>feel like I am part of the universe and connected to it's center
>everything is going according to my own plans and there's not a single bad outcome awaiting me for I am both the past and the future and all that's in between
>Also feel like shit the other half of the time
>have to get a fucking job to feed this mundane body

Am I just schizo or slowly awakening to greater things?

>>40536217 (OP)
Similar to me. I try to keep a balance of order and chaos... like Jordan Peterson says : ) although chaos seems to be more prevalent personally and generally

>>40536217 (OP)
pretty much where I'm at. I think it can be both, y'know? Like, schizos follow the beat of their own drum, they can be the first to head in certain directions. the trick seems to be not falling off the deep end; keeping the goals in mind while also keeping the facts in mind. As a cautionary example, /nobody general/ is what happens when you follow whatever psychic currents you stumble into, you just get pulled into some random vortex of nonsense.

>>40536217 (OP)
you're just a schizo, but you probably don't want to hear that and neither does anyone else on this board

>>40536539
I did that and I got banned from the nobody general 3 times in a row

>>40539150
if you did what I said you wouldn't even open the nobody general

Yeah, sure, *you're* going to be the one that unites the rogue vortex of schizos behind your cause. never mind that that's what every other schizo in the rogue vortex of schizos was thinking.

>using nobo for anything other than scrying, 5D shitposting, jamming with the lads and a little bit of [REDACTED]
sources say you could be having a better time

>>40536217 (OP)
Nothing is going "according to plan" and every I'm living in poverty being dominated and abused by retarded sadistic trannies. Every day is a "bad outcome". "Getting a job" would never be "part of my plan", just like getting sexually abused would never be part of my plan, having my mind raped, being gangstalked and being terrorized, abused, harassed, threatened for anything I think or do would never be "part of the plan", being forced to live and identify as "a peasant" with anything they consider desirable violently gatekept including things as petty as instant noodles, corn chips, snickers, orange soda, cheeseburgers, doritos, cheetos, fried chicken, white bread, brown bread, salt, pepper, tacos, etc would never be "part of the plan". I created millions of dollars worth of rap music that I didn't benefit from at all. "The plan" if I was God and I had one, would have probably been to make millions of dollars creating rap music then live in peace alone by myself eating my favorite walmart foods every day playing video games, watching tv shows/movies/youtube videos/anime, etc in peace, being able to fantasize about whatever I want and generally positively mentally engaging with the media I watch without having my mind raped, without being gangstalked or terrorized, abused, harassed, threatened etc by retarded sadistic trannies or anyone. Nothing in my life goes according to plan whatsoever, I live in poverty, 99% of "my favorite foods" are violently gatekept, forced to eat disgusting and literally physically damaging food that should be illegal to sell, I get sexually abused, my mind gets raped and I get gangstalked every day and terrorized, abused, harassed, threatened etc for watching tv shows/movies/anime/youtube videos, playing video games, etc or for thinking about literally anything, my life is a complete living hell, it's not something I would ever choose to live and especially not something I would design for myself

>>40541135
there is a symbol in your mind that you think points to something that actually doesn't

>>40541135
You're from Egypt, right? Have you ever tried moving to a different city? Helps with gangstalking, and depending on what type of v2k tech "God" is using it might help with that too.