>>40648965 (OP)Pray for strength for yourself, and pray foe the health of your friends and family. Give as much as you can to people, even if they never reciprocate. Do your part to fill the voids in others, give them hope and a chance to see a world where things can be better.
We all make mistakes, some worse than others. Some mistakes are cringeworthy, some are moments you would desperately like to erase from your memory. But don't be hard on yourself; forgive yourself and have faith.
Prayer is valuable even if you aren't religious, it feels good to release the heavy energy that surrounds you out into an outlet that is listening, a conscious and aware being. You are part of this collective energy, a node in the universe. Integrate as much as you can back to your true self, and remember that you've always been there.
All the best, with love.
-a caring anon