I don't mean to start a satanic panic, but basically I used to be really fit and do martial arts, when I came home I would drink heavily and listen to satanic heavy metal bands such as mercyful fate as well as watch pornography.

I started experiencing paranormal shit and lost control of my mind. I've had about 5 schizophrenic episodes since 2019, which is just pure terror. For example I will be in a bad state of mind and start seeing stuff like very vivid realistic bugs on the glasses I drink from as well as hear constant voices in the corner of my room, claiming to be from the Goddess Isis amongst other demons.

She said my problem is that i'm really stupid which I don't dispute but that's not the point.

I will have terrifying nightmares every night involving a lot of gory images, and a demon himself will torture me and I can very vividly feel pain in the dream.

I will have near constant sleep paralysis too where literal demons are stabbing me with their clawed fingers.

I'm on full benefits because when I have an episode I don't function, i'm now really fat and an alcoholic when I used to break records for rowing at my gym.

I can barely think or envision now because I think I have a demon, he always turns my mind vision into something monsterous. It makes it hard to sleep.

I'm a sagittarius so everything is mega rape with me including music I put my headphones on and listen to it at full volume having the time of my life until this happened.

https://youtu.be/zHo1yB3IoeM?si=YH6AB8ldBy7ICtu9

didn't ask.

google jerry marzinsky

yes they are demons

>>40648107 (OP)
le buddism made me stronker and now I fend of ze demons better and often don't need to
now it's nogs with boomboxes that annoy me

>>40648183
kek nogs with boomboxes, what is this the 90's? Anyway I strongly disagree with mass immigration and i'm from the UK.

I have to admit though drill rap triggers me because since I have become scizo my morality has improved and when they play on the radio about black people killing others in their hip hop or whatever the fuck or even just using language like 'bitch' it makes me think im above them.

>>40648107 (OP)
She looks like she puts BBC up her you know what

>>40648222
Nice trips, Taylor

>>40648222
just buy a horsecock dildo online and its better than bbc porn

>mercyful fate

Based. What's your favourite album?

>>40648257
Obviously Don't Break the Oath, however the vocals are weak compared to the more recent 9.

>>40648205
yeah I'm tempted even to squat "their" spots and show up with a boombox full of carnaval music
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WcJkw1RqtGg

>>40648264
Don't Break the Oath and Abigail are amongt my favourite albums ever.

>>40648264
Nice, never heard that album though. Maybe my friend has Ill check with him.

>>40648290
Abigail is a King Diamond solo album.

>>40648314
Doesnt sound familiar to me at all

>>40648107 (OP)
what other substances you use? do you still drink or no?

It's gotten to the point where I can't have therapy and rejected it because the only therapy session I had I was like "I heard the voice of ISIS". And this didn't fit with Freud or something so they were like "I will research who that is..."

Not realising that I didn't know who Isis was so I rejected therapy so I do take my pills because it was horrible but I don't bother with talking therapy.

I'm pretty much a zombie at this point from the amount of pills i'm taking however it is kinda interesting that Osiris got cut into pieces who was the husband of Isis.

>>40648346
I used to smoke copius amounts of weed but quit because when I smoke weed I hear voices and get paranoid.

I still drink a hell of an amount, I guess it just gives me courage.

>>40648365
>hearing stuff on weed
what strain, if you remember?

>>40648403
I don't know but it was strong, I paid extra for it. Weed is illegal in the UK

>>40648403
It used to make me jack off for 5 days straight with no sleep

>>40648107 (OP)
Those symptoms are very generic. They are shared by depressed people, too, and depression is an emotional state, not an illness.

>>40648365
you should stop doing substances especially weed it's known to trigger schizophrenia to the susceptible your symptoms are like anti cholinergic drug symptoms also weed has that effect as well, you didn't touch antihistamines like DPH etc?

>>40648473
As a depressive since I was 13 and a scizo since I was 21, you're telling me depressives hear loud scary voices and see bugs on their glassware?

>>40648485
You're completely correct. Though I use alcohol recreationally I cannot currently take weed, it makes me psychotic immediately.

>>40648365
I used to smoke weed daily. It's legal in michigan- I would smoke 2grams of thc oil in a week or less. I'd hallucinate regularly while sober... Birds, voices, general paranoia. I've stopped and none of it occurs, ever. I never learned anything from it except weed is shit.

>>40648513
I've stopped taking weed for about 2 years now. It didn't stop my demonic paranoia which lasted for 2 months at the start of this year. Either my brain has been warped by weed permanently or it was something demonic, it sure felt like it.

Btw guys my scizo was so bad at one point I thought my mother and nurse was making demonic movements with their mouth. I saw a silent hill like figure limping down the avenue and talking to me from a distance warning me not to test her.

Plants in my house were coming alive and there was a special tv program on for me with yarweh and lucifer playing music on my TV.

It was some demonic shit i'm probably one of the only people who experienced true insanity and didn't become hospitalised.

>>40648493
No, I'm telling you the fact that you see bugs on your glassware is why you're schizophrenic, not because you have flat affect, anhedonia, alogia or avolition. Those symptoms are very generic and shared by anyone with high BMI.

>>40648627
Ah ok, that makes sense. I can be quite harsh when I don't understand something so thanks for clarifying!

>>40648107 (OP)
Bro, what’s going on is you’ve abandoned yourself. The voices are mean because they love you and you fear and hate them in response so they mirror you. But it’s all part of you. You’re here expecting us to do something or give you answers but the answer is you have to rely on yourself and your intuition. Playing the victim and relying on the outside world’s validation before your intuition comes from not trusting yourself which is why you’ve abandoned yourself. Pray to the One and have faith. The way will be shown to you.

>>40648107 (OP)
Pretty much what >>40648845 is saying. There is an incredibly complex mess of autonomous eggregores rummaging about in the collective unconscious, but usually what you call 'demons' is the clown in you. your Anima. There is a severe separation, or rift, within you. Psychotherapy would be the way to go, but obviously you got an idiot as therapist. Freud? What the fuck? That has no place in modern times. Seek someone better.

>>40648107 (OP)
you need magnesium

>>40648107 (OP)
poor diet and lifestyle choices will expose you more to the astral world. like gremlins the movie, don't eat right before sleeping especially high carb stuff. Isis is a god and you must treat them as such. Might want to do some divination and find out if you're a servant of that or some other god. People are chosen by God to be servants so don't ignore it otherwise it will be at your peril.

>>40650848
worth looking into

>>40648550
weed definitely will cause a schizo to be schizo. supposedly CBD can reverse it

>>40648107 (OP)
Listen you schizo bastard, you've got nothing to lose from reading through this. https://www.jerrymarzinsky.com/articles

It sounds like you're more aware of your situation than most so this may work too if it's real. Also where in the UK? I'd love to probe your brain if you're near me.

>>40648352
Dude learn self control and go back to discipline do what benefits you and get off the pills. Use your will to go into the good path again. You have to fight inertia now but once you win the inertia in the opposite direction will be stronger.

Dont believe any voice they impersonate people they want to manipulate you. Leave the pills and have self control. And you will keeo hearing the voices and they are demonic. Say Bismillah and they run away.

Hear to these suras and to the songs I send. And purify your mind. Your mind is full of shit you consumed porn and satanic music. What do you think you are going to connect with when hearing to that?

Hear to these suras regularly. They kill the saitans. They cant even overhear them. If you follow islam DONT follow major sects and dont do their rituals and please NO genital mutilation. Modern muslims are corrupted and brainrotten. Search into sufism.

Hear to this suras and your heart will be healed subhanallah barakatu

You are fighting demons. I give you weapons. That and discipline. May the sacred force guide you out of your inner and outer hells into your inner and outer janna. Salaam alaikum.

Do meditation. Hear to the talks of Krishnamurti. What you do is what you are. What you consume is what you are. Consume elevated stuff not satanic shit.

Sura an najm

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z1PuqFjCMXw

Sura ya sin

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mKSamkcluSQ

Ruqyah exorcism aleyah of sulaiman

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=741La0kqlVw

Healing verses

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6H52-brhfi4

Dont interpret the Quran literally and be wary of sectarial thought.
Learn from this men about the essence of islam:
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RV844KcK2q0

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C8M4i9fvq1M

Read ibn Arabi
Isis is just a representation of the living force that gives life to everything. The tao, Allah, God. Voices are elementals or demons or djinn dont follow them. Focus internally. Meditate.

>>40651401
I found myself in your same situation and I heal myself. Start doing martial arts. And get off the pills because they anchor you into negative states of being. Find a martial art and consume positive things. Not satanic and porn. Getting off pills is hard but you have to be stubborn and SELF CONTROL and patience. You can walk again the path you walked. Hit the gym again. Reduce the pills. But dont let the physchiatrist know. Keep buying them regularly. Get control of your own life. You can change your future. You can do this.

Talk me on discord if you want, my nickname is grimnirgrimnir_91435

>>40651401
>>40651417

If you want to see a change in the external you have to change the internal. Your habits. Your thoughts. What you consume. Hear to this man for esoteric teaching and self improvement but the videos in black wont make sense for you.

And hear to the talks of Krishnamurti. What you consume is what you are. You consume satanic music and alcohol and bad stuff you get what you get. Start consuming the words of masters and sacred texts.

Read the ramayana with sanskrit recitation

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=p-3tqB145Cg

Read baghavad gita with sanskrit recitation.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=C5UHgA9C3kw


Give up everything and join shaolin temple in europe. Die to your old self and be reborn. You have neetbucks to afford it.

Look up shaolin temple europe

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UpN3AcXLSSk


I am giving you a set of tool for you to use. And ideas. Your write your future. You can do this. I did it myself.

Dont believe the voices. Learn egyptian mysteries from this man. But dont watch the black videos because you wont understand them they were a test for the hearer. If you hear them (the videos in black) start from the last one.

See from "the earth is the heart" to "the sacred"

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kB1h-e-9l68

And hear to the talks of krishnamurti or read his books if you want correct guidance. This channel I share may be a little overwhelming for you right now but he explains egyptian mysteries.

Connect with your heart. The eternal divine within you. Allah is closer to you than your yugular vein. Look within. Meditate. Feel the light and vibration and bliss in your heart. The sacred within.

>>40648610
>Plants in my house were coming alive
Plastic plants? Dead plants. You don't have a mental illness other than extreme outlier stupidity.

>>40648107 (OP)
Listen to this for your sleep paralysis.

>>40651856
Forgot link.
https://youtube.com/watch?v=dJv_nJCXzzI

>>40651508
Not OP but thank you. Where to start with Krishnamurti?

>>40648107 (OP)
Schizophrenia is just when boys do magical thinking.

I got embarrassed because I was drunk when I started this thread but OP here and i've plucked up the courage to come back.

Thanks for all your support!!!

>>40653402
>>40648107 (OP)
Take niacin. Vitamin B3 in the form of Nicotinic Acid (not Nicotinamide or Niacinamide, those won't work).

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RfpQWQD6Cv4
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PFW5dB3G-0c

>>40651914
You can hear to his talks

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZLQt_ttmpsk

I like him because he is antidogma and antiritualistic stuff and antiworship. Teaches about the silence of the mind and inner discipline. Doesnt get lost in superstition and nonsense rite. He is a prophet for our times and for the people of today. His message is directed to the hearer. Take time to reflect about his insights.

>>40648107 (OP)
How about literally confessing and an exorcism?

>>40651401
>>40651417
>>40651451
>>40651508

Trying to help here I gave you a set of options or tools to use. Change in the internal to see a change in the external. Consume and do beneficial things. Learn selfcontrol and discernment so you dont need the pills.

>>40648473
Depression can either be an emotional state, or a legitimate illness, or even both. Shit's real depressing, but there's a variety of reasons why someone is depressed with a variety of ways of fixing it

>>40648107 (OP)
>>40653402
Hey man, I'm rooting for you. I hope you find a way to overcome this, if there's a problem there is always a solution, you just gotta have faith in victory and you'll find it eventually. Good luck, bro, and godspeed.

>>40648107 (OP)
You got fat because of the psych meds.

>>40648107 (OP)
>hear constant voices in the corner of my room, claiming to be from the Goddess Isis amongst other demons.
>She said my problem is that i'm really stupid which I don't dispute
lmao

>>40648365
just stop drinking
only time i ever heard voices was from withdrawing from alcohol

>>40648365
also demons are parasites
just do a parasite cleanse and you will rid yourself of demons
pic related

>>40657763
Same, i wonder if OP was in withdrawall.

>>40657782
>Demons are just parasites
I can't disprove your claim, but I think there's more to it than that.
Parasites are demons, but not all demons are parasites
>Drink alcohol
>Blood sugar instantly higher
>Certain parasites love the extra sugar
>Cause terrifying hallucinations when you stop drinking
>So I drink every night to stop the hallucinations
I can see it being plausible.

>>40658266
Maybe not withdrawal.
I get the same shit when I drink 1 less beer at night, which never used to happen but now that I'm 27 I feel like I'm in the age where schizophrenia typically getss much more pronounced. I'd always hear shit that wasn't there but it's developed into more intense hallucinations and visually I've started to have episodes with me trying to curtail my drinking habit from a half pint of liquor.
I think some are just more predisposed to being spiritually attacked, and that sins of the father are passed on to the son (sons struggle with the same thing as their parents).
Drinking merely intensifies the hallucinations that existed beforehand

>>40648107 (OP)
Actually you just gave yourself brain damage by drinking too much alcohol. You can attempt to repair it via Lion's Mane mushroom supplements, but it will take years. I'm really sorry.

>>40661413
Wow, that's very thoughtful advice, The Demon. You're really kind for a demon, y'know? Kudos to you, my friend.