Im hannah holder and im telling you guys, the reason they want to destroy me isnt because i told secrets. The person that took over my body and put me in a dream state told the secrets and made me think it was me. Shes been planning this since before i was born with the powers that be. Thats why so many big people have surrounded me my whole life. I have been made into a sacrificial lamb and theyre using the things "i said" as a reason to make me suffer forever and to make my soul scream like the lady on tower green. Can anyone see that i dont deserve it? Its a ploy. A plot. And the lady in charge of my body is writing this to show me nobody cares and that its every man woman and child to their own self be true and no one will save me. But its not fair. Im trapped in my own mind. I cant even make thoughts. Its just awareness, im a prisoner. I didnt even tell the secrets, she just made me think i did but even if i did, i cant think. She took that ability from me and i couldnt ration what to do, but i didnt even do it. Someone help me please before they destroy me over and over and send me to the hell that theyve created! Please, i want to be a hair cutter and I want to be an artist. I want to finish cosmotolgy school and take the barbering program and go to art school and get custody of my kids and stop this insane belief in imaginary voices that want to destroy me, I want a future and I have a plan to achieve happiness, I'm going to make art. I don't want to die forever, I want to live for eternity with everyone else, I have a vision and a future, please help me! I thought the god of the fey was the god of fairies and I believed I would go to fairy land, that's what they told me. They told me that I was just going to get a big scare, when I thought it was god and angels. If someone can help me get my mom out of my brain, you'll see that my mouth is totally and completely shut! I know how to conform, she won't let me! Look at how normal I used to look! She ruinedme

>>40553792 (OP)
You need superpowers to fix this
Start eating magic mushrooms and methylene blue

Meds

>>40553812
That’s exactly what magic mushrooms are

It's called dissociation, there are practices you can do like exercise and ketogenic diets which may reduce this state. I admire your resilience and of course I want to have sex with you and tell you I love you so it is a sort of addressing of the potential for cynicism but nonetheless if you attempt simple things like weight lifting or drawing you may feel relief if not a reduction in depersonalization. I have lived in a depersonalized state for several years and maybe it still exists even now but I have it under control. So you should not feel very afraid for the future or your bodily awareness.

>>40553792 (OP)
Lay off em

>>40553812
I take my meds and still she's in control of me. Ginger isbill. And the rich powerful ones have been working with her all along. How else could I have been surrounded by such big figures. And not only that, but they are all hiding something or doing something or lying about sometging, I know it. They're loyal to my mother. She's evil and raised me to be grain but not sustenance but for torture satisfactions

>>40553859
Hannah,
you don’t have to believe me, but it is the truth nonetheless:
You will be okay.
These problems will settle.
You will be whole and happy once again.
You are my eternal sister and you are deeply loved.
You aren’t ruined, you’re as beautiful as any rose.
And most of all - you’re not helpless. Not at all. Hannah, you’re so much more powerful than you believe. And you’re always perfectly safe because of your power. You have the power to be happy despite being in hell. The power to keep your mind on God, even when you seem to have been abandoned. The power to forgive the people who betrayed your trust. The power to love your assailants. That’s how you create a mind that can’t be manipulated, forever peaceful, joyful, and creative. Does that make sense to you?
Can you tell me a few parts of your life you are grateful for? Something as simple as the sunshine. Or perhaps there’s someone who was always kind to you.

>>40553890
Sick fucking horror, this is.

holding them to their word is a permit