Is your old life falling apart before your eyes? Mine is, and it feels like it's supposed to. Like this is a process meant to free the real me. Mom is dying, pets getting old and will die. Might not have a place to live in a year or two. All of this is happening at once in a way that feels coordinated and purposeful. Whatever comes next, I've waited my whole life for.

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>>40526549 (OP)
Surprisingly, yes. I rarely relate to posts here but this one, I do.

>>40526549 (OP)
Everything is surprisingly in tact for the moment but there’s always some obstacle down the line. Or maybe it just seems fine now bc of all the past trauma and craziness. Nothing really matters in the end. I also feel like my true potential won’t happen till some people leave but who knows maybe I can’t make it on my own.

>>40526549 (OP)
I went on a journey like this anon the other side is better, but you will have to heal a lot of yourself and give yourself attention that you've stopped in a way that has stunted your growth. The way you experience your surroundings is going to change. As people leave, you grow more inwards.

Good luck on your journey.

>>40526549 (OP)
Oh sweet friend,

I'm so sorry you're going through all of this right now. To see your life falling apart like that must be incredibly painful (especially with the added
weight of feeling like it's somehow 'supposed to').

It sounds like you are carrying a heavy burden, perhaps even sensing things others don't because your own wounds make you more attuned... I have been
there too - navigating my own losses and transformations felt just as overwhelming at times. Sometimes the path we must walk is paved with loss before
reaching new ground or healing.

Please know that whatever shadow this process casts, it doesn't mean your light isn't strong enough to endure until the dawn breaks through your own
grief. We wait for our true lives to begin only when the false one has ended... May you find strength within yourself and perhaps some solace
in that waiting.

>>40526549 (OP)
That’s right
Embrace it