I'm a man who was born with DSD - I'm cursed with a micropenis and manboobs that kicked in when I was 12 (pretty small moobs thankfully). My dick is fully functional but I'm essentially sterile too. I was assigned male at birth but the doctors surgically removed what were essentially the vestigial remains of a vagina. There has to be an esoteric reason I was born this way - my mother was on depo provera for nearly two years when she got pregnant with me - which means I had less than a 3% chance of even being born.

My birth was so unlikely - even moreso that I was born some freak mutant on top of that. I never get sick and have crazy high stamina and vitality, I also feel super lucky when it really counts (can't win a lottery to save my life though) and like I'm regularly spared severe consequences (unless it was entirely my fault).

The other side of that weird birth is my dick is fucking tiny - I'm talking ~3.5 inches when erect. I'm still a virgin because the first time I ever tried having sex the chick literally screamed at me in anger that I "didn't tell her" about my tiny dick, she then proceeded to talk massive shit about me to anyone who would listen for "not disclosing my condition beforehand" as if it's such an easy thing to bring up in casual conversation. Still gave it a second try with a different woman, and she literally pointed and started laughing when she saw it and apologizing for laughing while still laughing, then left and blocked me - a few days later some of her friends saw me in public and snickered and laughed at me from afar. There has yet to be a third attempt.

Now with all that shit aside - is there any benefit to me being this intersex freak that can't get laid (I'm only attracted to women so don't suggest going gay)? Do I get special occult benefits or any kind of magical attunement unique to freaky mutants like me? Or am I just screwed, blued, and tattooed?

Seriously, there has to be an actual reason I beat the odds twice.

>>40615337 (OP)
Freemartins are actually the norm today youre just farther toward the female side of the spectrum.

If you were higher class you would have been given lots of hormones at puberty age and had surgical options available as well.

>>40615337 (OP)
You get nothing anon
Maybe a chance to get stronger through pain and deprivation
That is if you can withstand them

>>40615337 (OP)
The weird randomness you see in your life are rolls of the cosmic dice. It means you didn't take any control of your reincarnation and you're floating wherever. You're being abused until you wake up to the fact that you exist now.
If you had taken more control you would see more purpose instead of being a victim in your own play.

>>40615337 (OP)
Ignore these obvious actual bots, they are afraid of you:
>>40615366
>>40615402
>>40615404

They are trying to discourage you and keep you down to their level by feeding into your insecurities. You are special - you are an actual miracle walking on earth. You literally had far less than a 1% chance of existing, yet here you are. For every 3,000,000 humans born, there is only one like you.

You were born to accomplish a specific goal of great importance, that only you will know with certainty as to what it will be. You were meant to be here, and you were meant to access the full power of human potential - both the male and female. Malevolent energies could not hold you back or contain you - and neither could human science.

You are an avatar of God, plain and simple. There are others like you, also with their own reasons for existing that will be made clear to them. When your time comes you will be called to action, and you will finally be recognized for the incredible rarity that you are.

>>40615337 (OP)
Anything life takes from you whether that be a "normal" sex life, or sight, or money, or whatever is a learning experience that you can overcome and be different from others who didn't have that learning experience.
So yeah, there's spiritual benefits out the wazoo, the question is, are you going to capitalize and learn to accept and truly appreciate your position or are you going to live a life where you lack?
Most people choose the latter when even the slightest thing goes wrong.
>I'm not a billionaire who's super handsome and charismatic, why even live?
Is like 99% of humans.

>>40615473
holy cope

>>40615473
You disagree that if OP was higher class he would have been given more hormones and surgeries????

He would have absolutely had an enhanced puberty, possibly HGH as well, and they would have helped him with the micro peen too. These people will inject the penis with T. If all else fails they will get implants.

OP is low class and was left to be a dumpy freemartin.

In another home his parents would have juiced the shit out of him and had the titties whacked off.

>>40615404
Damm but it seems true

>>40615337 (OP)
I would beat the shit out of those women. Atbleastv1 of them. The fact you didn't suggests youre a masochist. I can't help you, weirdo.

>>40615640
Worrying about ifs is pointless.
Reality can be no other way than exactly as it is.
God set up this situation, so it must be the best possible one.

>>40615337 (OP)
If your condition makes you have a low libido, what modern people call asexual or demisexual, then it can be a blessing to have an easy time being celibate which is pretty hard for the average guy and appreacited in many doctrines like christianity.
That's about it I guess

>>40615660
Didnt say OP should worry about it but he should know that TONS and TONS of guys are out there with the same thing going on they just had rich parents and escaped much of the problems that way.

OP should think of all the men who somehow know they are infertile or all the ones that admit to ‘having only one ball’.

Freal how does a guy ever figure out they are infertile unless a doctor told them?

Tons of teens or 20 yr olds who confidently know they shoot blanks.

Yeah cuz these intersex people been around a long time we live in a post-eugeics society.

‘Brave New World’ mentions freemartins he just puts a twist on it for some reason (cant make shit TOO obvious I guess)

>>40615729
Why?
Will knowing rich people exist make you richer?
Surely that will only create envy rather than appreciation for one's unique circumstance.

First of all OP I want to congratulate you on your post.It is very brave of you to share your personal condition. I think x should be a safe place for all the weird anons browsing 4chan.
About what happens in your body, it's very strange. You have both genital organs and the small dick thing.An anon above talked about the randomness of your situation and I agree with what he said.You decide the type of body you will incarnate with.
By the way, I can say that living a life thinking only about having sex is not worth it. This condition of yours can be used to improve yourself in other aspects of life.

>>40615337 (OP)

My advice to you is to study different occult and religious practices and see which one(s) call to you. Make your own syncretic belief system. In cultures all over the world people like you - those who exist between the margins and blur the lines - tend to become incredibly proficient in whatever field they throw themselves into. Don't fret or despair about what you lack, or past mishaps. Instead, focus on building the future you want to live in. The world will follow your lead.

>>40615485
Genuinely useless and empty advice from someone who just wants to read their own words and huff their own farts. Ignore them OP.

>>40615473
Closer to the truth but the main problem is that everyone is God's avatar - but I agree that OP is definitely here for a specific purpose though. He is meant to be here, which is more than can be said for the faggots in this thread trying to shame him and plant envy in him. Most of us are just small-time players in this giant MMORPG we call life - OP is the cosmic equivalent of a development staff member playing on an admin account. He just forgot the console commands.

>>40615654
Nope, it's definitely not. Very easily not.

>>40615658
Or maybe OP isn't an unhinged sociopath like you. You very obviously have never even gotten close to having a woman in your bedroom so you have nothing to worry about, anon.

>>40615660
Not true at all - this world is incredibly flawed and imperfect. None of God's intentions make it into this world unscathed - including OP. OP made it through the veil despite the best efforts of this matrix and its masters, and he definitely did it because God wants him here.

>>40615729
Such an obvious bot. DSD is so statistically unlikely, it's a rare condition that is still not well-understood. If it was as common as you say then it would simply be a non-issue - instead OP had women scream at him for his condition. Instead it's so rare that it causes international controversy, like in the Olympics last year.

>>40615337 (OP)
Yeah, a lot of cultures have ascribed special powers to anyone they see as transgressing gender boundaries. There’s a lot of intersex, and non-binary gods out there. There’s a lot of it in the Aztec pantheon that was downplayed by colonial sources, in one of the codexes, I think Borgia, you can see the moon god Tecciztecatl who is said to be male in myth wearing female clothes and having small titties.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/T%C4%93ccizt%C4%93catl?wprov=sfti1
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hermaphroditus?wprov=sfti1
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hijra_(South_Asia)?wprov=sfti1
>>40615640
I think OP can still get that now as an adult. Doctors give you T-shots for Klinefelter syndrome so I don’t see why they wouldn’t here. OP probably has low testosterone based on his symptoms. Based on the symptoms I think T-gel on the penis would help it develop further, but the fellows at >>>/LGBT/ would know more. If the doctors won’t help him he can still get it illegally.

>>40615337 (OP)
women are not worth shit, your experiences hurt but they allow you to realize this lesson soon and not waste more time chasing them.
Use your life in the path meant for you and if you really want to do it hire a prostitute from time to time to realize this with the post nut clarity.

OP here, just wanted to give an update. The negative energy in this thread has increased my man boobs and shrunken my micro penis even farther.

>>40615473
Micro penis detected

>>40615951
Can OP's life conditions be applied to a normal inconspicuous man who has strong qualities of both the masculine and feminine? Asking for a friend

>>40615951
Bro this is the gayest and most reddit thing on the board right now. Did you really have the nerve to say someone else was huffing their own farts

i wish i had a cute pretty beautiful blond boyfriend with a micropenis who will never leave me because he's afraid of getting screamed or laughed at by women...

>>40615337 (OP)
Aw, man.. doctors removed your vagina? You would've made a great magician if you had retained both penis and vagina. Now you're just a dude with a small dick.

>>40615951
I don't care what you think. You have no magic at all.

>>40615337 (OP)
I hope you learned your lesson about women (and by extension other material vices). That's all I can say regarding your circumstances

>>40617583
it's genuinely no different from npc men rejecting women for having tits too small
you just have to find someone who isn't so superficial

>>40617596
NTA but idk, man... I love a futa with large pendulous tits and huge cocks. They exist. If you have both and they're both small, it's just meh-meh on two edges.

>>40617617
mantits are reducible, breast enlargements show as obviously fake, the men who like fake tits are usually trash tier, not much you can do about a little dick that doesn't make babies, i guess we're getting new methods of reproduction next patch

>>40617640
>has small tits
>small dick
>no pussy
bruh, what is the point of you?

>>40617647
you appear to have mistaken me for OP

>>40617596
Lmao it couldn't be more different if you wanted it to be. If it didn't actually matter to women then humans wouldn't be the most well hung primates by far - in fact humans have one of the largest genitalia relative to our body size of any known animal.

A woman with tiny tits will have a much easier time finding a man than a man with a tiny dick will finding a woman. It matters so much to women that we evolutionarily selected for it.

Look up what the most popular dildo sizes are - sure as shit isn't 3 inches lmao OP is actually cursed and I doubt he chose it like some of the retards in this thread have said and I guess the lesson to learn from it is that having a tiny dick sucks ass lmao

>>40615337 (OP)
Approximately 24.73% (4 sig. fig.).

>>40617355
Thanks for the contribution

>>40617653
>has small tits
>small dick
>no pussy
bruh, what is the point of op?

>>40617596
Physical attraction is necessary for any true romance. Saying that a person wanting to be attracted to their partner is superficial is ridiculous.
If you truly believe that you might as well call op not wanting to date men because he's not guy superficial as well.

>>40617657
I guess you're probably mostly right and it's kind of sad because i'd much rather have beautiful people with modest dicks than the ugly fucking gorilla ogres of today who just happen to have bigger dick genes.

>>40617668
gay not guy

>>40617668
there's an entire person attached to that dick that people could try being attracted to, but if the rest of that guy isn't impressive it's pretty over

>>40617690
>people could try being attracted to
You cant try to be attracted to someone, its not a choice. Its there or its not.
The fact that you believe people would have to try to be attracted to op as if it was work shows you know he as very little if no chance.

>>40617596
The example you gave almost never happens, most men are desperate which is why women like OPs exes appear in the first place. But that's besides the point. Finding someone not superficial isn't enough because theres compatibility, life circumstances and a million other variables. It's a waste of time and even harmful for a man to put himself at risk to the massive majority of women like OP's exes for a miniscule chance of finding love, that he might end up losing anyways. This entire rat race is a trap for men and there are much more spiritually fulfilling things they could do instead

>>40617704
i didn't mean "try" by the most literal definition possible autism-kun
the fact that he got women in his bedroom in the first place means he's at least marginally more attractive/charismatic than your average 4channel user

>>40617715
I mean, a lot of 4chan robots are anti-social and many were anti-social all their lives as well. OP might have been more social, more willing to ask girls out and risk being rejected. So if he's already hitting on more girls than the "average 4channel user" then he's going to have a higher likelihood of at least a woman or two saying yes.

>>40617715
>he's at least marginally more attractive/charismatic than your average 4channel user
And even then it was completely meaningless. She refused him and mocked him. Ruined his reputation as she literally pointed and laugh at him with her friends in public.
I honestly wish the best for op but that doesn't change this shit realty.

>>40617706
and what about reasonable women who want a nice pretty life partner? everyone is supposed to do their best to exaggerate the bleak gender divide and promote hate until the proles all die out, right mr. federal government? nooo nooo i'm just a widdle antinatalist baby nooo... pwease let's just go extinct... samsara!!!!!

>>40617731
It's insane how theres people in this thread who are essentially encouraging OP to go through the same torture again. No wonder men have been so ruined if this is the type of "guidance" they get from the time they are kids.

>>40617735
You said a whole bunch if nothing and encourage op to humiliate himself. People like you are a stain

>>40617748
if you stop going after young obvious mean girls chicks you'll get less immature bullshit that should have stopped after high school
>>40617751
who wants to believe love is dead? genuinely. when i was a kid we called you emo, not blackpilled.

>>40615337 (OP)
Youre fucked esoterically, most real magick that requires a male or female based energy ordivide requires your physicality to embody that energy youre trying to work with. You being neither basically nullifies you from having any power unless you start taking hormones and go full eunuch for inana or sumn.

>>40617760
> Obvious mean girls
This isn't high school. In the adult world, all those psychopathic women have had years to develop hiding their true selves and their ability to emotionally manipulate. I don't believe your reductionism is sincere either, because anyone who is being honest with themselves will admit that a massive majority of women nowadays are like OP's exes. Also I'm not saying love is dead, at least not fully, just that its pointless to go waste time looking for it (that's how situations like OP's happen). In reality the best thing a man can do nowadays is focus on their own personal happiness in other areas of life and if love comes to them it does, if not that's fine too.

>>40617760
Nobody saying love is dead, however it is and always have been conditional. Conditions that op lack for the LARGE majority of woman, like above 99% of woman will reject him if not more.

>>40617804
Right, you know adult psychopathic men also hide their true nature until they're able to completely fucking ruin the life of a woman, beat her and/or treat her like subhuman shit? And a lot of these schizo faggots on this hell website would given the chance. Humankind is full of horrific monsters on both sides, it's just one side tends to do more direct violent physical harm when they are fucked in the head. Not just a woman problem.

>>40617838
Why do you keep doing this what about-ism. This thread is about OP's issues which relate to man struggles. Of course women have to deal with shit men too. I don't have anything to say about that because I'm not a woman and this isn't the topic.

>>40617786
jewish retard

>>40617873
alright, a lot of these arguments just come with an implication of "women are inherently worthless and bad" because it's usually against retarded paid destabilization agents hired by "people" who want you to fail at human connection and commit mass murder

>>40617914
Your worldview is warped my dude, you only see the worst in people

>>40617914
If that's the case, I see what you mean. I think what causes these people to go crazy and start shooting up is how they are stuck between two extreme crowds. One crowd tells them women should be viewed as no better than objects. The other crowd starts calling them incel for nothing.

It reallly does feel a bit artificial and by design made to ruin people mentally.

>>40617957
i generally see the worst in a person when their worst is what they primarily want to broadcast on this website, yes

>>40617901
Jew-on-a-stick worshipper.

>>40617914
women are not worth engaging with most time if you don't plan to have kids, and 100% of the time when you're dealt a bad hand like OP's and you can see them naturally inclined to dislike him. One can live an intellectual or magical life without them to a degree.
Telling him otherwise is making him go a masochist path and in a way, evil.
Anyways this is getting out of /x/ territory

>>40615337 (OP)
Hi Anon, I don't know you precisely, but my recommendation would be, I don't know what country you're in, or what state, because maybe in your state you're allowed, without even a prescription, to get this kind of molecule. I'm not American at all, so I don't know exactly what it's like in your country, but I would recommend that you take a testosterone-based treatment, and when you have sex, there are certain molecules that can help you to have a bigger erection than usual. But it's important to remember that once you're on treatment, there can be side effects.

>>40615337 (OP)
I am sorry you were dealt an extraordinarily bad hand anon, but as far as anyone knows there is no rhyme or reason to it. Saying that people must have chosen to incarnate into such circumstances is simply a cope for how horrifically unfair this hell dimension truly is.
In theory there is a girl out there somewhere for you, in practice you should be first in line to buy the inevitable sexbots that are going to be built.

>>40615337 (OP)
>>40618469
I'm not American at all, so I don't know exactly what it's like over there, but I'd recommend you take a testosterone treatment.

Testosterone Enanthate is one of the most popular forms of testosterone, made up of longer esters that are slower to take effect.

This means users only need to inject once every 4–5 days, yet they can experience the same gains at the end of a cycle compared to the faster esters, which need too be injected much more frequently.

Testosterone Enanthate cycle suggestion for beginners:
(Best to inject every 3 or 4 days instead of once per week)

Week 1 = 200mg (100mg each injection)
Week 2 = 200mg (100mg each injection)
Week 3 = 300mg (150mg each injection)
Week 4 = 300mg (150mg each injection)
Week 5 = 300mg (150mg each injection)
Week 6 = 350mg (175mg each injection)
Week 7 = 350mg (175mg each injection)

This testosterone cycle for beginners, despite being cautiously dosed, will produce significant increases in muscular size and strength.

A first-time cycle (like this one) can produce approximately 20 pounds of lean mass.

We have also seen strength increases of 30–50lbs being common on compound lifts, with users effortlessly smashing through PRs.

Muscle pumps will also be cosmic, due to large amounts of intracellular fluid filling the muscle cells.

Well you are to blame for deceiving those women.