Has anyone else experienced something like this?
It happened to me about a year ago and still haven't gotten any better. I was quite into occult and spiritual stuff but now I just can't really bring myself to even care much about it, and it feels like most of the things I knew about, I have forgotten. I don't even know what happened, it just stopped one day. Could it be possible I played too close to the fire and something did this to me?

>>40628034 (OP)
>I was quite into occult and spiritual stuff
There's your problem right there. It's the esoteric equivalent of trailer park trash trying to make meth with Sudafed and batteries. Just don't.

>>40628034 (OP)
It’s more likely a subconscious recognition that knowing the secrets of the universe doesn’t stop you from going to work the next day. If it’s not practical, it’s not prioritized. That’s a good thing anon. It means you are functioning properly. Just do what your intuition tells you and when it’s time to open your mind up again, you’ll know.

it's normal, life takes precedence sometimes. especially if you don't see results.

>>40628034 (OP)
Same. Happened to me gradually after the removal of a tooth. At the time I saw it as my final test, and on recognition of the failure, I saw it as unsalvageable and unforgiveable. I wanted nothing more to do with this body. I consumed a lot of kava for a prolonged period which tends to open me up to psychic attack. Feel extreme apathy.

The universe has given me similar tests since, but it's meaningless. All it did is shatter the mind and throw me back into a different compartment. Back where I started.

I suppose on one hand I feel insurountable disgust and regret. On the other I feel blocked. Kicked out. Rejected. Half of me is either dead or was so shocked that it gave up and went to sleep.

>>40629062
Bro, did you just have low-level sepsis that was inflaming your brain? Because I have bad teeth that need fixing, and if that will solve all of this search for meaning, I'll get them all ripped out.

>>40629590
I just know I don't like the result.

diminishing returns after a while
you're not going to find the answer "out there"

Same thing happened to me. Couldn’t beer get magick to work no matter what, I know it’s real but whatever is needed to make it work clearly I don’t have it. After spending over half my life on it, it’s a huge gut punch to realize you wasted half your life on something that amounted to nothing. Actual suicide fuel. So I’m in a similar boat.

>>40630521
Couldn’t ever. Fucking phone posting.

>>40628034 (OP)
you just realized the truth. religion and spirituality doesn't mean shit in the real world. it's pointless babble for people who have too much free time.
why doe people go to church? because they have too much time on sunday. it's literally sunday cartoons for medieval kids. a fucking medieval daycare for adult peasants.
>b-but muh god
if he is jewish he would interact with his creation more and if he is truly all knowing then he understands and doesn't need to interact with this world or your prayers anyway

>>40628034 (OP)
just open yourself to the dao bro
you need not "do" anything, only listen and be receptive to what that is

>>40628034 (OP)
youre just confounded by an arbitrarily limitation onbyour consciousness. The lack of "presence" is the key exactly. Stare at it until you experience resurgence, rekindle the flame and study things again. That is study real things that close your knowledge gap that get you ahead in life to a new level. You might find your growth will happen in tandem.
Have a purpose each day rather than drift.

>>40628034 (OP)
Fluoride water, tsk tsk

There are periods where stepping away from things is part of the journey