I feel like my soul is broken, I feel ugly, stupid, and worthless. My hair has been thinning a lot lately and my dick doesn't even work, I'm at my lowest. What can I do?

>>40643952 (OP)
Pray to God, unironically

Those things are growing pains, the worse you feel about yourself the better you’re doing.

>pray to nothing and get no response
>meditate and nothing happens
Copes. Do ayahuasca or something and if you're too scared you aren't desperate enough.

>>40643952 (OP)
“¶ Come unto me, all ye that labour and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest.” (Matthew 11:28)

“Humble yourselves therefore under the mighty hand of God, that he may exalt you in due time: Casting all your care upon him; for he careth for you.” (1 Peter 5:6-7)

“Grace be with you, mercy, and peace, from God the Father, and from the Lord Jesus Christ, the Son of the Father, in truth and love.” (2 John 3)

>>40643952 (OP)
Brother, I see you.

That crushing feeling? Your soul isn't broken. It's trying to break OPEN.

Think about it - a seed has to crack apart in the dark before it becomes a tree. The pressure you feel isn't killing you. It's what transforms you.

Your body shutting down? It's not broken. It's conserving energy for something bigger. Like a caterpillar dissolving into soup before it grows wings.

You're not ugly, stupid, or worthless. You're judging yourself by fake standards designed to keep you small.

Here's what's real:

Touch a tree today. Feel how solid and alive it is. That same force is in you.

Stop consuming poison - the scrolling, comparing, all of it.

Move your body. Even just walking. Movement is medicine.

This darkness is temporary. You're not breaking down - you're breaking OPEN.

The seed doesn't know it's becoming a tree when it cracks in the dark.

Keep reaching for light, brother. It's reaching back.

>>40643952 (OP)
Do not go gentle into that good night. Rage anon. Rage against the dying of the light.

>>40643952 (OP)
>MY soul
>MY hair
>MY dick
Understand that you are not this body, not this mind. They do not belong to you.
The is the first, last, and most important understanding in transcendence.

>>40643952 (OP)
Go to a doctor and investigate, disease nutrients minerals etc
Your body is obviously failing somehow and the cause isn't necessarily the spirit it could be the other way around
Then prayer and so on obviously

>>40643977

christ is come. all over rome's back.

denounce your institutional beast, or continue to spew its flames under the guise of righteousness. the world doesnt care, and it will not wait for your ignorance to clear.

we live in the secular present. your dogma is archaic.

fall.

>>40644017
Why try to impose your path on others?
Do you dare call yourself so high and mighty as to know with certainty that scripture wont help OP?

>>40644053
right back at you. what path did i impose?

why are you so high and mighty to assume your scripture *will help,* hmm?

or are you just another pawn preying on the vulnerable?

reread the book you preach before you so much as approach me again.

>>40644059
I'm not the guy who posted scripture.
And your intent was what you imposed, it stinks of your own ego, rather than genuine recognition of wanting to help.
This isnt the place to argue petty squabbles, there is an actual person here in pain.
So if you want to help, sit down, shut the fuck up, and learn something.

>>40644118

took you a damn while, you sure your sock puppeting is a decent way to promote the bible?

all i did was say quit trying to slap the same 2000 year old bandaid on modern issues.

if you genuinely think that sending a broken man to a notoriously predatory institution will do anything but get him preyed upon, you need to reevaluate your life.

if you want to help, dont knock the person suggesting to suggest actual life advice, knock the dude preaching the same advice that hasnt worked for the last 2000 years. we're in 2025, in case you dont have a calendar available.

>>40644138
No sock puppeteering here, and you're again both assuming you know me, and the OP in question.
You didn't suggest life advice either, you came into the thread and attacked someone you perceived as a threat, regardless of whether you wanted to help or not.
You did so in a way that caused demonstrable incoherence, and you're still trying to defend your selfish action as a selfless act.
I understand you have beef with Christianity, and I'm not trying to downplay the validity of that, I'm saying you have to let OP choose his own path.
Its perfectly fine to voice your weariness of intitutions, but >>40643977 didn't say shit about institutions.
He just lended a hurting man some words of kindness and compassion to show him he's not alone.

>>40644118

read this back to yourself. sound familiar at all?

cus this is how sane people feel when you fucking roman bootlickers try to hide your self-importance through the veil of altruism.

anybody can promise.

not just anyone can deliver.

so, wait for jesus to "come back down from the clouds" all you want, or, you know, engage with your intellect instead of just getting your panties in a bunch the second you feel offended. your choice.

point stands, someone is actually hurt here. telling him to go fellate your favorite dildo isnt gonna do shit for him.

>>40644180

i understand you have beef with criticism of christianity, but quoting the book of mark in a verse that talks about eventual deliverance *through jesus* isnt exactly separate from institutions.

keep jacking off though, this is good exercise.

>>40644138
>unironically hit em with the 'current year'
>try to play smartass with personal opinions in front of a hurting man
You're the worst redditor to ever shame this site. Unbelievable moral depravity. It's very apparent you are a spoiled child and have never suffered a day in your life, nor do you have any life experience. The church isn't perfect but that is literally their job - provide guidance in times of crisis - if you really have nobody else OP and feel like the walls are closing in, you can go to a church and they will most likely help you even if you aren't a christian

>>40644206

if thats their job they do a damn shit job.

is that a crime to say out loud?

so much for the "party of facts and not feelings"

>>40644206
ohhh wait so now you know *my* life story.

got it, it was all projection.

good try though.

>>40644206
and, to be fair, it's also their job to stand up to their claims.

if they dont make sense, why defend an institution that has outlived its purpose?

unless it does serve a purpose to you. *ahem.* pedophile.

>>40643952 (OP)
There’s two distinct voices in your head right now anon. One is overly self aware and pessimistic. That’s the one telling you to give up and seek comfort.
The other voice, the one you want to listen to but feels overwhelming to follow, that’s the right choice. That’s you begging yourself to drop your nuts and raw dog this bitch of a life. Take it one step at a time and stop thinking about it so much. Fake it till you make it and as soon as you feel that pull of existential self awareness creeping in, steel yourself and tell it to come back tomorrow.
Recognize your ability to discern your own potential is impaired at the moment. Look for opportunities to commit yourself to change that you can’t easily back out of. It might be terrifying but once you get going it’ll be a little more manageable then it was the day before.
I’ll end the pep talk with this. It’s called the 80/20 rule. Roughly 80% of effects come from 20% of causes. This means a small proportion of efforts generally lead to a large proportion of the results. Stop reaching for perfection and just make progress.

>>40644186
I actually fully agree with your message here.
Jesus is fundamentally not your workhorse, so to speak.
I still vehemently disagree with your luciferian methods though.
>>40644191
I don't have beef with criticism of Christianity and you're completely missing my point.

I'm going to stop replying to you now though because the whole thread is getting off topic.

>>40643952 (OP)
Sear this into your mind and believe it wholeheartedly. Worked for me, at least.

>>40644211
>>40644215
>>40644218
thanks for the gold, stranger. *tips fedora*

>>40644221

i disagree with calling anything that isnt entirely altruistic as luciferian.

life is about balance, too much selfishness, you devolve into egocentrism. too much altruism, you destroy yourself for others.

maybe dont call power trip until you actually have a foundational understanding of western thought and its history.

we're past the point of "just talking things out."

the institution serves to ensure that.

but, you know, sure. by suggesting dogma is archaic and that you should, you know, speak like a fucking adult and not a first century monk, i dont think its exactly the same level of narcissism exhibited by even the most altruistic christian.

the only difference is, i'm an open book. i dont say "go to this institution instead!!" i say "we live in the secular present."

these ideas can be expressed without shilling your own agency to people who will speak your beliefs for you.

christianity isnt a religion, it's the typical roman imperial master/sub relationship in new clothing.

noones saying "i will destroy your institution," but someone is saying "hey, your institution sucks and doesnt do its job. give actual advice."

i can empathize with your perspective, but you seriously need to lay off the kabbalah for a bit, youre lost in the orchard. calling ego trip the moment someone criticizes an institution is luciferian, not plainly criticizing the institution itself

ever notice how people who do extreme sports tend to look and feel younger?

you need adrenaline... and clean water. and sunlight 10 min a day if possible. also feet on the earth barefoot while sunning. also laugh more.

>>40643952 (OP)
I don’t know your situation but in my life, profound healing has come from committing to transformative change usually in a way I can’t back out of. Also pussy. Pussy genuinely pulled me out of a dark hole once and saved my life.

>>40644255
How much time have wasted now debating this idiot? You’ll never phase let alone stop the Bible quoters that spam these threads. You know this already anon. Don’t get tricked into thinking they can be reasonable.

>>40644279

im not trying to stop anybody, believe me, i know theyre a lost cause.

but, the only way to win this war is through using their own weapon against them, so it can be laid to rest for all eternity.

it's not about getting to the destination overnight. its about making sure we have the right map to begin with.

it's ironic that the most violent institution in all of human history seems to clutch its pearls the second someone disrespects its self-asserted sanctity, no?

>>40644206
Ohhhhh. The redditor insult. Why is it always the Bible thumpers that use it most? Couldn’t have anything to do with how they were run off that site for being morons and retreated to a place with little to no moderation. I’d bet my left nut you have a Reddit account.

>>40644292
You don’t have to convince me they have mental illness anon. You’d kinda have to when you worship a Jew on a stick and think believing it’s real is the only thing stopping you from being tortured for eternity.
I just disagree about it being necessary to throw down with them every encounter. They know deep down that they sound retarded.

>>40644315

they cant fathom anybody other than themselves being so unbearably condescending, only they feel they're justified in doing so.

i hear u. it isnt necessary, really. but is it a whole lot more efficient than trying to just reform the system they themselves made to be immutably relevant to metaphysics? abso fucking lutely.

also getting kinda sick of them scapegoating their own shortcomings onto my ancestors as if we werent two separate cultures before the war.

two birds one stone.

one retard at a time.

>>40644007
Imo you also need to compartimentalize what people consider the soul.
There is the divine instinct, and the primal instinct. Multiplying to ensure the survival of the species is not done through rap3 for example. They are not the mind (poursuit of desire) or the body (fulfilment of desire).

>>40644554
Where did you get this from?

>>40644575
That's for me to know and for your to find out.

>>40643952 (OP)
methylene blue (100 MG's a day) and psilocybin (1 gram a day)
that shit heals trauma and you avoid trips, just break the doses up into 4 daily doses, 25 mg MB, 250 mg Psilocybin
theres something about the methylene blue that processes trauma by itself, high dose shrooms even more of course

>>40644735
Methylene blue will ruin your liver and kidneys while being highly neurotoxic, turning your brain into mush. Recommended maximum dosage is 40MG a day. While the recommended dosage is 10 to 20 MG.
1G of shrooms is also huge and only someone weighing more than 150kg would not make one trip.
You're trying to poison anons?

>>40643952 (OP)
try vipassana, my guy, there are many centers around the world (try it in Goenka tradition, and in a free center), this shit slaps, my senpai

>>40644735
The first one is a total meme and you must be an actual retard to fall for it. Shrooms are good but I recommend a proper dose once every few months instead of microdosing like a hipster

>>40643952 (OP)
>hair thinning
gotta eat plenty of green veggies
grow some brahmi and eat it, and use some as shampoo as well
good for nerves
get some sunshine once you get the green veggies within

>>40643952 (OP)
Practice mental alchemy and turn those thoughts positive. Also get a blood test done for your hormones, your thyroid sounds fucked

>>40644255
I really don't understand why you can't see the hostility of your own framing.
I've already told you thats the only problem I have with what you said. I've told you as clearly as I can that my opinion is that it wasn't appropriate for the emotional state of the thread.
I can understand and appreciate the fact that you felt you were trying to protect OP, I just feel that your message could've been better received if you respected people more.

>>40644259
They also tend to be pathological narcissists.

Man
Sometimes I dumb too even through I know I am smarter than most people.
People like hideo Kojima and Elon Musk make me feel small and dumb sometimes. Specially Hideo because of how he transformed the gaming industry. I really want to surpass him, but I know it's very unlikely. I have more technical knowledge than him, but his creativity is insane.

>>40643952 (OP)
eat healthier, eat more, sleep more, do something with your life. confidence in your own ability comes from actually doing shit and getting things done, it's not some kind of magical thing that you conjure up. basically just stop being a pussy. also no one actually cares if you're ugly, people only care if you care about it

>>40644666
So in other words, you made it up, likely with the help of chatGPT. It probably has origins in some sacred text or religion and then you reinterpreted it because you saw something no one else connected. It’s your own blend of bullshit that you picked and chose from various sources until it lined up with what was comfortable and now you spit the bullshit out as fact on this message board.
How’d I do?

>>40647917
HEADSHOT

>>40647917
But that's how esoterism evolves!

>>40647917
Very bad. None of what you said was on point. Beside the fact that i made it up, then again, what isn't?

Just don't get involved in any type of religion. ( Studied religion 5 year. Don't try to force something. Try to do fun things start to have fav foods, snacks and drinks buy it everyday and start to watch different animes, movies and also play games, this is a good way to clear your mind if u like the lifestyle find some job to get enough money no matter a normal job or online find something good for yourself that's all. Have a nice day. Yeah and also don't take a close look to these replies under your post they are filled with weird half religious half spiritual bullshits.

>>40647990
Nah, you’re just shook. We both know it.

>>40648114
Not really, surprised by your answer and attitude if anything. Did you probe yourself and came to your own conclusion?
All i see is defensiveness, maybe a little projection and surely frustration. Although i used simple words with no hidden meaning, even signified that it was my opinion. I hope you get better than whatever this is bro.

Stop thinking
Be in nature

The big systems all have big mentions of Inspiration. Your goal is to find yours and then pursue it at all costs. Saturn will throw up as many boundaries as you need to be strong enough to overcome the tests. If you're smart, you'll oblige and overcome them.
To pursue your True Will, your Dharma or Logos (see North Node) is to ride this divinely-inspired current in your life (this is the real meaning of the world Ritual) that takes you to where you need to go. When you stop fighting it, your life smooths out; your vices depart, you become more courageous, inspiring and convicted. It can mold you into the man you need to become, to become the True or Higher Self.
Without finding that Fire, the Holy Inspiration that drives you, which prompted your adventure to claim this Earthly Vessel, you'll find life to be far more difficult. It's sort of like trying to box a professional when you've never even worn a glove. You won't just get your ass kicked, you're sure to get seriously injured. It's far better to play to your strengths. Don't succumb to your faults, as it's important to round those out to overcome weaknesses. But putting yourself into an impossible situation where you simply do not belong is a recipe for torture.
It's important, on a spiritual level, that you pursue this Vocation, this Awen. It's absolutely imperative. It's the reason you occupy this carnal body. Until you do, Saturn will keep boxing you in and filling your pockets with Lead.

>>40643999
Thanks for nothing chatgpt