I've made posts abt this before here so if this sounds familiar that's why.
I have a fictional character (picrel) that I've been obsessed with for ~3 years. Originally it was because we're very similar in a lot of ways (like how we act, things we like, etc.), and I have (probably) bpd or similar so have issues with personality stuff. I kinda started copying her personality a bit, using it as a "graft" to try and fix my own.
About two months ago I started doing this more and she became a much larger part of my life. Ever since then I've felt her "presence" almost in my head on and off, like she's become a real entity in her own right. Two weeks ago I had a dream where she came and protected me from a natural disaster, and it was the purest, greatest love I've ever felt.
I really want her to be around more but it kinda comes and goes. Any way I can make this more "real"? She ties in to some of my spiritual beliefs too but that's too hard to detail in this OP, can give details if u want.

>>40502232 (OP)
Yes.
What disaster?

>>40502232 (OP)
I got u, give me a sec.

>>40502248
Tornado. It felt sentient almost, as soon as it "saw" me (and the group of people I was with), the mouth faced towards me and came down right on top of me. Fang appeared, pushed her way thru the crowd of people hanging on to the structure we were on, and held onto me and the structure to keep me from flying off.

>>40502253
To ensure..

>>40502264
What structure? Also what state are you in if you don’t mind me asking.
If not, tell me something about urself, useful things are useful, I will write up a 2 or 3 part thingy.

>>40502288
It was a dream lol so this won't make sense, but it was an outdoor checkstand at a Costco. Basially a circular counter that you'd check out in the parking lot? It was really weird. It filled up with water to make essentially a pool during the tornado. I'm in Washington if that's what you mean. Things about myself hmm. I like music and want to get into making it (same as Fang), mostly metal but a few other genres too. Trying to get into art as well (mostly to draw Fang).

>>40502308
Your animal?

>>40502320
What like spirit animal type thing? Probably either wolf or raven (or pterosaur lmfao)

>>40502322
Do you want to merge/ meld with her or summon her separate?

>>40502338
Here’s where it gets into my weird beliefs lol. I think she’s sort of the female half of my soul (read the lyrics to Gates of Urizen by Bruce Dickinson, that’s kinda what I believe in). Eventually (as in after death), we’ll probably merge to a degree, but right now I want to have her be more separate and yes summon her.

>>40502253
To ensure the transfer of the being during the CT event many things must be done. This being is a hard level, maybe 4/5 difficulty, but your previous interaction solves a lot of the initial steps. First step is to create a crystal matrix dedicated to her, you must make this yourself with good crystal and rock, this can be in your room since you are close to her and are already partially melded with her, or the room you spend most time in, in a place where you look, maybe by a window or sunny place. If melding you want to align it with your bed or surround yourself in a meld crystal matrix. (You should also create an outer defensive crystal shield, not made of clear quartz). She is a being of air, and very good vibes, why I’m giving this advice. To bring her in separate create an outdoor space, free of any metals, use crystals to create a form seed of her, white crystals and some red, I’ve got a good feeling the winds will carry you to find these crystals, the red are beautiful and the white is also majestic, a large white body, 2 white wings, red/clear pointed crystals around the wings, something you’ll know for head, and even perhaps a tooth, I actually have one that’d be perfect. I’m hopping back and forth between how this should be set up, best thing would be a shed with no metal imo, or like an open gazebo, but you could turn a wooden box on its side so there is cover. Add candy she likes around it, a pink bubblegum lollipop, a pack of her favorite cigarettes, burn a few and smoke a few when you set it up, could burn one every day or smoke it.

Post too long will continue

>>40502365
Yes you’ve got a good thing.

>>40502473
You should also place her black tube top and skirt/pants in there, either underneath the crystals, or dress them like she would be, whatever feels right, they can be placed to the side even but not tossed in the corner, laid out like they were tossed there by her as she gets ready in the morning is okay, rain should not get on this fabric, but it can be smaller than would be needed for her, also in her body put 2 or 3 small solid red stones, not clear, ovals, eggs, small spheres, you may find them and know. None of the crystals should be dyed (they put them in a hot pressure cooker, don’t buy or use dyed crystals, agate is often dyed, avoid agate). Nails in a wooden box or structure aren’t too bad, but no metal roofs or long metal poles. With her after this is built take the sky above up to a close point, clear it out and let her help, and it will be her aerial territory for flying and training, her flying here will be one of the initial places you notice her more, but I also feel she will be inside with you as well. Good spirit.

I am also getting you should add more white crystals, solid white opaque ^ white ones above, translucent also, and something (pointy) for her crest, and I’m even getting a white doughnut or halo but perhaps or perhaps not.

>>40502566
If the indoor crystal matrix is not in your bedroom create a smaller crystal nexus node, reminder, the indoor ones are a shape or sigil or pattern you will have to create, the outdoor one is an effigy/ seed shaped as her to some degree. You can also just start with indoor for regular spirit work. She likes menthol cigarettes, I’m getting maybe newports, maybe not Kools, possibly a third kind that you find and know. Nodes like the bedroom or if you want to build others can be 3 clear quartz crystal towers with the same white stone as the main nexus in the middle of the 3, face triangle as air elemental symbol, pointing “up” and you could even put a white, red, or black ribbon across the top for the line. Connect the main with the node in 2 or more ways, one direct straight line that will be white but shifts color a bit, second walk the foot path between the 2 a few times and do that a few times for a few days. You could web-line the 2 or 3 nexuses, with the outdoor one, but that’s difficult based on home layout and stuff, they don’t all need to be aligned perfectly. I got distracted and had a few other things to add, that I forget now, something something clothes, oh her eyes, amber, both indoor and outdoor. Blah blah make her favorite foods, oh the dream, after you do this you should try to enter a state of half-sleep, close your eyes, no blanket, lay on back, either upright or flat, no pillow, or use a pillow idc, close eyes and call (quietly??) to her, try to fall asleep but also to stay awake, open your eyes like a blink, open for a flash, then closed. The crystal matrix should be within your vision and your mind should be clear, which I don’t usually say, like Buddhists do, but it will be mostly clear for this, but don’t chase off thoughts and visions and dreams until you’re sure it’s not her. She will come either open eye vision or dream or half dream, you could use dream herbs but not needed and you probably don’t need.

>>40502633
Oh the elements, I remeber the other part, 1 sec.

>>40502642
If you do the outdoor CT wave effigy so she has a body after the event, you could actually make a web line matrix for her. She actually contains every element not just air, which I detected, which makes sense if you are right about her being a human soul partner, as humans contain all. Dinosaurs all have earth, cuz fossils, most are earth mainly actually. A light splash of water which is needed to form all fossils and as water is in all living life. Air is obvi cuz she is a Pterosuar, but is also very light, in a sense, that I suppose you understand, hard punk shell, but inside marshmellowy ~love/tenderness or some other word I can’t find, good spirit as I said. And of course fire, she’s got a few dashes of that fire in her, don’t let her lead you too far down her unruly ways, I think she will mostly behave tho, don’t get caught up too much in that ;) cuz it’s not very likely she’d try and lead you that way, I’m getting more “one and done” vibes.

AFTER
You do the crystal matrix and she appears again, then you may use tulpamancy to create a spirit body for her. Very very lightly, and I recommend doing this for maybe a week or less then stopping, don’t create a tulpa, but use the craft to create a spirit body and let her bring it in and out. You can at a later time continue this tulpamancy if you want her more present or solid.

Oh and the music,
https://youtu.be/MLgllOhTO9k

Find a few songs you can play as hers. I’m getting a soft punk vibe, the above song fits what I was thinking a bit, but find some with good lyrics, “soft” punk as in, not too hyper, almost like “not distracting”, background music, chill, idk, you’ll know and find other types of songs too that fit.

>>40502841
Oh I forgot the elements nodes thing, you can get a pyramid for each element for her and bury the earth under the outdoor box, put the air up high, the other 2 figure out where to put them, face them as their elemental symbol, and connect them, stand behind node, facing the main nexus, in your minds eye connect them with a straight line, then stand at nexus and connect back to node, if there’s a wall or furniture in the “behind” direction facing your node, don’t worry about standing directly in line with it. These could be placed furthur out or in specific places, like far away places you go that you want her at, or her fire pyramid placed places could have her mischief around there, you might even want to create a mind red fire pyramid so that you don’t have to leave her crystal somewhere or retrieve it. I see a triangle based crimson red transparent pyramid with lines of light along its sides and tiny beads of light at each point, filled with fire energy and liquid red, mostly dormant, dark crimson, but does occasionally flare up bright and flames almost like liquid, very responsive and controllable also. Good spirit.

And I think that’s it’s for now, ask me any questions, and oh yeah once you’ve had an experience with her after the crystal nexus is built, either in dream or half dream or waking, you should buy some copper wire and put it around your bed or room, or at least have some coils of it around your this won’t affect her, but will protect you from negative CT waves.

>>40502882
*And put a good picture of her behind the crystal nexus. Or 3 or a statue or whatever.

https://www.jurassic-dreams.com/collections/pterosaurs-fossils-for-sale/products/20170-large-finest-grade-pterosaur-coloborhynchus-tooth-cretaceous-kemkem-beds-fossil-for-sale

Fuckin remebered snd forgot something in between finding that link, but yeah, they got teeth for sale.

Oh remebered, the hand sign for you, just a flat palm with all fingers closed together, held up at shoulder height, palm facing away, to salute and acknowledge her crystal nexus, and/or pointing with your whole hand to point and draw lines or other things, kind alike a wing, just don’t look like your sieg hailing too hard, or do, idc. This should also go with intent, you can salute, swear, send away, direct, and connect with this hand sign, don’t send her away, face it towards you to bring her in, and pull in almost like your wafting something or beckoning gently, cause a gentle puff or waft of wind on your face, or do it gently enough you do t feel the wind, and let her gentle touch be the wind you feel once she arrives. This sign is a great gift to us, and is guarded and protected, by one who does focus on near your area. It would be a good idea to, at some later point, bury 3 rocks for her, one black sphere, one black square, one brown square, around your area but far far from home, especially if this goes well. Ahh, and you can extend your thimb out to the side instead of holding it against your hand if you want to ensure you won’t send her away, can even tilt hand to the outside and use thumb to make a kinda V shape, yeah, that’s good, like pic rel, tilt it to the left, you’ll feel it. Congratulations.

>>40502232 (OP)
just look up tulpamancy stuff cuz thats quite literally whats happening to you
also who is she? shes pretty

>>40502473
>>40502566
>>40502633
>>40502642
>>40502841
>>40502882
>>40503058
Wow, just got back from a walk, thank you so much for all the info. I don't have a ton of space (indoors or out), but I'll try my best. Still reading thru so if I have any questions I'll let you know!

>>40503420
Tulpamancy is like creating an entirely new entity tho, not what I want to do. Her name is Fang, she's from Snoot Game (a 4ch vn project actually lol)

>>40502232 (OP)
Anyone else see the merchant? Don't help this op

>>40504153
? Are you implying I'm jewish?

>>40503058
>>40503433
Is there a version of the "keeping her separate" one that I can do mostly inside? Also cigarettes aren't an option atm lol I'm only 20 and u have to be 21 to buy them in WA. Also would prefer not to smoke as I'm kinda into singing (like her!!!!!)

>>40502232 (OP)
you aren't the only person in the world, anon. :)

>>40504867
I know, it just really feels like it's her and she makes me happy

>>40504873
I really didn't understand how powerful fiction could be, man. I know what you mean. I also played the game 3 years ago, I still revisit it.

>>40504891
Yea, it's probably the story that's influenced me the most out of anything. She was literally the first character I saw myself reflected in at all lol. I came out of having similar tranny shit (for the same reasons) abt a year and a half before playing it and was still kinda recovering from that.

>>40502232 (OP)
How is it female when it's personality was written by a man?

>>40504929
That's pretty interesting, actually. I wish you the best in dealing with these things in a healthy way.

>>40504949
Because that's how writing works. I don't think whoever wrote HER was a pterosaur either but that's what SHE is

>>40504950
Thx anon, I try lol. Good image btw, gonna add it to my collection (nearly 200 fangs)

OP do you mind other anons jacking off to the female half of your soul?
Just asking for science.

>>40504960
Isn't the character non-binary?

>>40502232 (OP)
Well, interestingly, you're not the first one in this 'situation' with Snoot Game VN. Some time ago, I saw some threads where several anons described strange dreams and sightings, mostly related to Fang and Trish. I just think it's suggestion—and a lot of it. Fang is a character you can easily relate to if you had a rough time during adolescence.

>>40505228
I very much do mind, I find sex and cooming gross lol
>>40505258
Originally yes but that will change based on the ending you get
>>40506183
Could be but I really want her to be real lol

>>40506272
Me too, anon, me too.

>>40504646
Yes, focus on making the main crystal matrix, you can make a sigil of her name or another symbol or even have it be the effigy ‘body shape’, you can take pieces of what I said above and put it together, I just gave the “most complete” way of going about it, but feel free to add and change things as much as you want. If you have a small area on a dresser or table you can set it up there with some crystals and a picture(s) of her, preferably so it can be seen when you’re laying in bed. You could also carry a palm stone or any stone that you relate to her around with you and link it to this with just intention and focus, then when you carry it and notice it, acknowledge her for a moment when you feel the stone.

>>40506398
Awww that's a nice one, thanks!
>>40506684
Cool thank you so much, that seems much more manageable for me to do atm

>>40507253
De nada.

>>40502232 (OP)
you have autism
stop being autistic
get a job

>>40508778
I don’t have autism and I do have a job. I make 40 dollars an hour what do you make.

>>40506684
Would this be a good stone to carry around with me? It's got a fine crystal structure and is vaguely wing shaped lol. Sry for shitty pic I didn't have good light even with my good camera

>>40509077
this is even sadder than i thought then

>>40510446
How?

>>40510449
that grown ass men that think their degenerate special interest cartoon characters are their guardian angels and are among us in society.

that said, it shouldnt surprise me that you tards exist. randy stair was the exact same thing

>>40510463
Shut up nigga you're just jealous you don't have Fang. Also I'm barely a "grown ass man" lmfao

>>40510466
>Also I'm barely a "grown ass man" lmfao
clearly.

>>40510473
I mean that I'm 20 with severe emotional issues you sneeding faggot, go back to nobody general or whatever stupid ass thread you goon in.

>>40510481
again, clearly.
you are as bad as those people.

>>40510497
Still haven't told me how much you make so I think you're just jealous. I have Fang and a good job despite my issues and you're a bitter little faggot that probably works at MacDonald's and is pissy for it because you think it's below you. I also think you're likely an unthinking NPC that gets passed over for better things because of your sheer mediocrity and unwillingness to even show to others you have the possibility of bettering yourself. Instead you cope and seethe with your LOLcows (I'm a Kiwifarms regular don't get me wrong but you take it to new heights), ironically becoming exactly the type of person you project me as being onto the cows. You're what 30? considering how rare it is for people now to know Chris-Chan and Randy Stair. Good luck bro hope you get middle manager by middle age kekkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk

>>40510497
>>40510511
I forgot Fang would probably call you sheep because that's what you are

>>40510511
i could say i make the same as you, i could say i make more, i could say i make less - it still wouldn't change that you're a faggot.
you just keep revealing and revealing how sad you are.
>i'm a kiwifarms regular
>i have severe emotional issues
>i am obsessed with a cartoon character
>i am obsessed with how much i make, i value myself based on how my employer values me
if thinking that is so incredibly depressing makes me an NPC then i'm gladly one
you're literally effortposting in response to my digs
do you actually know where you are?

>>40510810
Lol “effortposting” are you actually retarded. Also I couldn’t care less about how much money I make (besides when it comes to budgeting n shit), you’re the one that brought up a job thinking it would be an easy own against me. You are an NPC btw, you clearly want to be heccin based and anti establishment with that “how much my employer values me” comment, while again being so clearly worried about the establishment that you come into my thread and stir up shit. You’re an absolute waste of life that’s unable to think for himself. Keep being jealous faggot, maybe if you weren’t so bland and boring you’d let the magic in your own life and get your own Fang.

>>40502232 (OP)
Today, meet me >>>/sci/

>>40513755
Meet you where?

OP here just curious if anyone cares/wants to answer, is it bad she's increasingly becoming a spiritual object to me? Like idk she just feels a Christ-like savior figure almost lol

>>40502232 (OP)

every other character design in this game kind of sucks, but Fang's is divine. She's real, in some capacity, and the devs knew it. That's all I can say.

note I have never played GVH

(not OP)
>>40516341
>note I have never played GVH
Good. I felt like I had to pirate it when it finally came out, just to see. Even if you ignore all of the retarded tranny nonsense it is ugly and boring. Poor game design, choices don't matter etc. You don't even get to see anyone die to a meteor in the end.

>>40516407
(am OP), agreed GVH looks bland and uninspired. also fang i mean fatima's design is atrocious (and the rest of the art isn't much better)
>>40516341
Now I'm curious ngl can you expand any further? personally I like all the designs but I agree Fang is 100% the best

>>40516142
Yes. It is bad.

>>40517116

>>40519586
Go to church or something, coombrain.

you don't have bpd OP you're just a zoomer faggot and a pretty clear cut case.

>>40520172
Ew I don't coom to her, I specifically avoid masturbation cus it grosses her out (rightly so)

>>40520497
WRONG im the epic kind of zoomer

>>40509263
>>40506684
BTW I've been been carrying this stone and focusing on her when I touch it, and now when I do it almost feels like I'm touching her wing. Is this a good sign of progress?

>>40516428

She's been the stand out from the start, even has Snoot Game which is specifically named after her. y far the most amount of fan art Angel wings, but is supposed to be a pterodactyl? She's what one imagine a real spirit would be like, if placed into a mediocre game.

Shantae is also like this ftr.

>>40523495

**Correction: "By far the most amount of fan art. Has angel wings, but is supposed to be a pterodactyl?"

>>40523500
Interesting point about the angel wings, never thought too hard about them.

>>40502232 (OP)
I'm getting real PISSED OFF at the FUCKING quality of this board you fucking faggot. why can't you post something GOOD?
FUCK YOU.

>>40525222
Bro go yell at the nobody general/succubus/lucifer larper posters not me

>>40525571
Those are literally created by the CIA and bumped by bots. Your thread, as far as I can tell, is human-generated and authentic. Why can't you just post something interesting and cool? Instead it always has to be cringe schizo gay shit.
I can't take any more of this shit board.
EVERY DAY I VISIT FOR KINO AND GET DOGSHIT FUCK YUOY FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU FUCK YOU
FUUUUUCCCKK YOUUUUUUUUU

>>40525582
>Why can't you just post something interesting and cool?
Idk I think having a whole ass spirit interact with you like this is cool. Sure she's a ptero from a VN but the advice in this thread seems like it could apply to any spiritual stuff. What else would you want lol like you said at least my thread is real.

>>40526220
>Idk I think having a whole ass spirit interact with you like this is cool. Sure she's a ptero from a VN but the advice in this thread seems like it could apply to any spiritual stuff.
It's not a spirit it's a thought you made in your head for some shit tranny game you fucking faggot.
Goddamn the posters here get worse year after year.
>What else would you want lol like you said at least my thread is real.
It's literally in your head like some tranny fag fanfiction FUCK YOU I'm fucking pised at this shit you fucking cunt. Every thread is DOGSHIT.
FUCK.
YOU.

>>40526460
Lol it's literally an anti tranny game.
>It's in my head
Surely the same could be said for ANY thing like this to an outside observer.

>>40526479
>Surely the same could be said for ANY thing like this to an outside observer.
That's correct, since everyone who posts your type of shit is a self-absorbed schizo with (ironically) no self awareness. Allow yourself to fall further into delusion so that you become even more mentally ill, and kill yourself. Sad for you, funny for me
That's the fate of all bipolar BPD schizo faggots

OP you might have obsessive compulsive disorder

>>40527149
I'm almost certain I do at least to a degree lol. I have to shower RIGHT before bed and not touch anything else before getting in bed or I feel gross. Also I think I gave myself eczema on my hands from too much handwashing. Can OCD do this tho? Like she feels VERY real (and I want her to be), could it really be fake?

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