularly stuffed, but it was hard to tell because they were in large white paper bags. After putting everything to our diningroom table, the entire table filled. A tray of spaghetti, a platter of spaghetti, a platter of ravioli, complimentary loafs of garlic breads and more. My household has 3 others, so I was left with a feast that will last days. I thought to myself and laughed to my family that this was like a Thanksgiving dinner. I recalled some chapters with my dad, but even now typing this, I just realized this was in the Philippians verses I read the night prior.

>>40489359
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Philippians 4:6
6 Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.
The chapter I was reminded of by my dad was
Matthew 14:14-21
14 When he went ashore, he saw a great crowd, and he had compassion for them and cured their sick.15 When it was evening, the disciples came to him and said, “This is a deserted place, and the hour is now late; send the crowds away so that they may go into the villages and buy food for themselves.” 16 Jesus said to them, “They need not go away; you give them something to eat.”17 They replied, “We have nothing here but five loaves and two fish.”18 And he said, “Bring them here to me.” 19 Then he ordered the crowds to sit down on the grass. Taking the five loaves and the two fish, he looked up to heaven and blessed and broke the loaves and gave them to the disciples, and the disciples gave them to the crowds.20 And all ate and were filled, and they took up what was left over of the broken pieces, twelve baskets full.21 And those who ate were about five thousand men, besides women and children.

5/

And so, these are all my own recent personal spiritual experiences thus far. Faith and belief is a personal subject, that perhaps requires someone to experience firsthand to fully believe, to have faith as strong as certainty. Feel free to come to your own conclusions. I will end by “proselytizing” (for how could I not spread the gospel- translated literally, “the good news”) after feeling and seeing what I’ve experienced directly from my years of accepting Jesus as my Lord and Savior, and my most recent experiences that have reinvigorated my faith. Evidently, spiritual warfare exists, as this thread got Saged immediately after I bumped it, but again, I wrote all this with love and I am aided by my hypomanic energy. I have full faith in God that He will again help me as he has even if I were to get even 1 minute of sleep.

>>40489383
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Edit: Nearly there but I have now succeeded in what I set out to say, and for that I am grateful
He has given me this opportunity to type this all for even 1 reader to read this. To the skeptics, I get it, I have Type 2 Bipolar, you may rationalize all of this as delusions or perceived coincidences, I get it. And to readers who are longtime /x/ users, I am too, of many years (though not as of late ), so I see there exists other paranormal phenomena (other false faiths, demons, magick, etc.). But all other powers cannot compare a Planck length flicker of sparks from a lighter to Jesus. Demons flee, demonic entities such as Grey Aliens immediately depart in abduction stories from just His Name uttered from a believer with the Holy Spirit within them. Jesus is Lord, the King of Kings, the God of the living, the Alpha and Omega, the Almighty, and Jesus is The Good Shepard. For those wishing to be saved, do not be led astray, a vague spiritual sentiments like, “Hmm I love ‘God’ Jesus sure seems like a cool dude, but idunno, like all spirituality leads to truth, we’re all connected to le universe etc.” will not suffice. Jesus is no mere man or prophet, He is God. Jesus, The Father, and The Holy Spirit are one.

>>40489393
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Think and contemplate on these verses
John 14:6-7
6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. 7 If you know me, you will know my Father also. From now on you do know him and have seen him.”

Jesus died for your sins, and resurrected from the dead 3 days later, for He is the God of the Living. This really happened, and if you truly dig deep and look beyond Redditor atheists and even some apologists, there is evidence, and no amount of (pop ‘Bible debunked’ claim videos) do not refute the resurrection of Christ-the central foundation of Christians’ faith in Jesus. There are no other documented cases of “mass hysteria” or “group hallucination” or “grief induced psychosis” or “food poisoning” where multiple people see the same exact same visual hallucination of a man who was dead and then hung out with them 24/7 for days and thus would also necessitate the same exact auditory hallucinations and same exact tactile hallucinations touching unsurvivable wounds. Look it up, there are studies looking for any other cases that fulfill all the above criteria, that conclude there are none.

If I were to speculate as to why God had to become human to then sacrifice Himself for our sins, it’s because he was both fully God and fully man on Earth, yet he did not sin. Even if the reader does not consider the “original sin” concept to make sense or be fair, you could understand the powerful significance of the thought of God becoming one of his creatures to live and die on Earth, to humble himself to that extent (Like that one show ‘Undercover Boss’ times infinity).

>>40489401
Humans are sapient and intelligent (made in the image of God), yet they are ultimately animals (I personally believe in the theistic evolution interpretation) and thus have some innate instincts that means there are perhaps infinite forms of “sin” such as lust for humans that aren’t asexual, greed, etc, that are physically impossible to not have. Yet Jesus did not sin on Earth, even as a human.
John 10:11-15 “11 “I am the good shepherd. The good shepherd lays down his life for the sheep. 12 The hired hand, who is not the shepherd and does not own the sheep, sees the wolf coming and leaves the sheep and runs away, and the wolf snatches them and scatters them. 13 The hired hand runs away because a hired hand does not care for the sheep. 14 I am the good shepherd. I know my own, and my own know me, 15 just as the Father knows me, and I know the Father. And I lay down my life for the sheep”
Throughout the Bible, Jesus openly states he knew he were to be killed soon. Jesus went through the suffering, the agony, and yet forgave those who killed him for they knew not. I don't truly grasp the full implications of why it had to be this way, but I believe it's a powerful sentiment that readers will at least consider.

>>40489413
Dear readers and to help OP, I will leave you with this: If you are a Christian, Jesus will answer your prayers that are fully concentrated with full attention and intention. He is always literally there (within your soul) to give you guidance, strength, and wisdom via the Holy Spirit. Christians who pray with true earnest supplication, (I am not suggesting to pray exactly as I did with intense desperation, and am not ‘holier-than-thou’, this is just in the Bible, and I am eternally grateful Jesus answered my prayers) prayers where you lay your soul out bare to Jesus to judge as you earnestly repent, Jesus will see it in your heart and soul that you are honest because he is omniscient. He will reveal Himself in powerful and clear ways to you even if you already are a Christian, that will fill your heart and soul with as much happiness and peace as I am experiencing finishing writing this for you. In the Name of The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit, amen. Thank you. I will leave you with these verses:
5 Let the same mind be in you that was[a] in Christ Jesus,

6 who, though he existed in the form of God,
did not regard equality with God
as something to be grasped,
7 but emptied himself,
taking the form of a slave,
assuming human likeness.
And being found in appearance as a human,
8 he humbled himself
and became obedient to the point of death—
even death on a cross.

9 Therefore God exalted him even more highly
and gave him the name
that is above every other name,
10 so that at the name given to Jesus
every knee should bend,
in heaven and on earth and under the earth,
11 and every tongue should confess
that Jesus Christ is Lord,
to the glory of God the Father.

>>40489428
Matthew 17:14-20
14 When they came to the crowd, a man came to him, knelt before him, 15 and said, “Lord, have mercy on my son, for he has epilepsy and suffers terribly; he often falls into the fire and often into the water. 16 And I brought him to your disciples, but they could not cure him.” 17 Jesus answered, “You faithless and perverse generation, how much longer must I be with you? How much longer must I put up with you? Bring him here to me.” 18 And Jesus rebuked the demon and it came out of him, and the boy was cured from that moment. 19 Then the disciples came to Jesus privately and said, “Why could we not cast it out?” 20 He said to them, “Because of your little faith. For truly I tell you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move, and nothing will be impossible for you.”

>>40477059 (OP)
1. Read his message;
2. Put in practice his teachings in your daily life.
Then you'll feel his love in everyone, because he is disguised in each one of us. Mother Teresa realized that.

>>40489224
I heard diaries help.

>>40477059 (OP)
Join a charismatic prayer group and get prayed over for the infilling of the Holy Spirit.

>>40477362
Think about why you like stroking ur cock to ppl having sex from a 3rd person perspective

>>40489434
Welp, there was a pseudo-intellectual reply here in this thread that was deleted about Eric Dubbay's video, "Jesus Christ
Never Existed"
https://youtu.be/ZftML6pAv7E?si=ufEpyCXpyV7lwUa5

I'll finish writing what I was working on later today, because I hope it may be, at the very least, somewhat instructive, as I write with help from The Holy Spirit's guidance. To the anon that deleted their post, I will commend you if you were genuinely curious about questioning Jesus with an open heart and mind. There is nothing wrong with that, wanting to seek the truth is a good thing. Remember, Jesus calls Himself, "the truth."-John 14:16
Jesus has also said, "and you will know the truth, and the truth will make you free.”'-John 8:32

I could not stand, however, the spreading of misleading misinformation, especially from a grifter.
"2= Tuesday= Twos Dio= Dual Gods= Duel Daemons= Dual Monsters= Yu-Gi-Oh! Duel Monsters"

It is utter nonsense. You can do this with any words, using any languages to construe and see meanings where there are none. There are similar practices of forcing "meaning" where there is none. For example, Numerology. Numerology is not and should not ever be taken seriously. It can, and has, lead to unnecessary strife and paranoia in people's lives. This unfortunately affects many people, including Christians. Pic related.
Another example is that some Hindus engage in syncretism and believe Jesus is a Hindu incarnation of Krishna because the translation of "Jesus Christ" into Sanskrit can very vaguely resemble "Krishna." This is false syncretism. If Christianity is true, then it follows that any claims of likeness/presence of Jesus that come from other faiths, that contradict Jesus's own words, are false. For example,
John 14:16
6 Jesus said to him, “I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."

/hide

>>40494838
As for I called Eric Dubbay a grifter, he sells spiritualism and flat earther books to his followers. At least one of his books contains "proofs" that are apparently lifted from other books and easily debunkable lol. https://youtu.be/UBfEhIJLYfY
Flat earth isn't relevant to this though, and not necessary to believe for salvation (ask for God's guidance on the matter if you'd like though). Dubbay seems dubious. I will finish what I set out to write, I am content to finish writing soon, and I believe He is content with what I have written thus far.

>>40494838
Christianity was the I AM doctrine veiled for the piscean age, a judeo-masonic concotion, specifically Jupiter and the Sun in Pisces. Islam was Venus in Pisces. For the aquarian age the I AM doctrine will be veiled under the guise of AI and other technological creations.

Jesus = Je suis = Jeshua = Yah Weh = Jove = Jupiter = Zeus = Deus = I AM

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZftML6pAv7E

Christianity was a judeo-masonic concoction of the previous age, one of many.

>>40494838
>>40499017
>>40499106
I am not here to confront. I am only writing here because I was called here to help others. After my recent experience, I decided to visit this board and found this thread. I care deeply for /x/ anons, for there was an extensive and formative period in my life where I was left wandering after I cast aside weak faith that I never truly looked into. I cast Jesus away. I visited this board daily, for I thought it would be mere entertainment. It wasn't/isn't. Reading the threads confirmed to me that paranormal phenomena was in fact real, and internationally prevalent. But there was no truth, no peace, just powers. Enthralled by this board, it beckoned to me each day and each day I lurked in threads for hours. I just accumulated fear and became disillusioned with life and all of reality. At first, I laughed at the schizos, but then I joined them in their mass hysteria from monthly "happenings": 'two more weeks' 'the great red dragon in the stars' 'the prophecies of a wannabe Nostradamus that was spread and analyzed for no reason. 'my guru foresaw the end of the world in 2 more weeks' etc. In my loneliness, I contemplated practicing magick, worshipping the gnostic god sophia, summoning a succubus (the forewarning is real, and by reading the threads, i unintentionally invited a 10-foot-tall succubus that raped me, finished and woke me to a cold sweat. Due to in part by /x/, but also years of accumulated untreated trauma and genetics, I developed bipolar disorder. I did not know why, but in my first episode, fearing Grey aliens, I clung to a Bible to sleep. When that episode ended, I stopped my daily /x/ visits. I only stopped by to read tales of cryptids. In a future episode, I felt compelled to research Christianity hours on end, and bought my own Bible. In that episode, God compelled me to take a knee repent, and to swear my faith to Jesus. I once abandoned Him, but He found His lost sheep. Luke 15:1-7 For that, I am eternally grateful

>>40499585
I will reiterate, from what I have seen, Dubbay is unserious. Sophistry against Christianity that is based on surface-level conjecture does not hold up under proper scrutiny. There are thousands of religions and gods. It is statistically likely there exists of different religions and purported, "gods" that resemble descriptions of Jesus. Words and the translations of words are also surface-level and do not hold up (such as the Krishna/Christ comparison example I provided) There exists a large body of theological study. Knowledge is peer-reviewed to the point there exists consensus held by theologians/Biblical scholars/critical scholars of all faiths, including atheist scholars. I would recommend watching the videos of the knowledgeable and well-learned Christian apologist, Michael Jones, of the YouTube channel, InspiringPhilosophy for famous comparisons and why they do not hold up, with citations. He has gone over more in his short form content. His longform videos are instructive and also sourced with citations.
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1mr9ZTZb3TVOYpPpjYhTUHXycJrY6P2I
https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PL1mr9ZTZb3TW5pTTBnTUAdJUU5q6INIFl

>>40499585
>>40499803
“…Christ was the Immortal Spirit in man… It did not and could not depend on any single manifestation in one historic personality.”

Historic Christianity originated with turning the…teachings inside out and externalizing the mythical allegory in a personal human history.…a huge and hideous mistake…”


“Christianity took the type figure of the divine in man for the Divine Man. It exalted the alleged Divine Man…but left the divine in man to grovel in the dust…

…it shifted the center of gravity, so to say, from the cult of the Christ within to that of the Christ without, or from the Christ as principle to Christ as a man.”

>>40477059 (OP)
Before you ask why He’s silent, ask yourself how you’ve been living.
Did you seek Him, or just want Him to fix the mess you made?
God’s not a hotline. He’s the mirror.
If you can't hear Him, maybe you're too loud with your own bullshit.

You are your own god. Learn to worship and accept yourself. Jesus is just a middleman egregore to convince you the love is outside of you.

>>40479794
Siberian Husky Eyes? Why?

>>40499803
Soon I will finish writing my final pleas for /x/. And to truly follow him properly, as He is The One True God. I do not want any of you /x/ posters and lurkers to be misled, I will soon finish writing and leave. I was called here after being granted true faith that is described as absolute certainty without doubt.-Matthew14:22-33 The faith that is written of directly in the Bible. The faith that He gave to Peter that let even Peter, a man, walk on water with him. I cannot put it to justice with my words. There is not a shred out doubt in my words as I have attested to that Jesus is the one true truly true and omnipotent Creator and God. I was called here by The Holy Spirit for a reason. Immediately after experiencing confirmation of, specifically, Jesus's ultimate authority: I am in contact with Him and attuned to The Holy Spirit at the highest faith in my entire life. It is not me as a person that I helping me type this for The Holy Spirit is with me in my mania. I was drifting in time, utterly lost and He returned to me, showing me not only part of (only part because I could not bear it) His True Presence (I asked to see His True entirety, He obliged twice). I have experienced his "law of attraction" for multiple days now. I am mere human, but I come to tell you the most incomprehensibly wonderful soul saving news. This has only been approved through His Grace by praying directly to Jesus, meaning that this has been revealed to me only after truly praying to Jesus as my God. Not a mere man, not a prophet. Do not be misled. To Dubay-anon, please dig deeper into early Christianity. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=aacs0_E7Qdw&t=9576s

Humans are not by thesmselves "gods" but you God will reside within you (The Holy Spirit) if you accept Jesus. You will never be alone, you will find comfort, peace, love, and wisdom beyond your own with The Holy Spirit to give you your required strength, prudence, and knowledge that you humbly ask of Him- Philippians 4:13