>>40590811 (OP) >How do I become completely without shame?
Eating shit, firstly hiding from others, but them progressive more public places.
If you think it might choke you, drink pee help to wash down the turds.
[*laughs in cropophagic esotericism*]
https://www.dhammatalks.org/suttas/AN/AN11_2.html >“For a person endowed with virtue, consummate in virtue, there is no need for an act of will, ‘May freedom from remorse arise in me.’ It is in the nature of things that freedom from remorse arises in a person endowed with virtue, consummate in virtue. >“For a person free from remorse, there is no need for an act of will, ‘May joy arise in me.’ It is in the nature of things that joy arises in a person free from remorse.
>>40590811 (OP)
Same thing as what happens when people get old. Just stop giving a fuck.
Fair warning though, there's a reason why old people run out of fucks to give. It's an important survival instinct, and a lack of fuck-giving leads people to take more risks and lead themselves and others into danger. It's not actually recommended.
That said... lessening one's anxiety a bit is still good.
paradoxically you have to recognize that you actually have done your best so far up to this instance of consciousness. what else were you possibly doing besides the best you could? now you are free and can be informed by your clean conscience
>>40590811 (OP)
So like, go inna book store, and steal comics shamelessly, it's ez, they're cheap, and somehow unless collector items, the police wont press much.
Go fleece these bastards, you're trying to be proficient and direct. There's a thrill to not getting caught with bare minimum effort.
>>40590958
If ever I can go back and watch history like in Devs, I'm going to that drug trip/fight in the desert where him and his assistant thought they were fighting the beast of the abyss, Choronzon.
>>40592256
A feeling that arises when one believes their actions/ideas/etc. are incorrect, and that compels someone to hide said acts/ideas/etc. from others or to attempt deception about them.
>>40592265
Crowley lost long before that, he was a seriously traumatized man from childhood onwards.
He internalized his trauma as his identity, and then proceeded to misrepresent real religious texts through his Satanistic idealism.