Every since I somewhat "turned my back" on believing and praying I've been getting nothing but problems. Mainly health problems, both mental and physical. As crazy as my workouts have gotten, I've never had an injury. But now I have two, and I haven't exercised in a week. My sleep is all over the place, my anxiety from when I was younger is back with a vengeance. I had random tooth pain since yesterday that's been on and off for no reason despite barely eating sugar. I get angry at everything. Family members are getting health problems and money problems. Etc. It's like I was blessed or protected in a way and it's been removed from me. Has anyone else experienced this?

>>40508622 (OP)
Well, you seem to have identified the source of the problem. So that's good. It isn't that God's punishing you, he's giving you what you want. You want to exist outside of his auspices, that is your choice. What you're experiencing right now is what that looks like. If you want to live in the woods, the animals are going to attack you. The the great thing about God is that he will always hold the door open for you when you come back.

>>40508700
I want my tooth to stop hurting. I don't have insurance

>>40508622 (OP)
>It's like I was blessed or protected in a way and it's been removed from me.
I know what you mean. Its something akin to childhood innocence. You just believe everything will be fine and so it is. Then you turn away from a higher power, and you get cold hard raw reality, absent any guiding principle of intelligence, and it all comes crashing in on you.

>>40508703
Im there with you. I have the wonderful gift of severe gum disease from my father and my teeth are rotting from the gum line down in layers like sheet rock. idgaf about god

>>40508703
I'll pray for you but I can't promise anything. Have faith in God and ask him to give you the strength to persevere.

>>40508703
It is not expensive to remove a teeth.
You can save your teeth with sea salt and some water you do a mouthwash for 10 to 30 min.
If its hurt you take some painkiller.
I smoked cocaine all my teeth are fucked.
Root canal is expensive and will give you cancer, I removed like 5 teeths already

>>40509366
based retard smoking cocain

>>40509366
You can't allow an infected tooth to just sit there it goes into your blood and eventually your brain.

>>40508622 (OP)
It’s when I turned to god that’s when all my problems began. And my life has been shit ever since for the last 22 years as a result. My faith daily was tested. I simply don’t have it in me anymore. I’m not strong enough to believe in a god that would take my family from me.

You are God. Simply affirm to yourself, repeatedly for as long as it takes, that your teeth are fine, there is no pain and you are perfectly healthy.

>>40508751
Not op, but why did god allow my wife and kids to leave me? Why does he like watching me cry for 22 years?

If God was so good, he wouldn’t let kids get cancer. He wouldn’t allow any of this evil in the world. He wouldn’t have planted a tree that creates sin. I simply don’t have the ability to believe in it anymore. I’m sorry. God never once lifted a finger to help me when I had faith. He just let my world be destroyed like it was funny or something. Like watching me in agony was amusing to him. I just can’t do it anymore. I seriously just want to die. I have no hope because nothing ever gets any better. Despite praying. Despite dedicating my life to Jesus. It’s like he doesn’t even care that I exist. I’m so sick of hearing about how much God loves me but I sit here without my family. My wife and kids being with another man. The evils of this world simply wouldn’t be allowed if God truly existed. I’m sick and tired of all the excuses. I loved God. I really did. I just don’t think he exists. I feel like I wasted all these years praying in faith, only to be talking to the air. I just don’t see any results. At the end of it all, if I burn in hell for these words, I don’t think it would be much worse than my life is right now. Sure I’ll be burning in a lake of fire, but the agony will simply be the same. It’s like God likes me being in agony or he simply doesn’t exist. You’d think after a lifetime of dedication I would see anything. I watch everyone else get their blessings but I’ve only ever gotten curses. And the worst part is, other Christians, blame me. As if it’s somehow my fault that I lost everything over and over. I’m just so tired anymore. I don’t have the faith to even cry anymore. I’m beyond jaded. I’m beyond pain and agony. I’m beyond numb. And I’ve begged god to move this mountain in my life but he refuses, or doesnt care, or he simply hates me in particular, or he doesn’t exist. I just have no other explanation as to why my life has simply been so terrible.

>>40509644
If God existed he wouldn’t have let me get raped by another man when I was a child. If God existed he wouldn’t have let my mom be so insane. If God existed at all, he wouldn’t have let any evil thing ever happen. I just don’t understand why God would create a hell, create a sinful nature and allow it to even exist in the first place, much less continue sending souls here knowing that they’ll sin and burn in hell. The entire idea of it just seems batshit insane when you look at it with any scrutiny.

>>40509670
To any “Christians” reading this, if you want to know why people stop believing in God, its because God refuses to help people and doesn’t answer prayer. He just lets things rot away instead of helping. Instead of fixing any simple thing, he just lets things fall to pieces. And I’m supposed to just accept it as providence?

I get that I’m not perfect, but God is supposed to be. So why does God let so much bullshit happen to people? Why does he continue to allow any of this? It’s almost like it’s all complete and total bullshit and if God wanted to “save” me, he knows where to find me. He knows my one simple prayer. Just bring my family back to me. That’s all I’ve ever asked for. And it’s the one thing he’s given to someone else. It’s just not fair. And I simply can’t accept God as a reality when he lets such evil things to take place under his “all seeing” eyes.

>>40509670
Maybe it was God that raped you and your mom is the matrix and you'll have to just forgive them to get along in your little world. Insane is cool bro. fuck the state.

https://youtube.com/shorts/2u_fwiPDSxQ?si=gF_XGJ-jJkHQ5_OR

>>40509711
God did plant the tree of sin. It’s like he’s evil.

It’s like I’m supposed to believe in God while he lets another man ram my wife. I’m supposed to believe in God while he lets my ex keep my kids from seeing me for no good reason. I’m supposed to believe in God while I live in squalor working my ass off. Fighting for every crumb. I’m supposed to believe in this supposed god that let everyone else be happy while my heart remains empty. My life without meaning. My entire world just blown to pieces while god sits by “protecting me”. Ya know instead of changing her heart to love me, the father of her children. That can’t be allowed, naw. That would be too easy.

So either god has no morals and is an evil dictator with a heart of stone himself, or he simply can’t exist. Because I dedicated my life to Jesus Christ. I truly did. I want to believe. I really do. But it’s like I’m not allowed a simple miracle. No I have to live in agony because “long suffering is the way”. But people can be rich and have their families in tact. It’s like God is more interested in “saving” new believers than he is in keeping the ones he has.

So fuck religion. I simply don’t have the faith anymore. I tried. I gave it my all. I’m not good enough. I’m not strong enough. And once I get the courage, imma kilo myself. Not like God would miss me.

>>40509772
I want to make it clear. I’m not perfect by any means. I know I’m a sinner. I know I’m a fuckup. I’ll be the first to admit it. But God can’t forgive me? Just doesn’t make any sense to me anymore.

>>40509644
>>40509670
>>40509772
Look, all I'm saying is, it wasn't until I stopped caring in my heart that bad stuff started happening. Maybe it's just pure coincidence and you're right. I don't know.

>>40508700
>being a cuck for god
bleak

>>40509808
I’m not trying to argue against your faith. But I put my faith in Jesus while my world just keeps falling apart. Nothing ever gets any better despite my prayers. Despite my faith in him. It’s like he doesn’t care. Like I’m his enemy and he’s got it out for me. I’m not saying that “look at all the works I’ve done” but man it’s not like I didn’t live it. I was about it. I did the entire thing. And I’ll still help everyone I can. I just don’t see why God couldn’t help me. Like it’s impossible to bring my family together. Like I’m not allowed a moment of happiness. I’m not allowed to be around my kids. I would forgive her lies about me. I would accept her with open loving arms as if nothing ever happened. I would show that kind of forgiveness. I’m not above anything. But it’s like day after day of this total sadness. People blaming me and believing the lies. I pray that God changes her heart. Every day. But for 14 years, I’ve not seen a single god damn miracle in my life. Just this crushing loneliness. Am I perfect? No. Am I good? No. But I had faith. They say “faith of a mustard seed can move a mountain” but like this mountain remains in my way. This chasm only widens. And God refuses to help. So I’ll sit here quietly crying. I’ll do my best to help others, and when it’s over, I’ll burn in hell for my lack of faith or I’ll simply die and no longer exist. My plight isn’t important to God I suppose, so if I’m not important to Him, what am I doing with my life believing in Him?

Man I feel a lot better. LOL. Didn’t mean to unload like that but I just don’t get why all this shit is allowed.

>>40509861
Well I don't know why I should be favored because I did nothing to deserve it yet somebody like you is suffering mentally. If he's real then I don't understand it.

>>40508622 (OP)
do an oil pull
get some olive oil and swish it around your mouth pretty intensely for 20 minutes (set a timer) once a day

>>40509908
I’m not trying to shake your faith. And if this is my test, I flunked. I failed. Whatever. I simply no longer have the ability to have faith. Everything that’s transpired in my life, I’m supposed to just endure.
>god promised eternal life but he didn’t promise an easy life
I’m fine with hardship. I can’t work with impossibility.

>>40509904
>>40509921
I am sorry

>>40508622 (OP)
You were getting the quiet before the storm, now you are getting actual signals that you do things that are wrong.
Like you were in the "hopeless fool that won't listen, lets boost his arrogance until he cracks up" basket, as many christians (and followers of other false religions such as islam) are.

>>40513477
Now what?

Lucky to been blessed my whole life and my relationship is ever changing from belief, to denial, to faith and love, yet he gives me the opportunity and discipline to survive this world

>>40508622 (OP)
>>40509644
God doesn't exist. Creators exist but they don't give a fuck about you and they don't intervene. Whether you pray or not doesn't matter.

What people normally refer to as "God" and what they think "God" is, is a complete aberration. Faith only matters as much as you believe in something and act upon it, faith does not extend to other beings outside of your control.

Things can always get worse, see webm related. These things happen every day, not just in Europe but all over the world, for thousands of years without interruptions and the best part is nobody cares and nobody does anything to change things no matter how much they say otherwise.

>>40508622 (OP)
urp...

Depressing thread, hopefully just demoralization bots.

>>40508622 (OP)
you think you are being punished
so you are being punished
simple as

>>40508622 (OP)
I used to feel that way too, but it's actually one of the ways he let's me know things. He knows I care for others more than myself, so that is why others whom I care about are affected when I knowingly commit certain sins. He knows that I am aware. There are things you know deep down that you SHOULD do (just like me) that you have been putting off. As I've experienced multiple times, once you stop engaging in the acts that you shouldn't and instead do what you feel that you SHOULD then his path for you becomes clearer and you will both be working in harmony. Again; You are not being punished, but instead because of his love and mercy he is working in ways that you will most likely take notice of.
Will you allow God to rescue you from your own downward spiral?

It's mainly cause you are an attention hungry nigger. I hope everything in your life goes to shit and you suffer and die alone.

It is my belief that God has given us dominion over the earth and all physical things. I believe he won't meddle in human affairs or earthly things. Seek him out when your situation gets better and you are ready to seek the divine. The state of the earth is not the result of God but of humans. it is our job in the machine. Stay strong pray for wisdom and strength. God doesn't mind you straying from the divine to find yourself first. Like in any relationship take care of yourself first brother. Try to take some control. Best of luck