>>40664230 (OP)Not paranormal but I get it. I'm turning 27 this month and both of my parents have already passed, as well as my sister and grandpa. Loss is really difficult to deal with, it never becomes "okay", you'll always feel the gap of their presence but it will become easier.
Just remember that everyone is bullshitting life the same as you and pretending they know what they're doing. The people who are the most successful are those who have learned to bullshit the best. Get in touch with your inner child and remember what it is they wanted to become before the horrors of the real world overtook you. Remember the child you were with starry eyes and excitement for the world. Would you want anything bad to happen to that child? Treat yourself with the same care that you would treat them. Whenever I want to die, I remember the little girl I once was and I want to live for her because she deserves better.
Clean up your appearance and get 3 jobs waiting tables. You won't be able to think of anything else except for work, and this will make the pain go away. Then, once you have all that money saved (get jobs at places where you can average $200 a day), go on a trip to a different country and gain a new perspective on life. It'll be good for you, just exhausting for a while. Short term pain for long term gain.
