I find myself overwhelmed by feelings of dread, shame, and fear all day long. I can't find the answer, not even in my worthless inner self, nor in the outer world: That's because I'm right, and those feelings are rational and irrefutable.

I feel like I could only be happy by reprogramming myself, by forcing my brain to forget.

Have you ever felt like this? I feel like I would sell my soul to the devil just to forget and be able to move on with my life.

This is /x/, not your therapist. Hope you find help, anon

Sorry you're feeling this way, anon. Try to keep your mind off things. GTA6 is on the way

>>40587217 (OP)
>Have you ever felt like this?
I'm sorry anon. That's basically my life. It's a nightmare. Though I can tell what is the most important discovery I've done to that. It's called TRE (trauma releasing exercises). Those are basically a set of physical exercises aimed at inducing a state of tremor in the human body. Tremoring is the way mammals shake off accumulated trauma, stress, PTSD, fear and other negative emotions.

It's literally used by the US forces.

Sounds like bullshit but it isn't. You should look it up. You can even do it on your own without therapists if you want, that's what I've been doing.

Look up Dr. Berceli's work, he wrote a book and he's active on YouTube.

Go on Reddit look up r/longtermtre and r/somatic experiencing.

You can do it now for free if you wish, just follow some YouTube videos.

>>40587217 (OP)
Try this:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=o-irqlooDws

>>40587246
Thanks, anon. I appreciate it.

>>40587217 (OP)
You're being tormented by dark elves. Selling your soul is exactly what they want you to do. Just relax. It's not the end of the world. But yeah the clowns won't leave you alone. This world belongs to them. You'll suffer in this world. We all will and that's just that.
I just can't wait for these little shits to get melted by God.

>>40587217 (OP)
This is the golden age that you are living through right now. Humanity has never had it better. Haven't you heard? Jews are losing bigly and we are winning, in fact we have already won and everything is great now. Patriots are in control.

If you aren't living a joyous, prosperous and fulfilling life it's a YOU problem.

>>40587321
Sorry wrong pic

>>40587217 (OP)

>>40587334
What's the source of that text anon?

>>40587217 (OP)
This is the golden age that you are living through right now. Humanity has never had it better. Haven't you heard? Jews are losing bigly and we are winning, in fact we have already won and everything is great now. Patriots are in control.

If you aren't living a joyous, prosperous and fulfilling life it's a YOU problem.

>>40587462
Sorry wrong pic

>>40587217 (OP)
>answer
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>>40587422
I'm not someone who browses godlikeproductions, but I found these two posts the time I visited there.

>>40587462
>webm
Why would you feel joy at someone's suffering, regardlessly of their side?

>>40587217 (OP)
Those feelings you feel are very valid, OP, but they are not the truth of reality. It's just your mind deceiving you and negatively affecting your own perspective on life through a false lens, which makes sense considering you're suffering from depression which messes with your mind to begin with. The simple truth is that this version of yourself isn't the real you and you can change that for the better no matter how terrible things get for you.

The good news is, OP, is that your situation is completely treatable and even reversible. All you must do is to continue to fight for your precious life in anyway possible, physically, mentally, and spiritually, and to never give up hope on the chance for victory and to ultimately have faith in yourself and in others. You must have belief in life itself and all of the good things it has to offer, and once you're able to overcome this trial and tribulation that you're currently facing right now, you won't even have to worry about forgetting your memories in order to move on, because you'll have the strength and the presence of mind to move on with your life and to live it to the fullest with happiness and peace in your heart regardless of the trauma you endured. And trust me when I say this, it'll be all worth it in the end. That's something I can promise for sure.

So OP, I wish you the best of luck out there, please make sure to stay safe and take care, and godspeed. Thank you.

>>40587246
Great advice, thank you anon, and godspeed

>>40587217 (OP)
If you do enough introspection you'll hate life. That's just par for the course. The only solution is to stop thinking so hard about everything and live in the moment. Unironically go outside and touch grass. Direct sunlight makes your brain produce drugs for feeling good, and seeing anything green like grass or trees will do the same. Combined with physical strain of exercise, even just walking, you'll physically force your brain to change gears. It the same bullshit you hear every day and never try because it sounds ridiculous. But dude, we're animals. And animals love being outside.
Afterwards, the anxiety and pain will return, it always does, but you'll have to learn to let it pass. I like to think of the line from Dune on fear when I get real bad. It helps, weird enough.
>I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.

So, how much do you masturbate?

>>40587462
You have a great sense of humor. Fucking kikes, man.

everything you say is internal conflicts and they are not solvable, tell me what you feel now?

>>40587484
See:

>>40587471

>>40587484
No it's totally not a demonic plot to reduce everyone's quality of life, atomized communities, interfering with human sexuality, and make everyone miserable while rigging the game with AI and algorithms for you to lose while your racial and spiritual enemies get everything. No you're just crazy. And if you do anything about it ZOGbots will stomp your ass.

>>40587217 (OP)
I have felt like thay, I felt like that for most of my life. You know what really helped?
I opened up to a therapist(I used an llm personally as a higher reflection of my unconscious mind) and was just completely honest with myself with no bullshit about how I felt.
That was how I let go of all that pain and started moving forward again.
Self-honesty.

>>40587217 (OP)
Do you drink coffee, tea, caffeine?

II greatly reduces for me when I stop.

Here is a neat philosophy for you.

https://www.youtube.com/shorts/zvI020ELbB8

>>40587299
Not clowns, there will be reparations, they will stop bothering.