I am writing this because I need help and advice. I don't know what to do anymore. I've contacted DHS, FBI, The local sheriff, The state department and a known NSA agent. No one will help me or treats me like a child by contacting my parents. (I'm a 40 year old man). Additionally, I am writing this in order to make an official record of events that initially occurred between 10/01/12 - 04/18/13. Events subsided for many years until 08/14/2016 and continue to occur presently.

I'm suppose I'm writing this for many reasons. However, I would never kill myself and know for a fact that I would not commit homicidal actions against innocent life. I know this for a fact because I've been tested to the limit. At one point I was so angry at the situation I wanted to eat whoever was responsible. But I didn't because not only do I not know who is actually responsible but I'm also lucid enough not to want to deal with the consequences afterwards. Needless to say, at one point I had THOUGHTS (not voices) in my head that listed out one particular co-worker I sat next to every day. His name was Allan (which meant something to me later). It's worth mentioning my instinct and gut told me that these thoughts were coming from somewhere remotely. At the time I had no idea, a device in the wall? a laser? an app on my phone? I had no idea.

Skip forward to 2025. Present day and I am certain mind control weapons are real and possibly being used against innocent unsuspecting civilians causing them to commit acts of homicide and many other things. It took me over a decade to get to that conclusion but I want to tell my story and some of the things I witnessed along the way in what could be classified as contemporary MK Ultra programs ongoing in/from America.

We need to start from the beginning and this is the part i'm least proud of. I felt a lot of guilt for some of my actions but now that I look back on it maybe it wasn't me at all, maybe someone convinced me with mind control weapons to do the things I did. Maybe that's why i'm not in Prison now. Regardless, I believe we all have a choice to make and know what is right and wrong; even if there is a little thought in your head telling you to do something doesn't mean you have to do it. And I made the wrong choice.

In October of 2012 I had just recently dropped out of the Computer Science program and Virginia Tech. I had no job, no money, I was basically homeless. My parents let me stay with them and I had just got done binge watching Breaking Bad. I was surfing the dark web and discovered detailed instructions on how to import Mimosa Hostilis from Brazil into America, turn it into DMT and sell it on the Silk Road. By September I had my first order in and was an official Vendor on the Silk Road. I made thousands of Bitcoin. However, some strange things started to happen to me. In December 2012 I recall on several occasions a sound in my head that resembled someone pinging me with a radar gun or something. It was a long booong sound and slowly faded away. The strangest thing that happened that december was I was playing call of duty on my computer having a beer. Now, normally my best kill streak is 3 - 4. But all of a sudden I got a HUGE boner. I mean, my dick was sooooo hard I had never felt anything like it before. At the same time I got a 25 kill streak. The whole thing freaked me out and I stopped playing video games.

So I continued doing my thing, selling as a vendor on the first silk road. I was slightly paranoid but was making money now. I had no idea how high Bitcoin would go at the time but I had 1000's of bitcoin. They are still out there somewhere but I lost the keys. That is beside the point, let's skip to April 2013.

This is where things get the strangest so far in the story and it's hard for me to put into order. But basically, around April 16th the Boston Bombings occurred. I don't know if you recall but a lot of weird things happened around the country as the bombers were on the run from authorities. Strange things happened from my perspective as well. For me, it was about a 5 day event where I had no sleep extreme paranoia and was certain I was about to be arrested and spend 20 years in prison.

It began with a new facebook friend. I hated facebook and didn't really use it. But I had 4 friends on there that I kept in contact with. All of sudden I had a 5th friend who I never accepted. It was this hot Asian chick that was in marketing and had a photo of her under a waterfall. She was posting memes that were making me paranoid. Things that said like "they are watching you", "get rid of everything now". This was weird and was the beginning of a 5 day no sleep event.

On the next day i was out having my morning coffee and an ARGUS (military drone) flew at extreme low altitude and buzzed my house. That freaked me out. I gathered everything into a box with plans to throw away. I threw out some basic stuff to the curb at first. and IMMEDIATELY a trash truck skipped all the other houses and came to mine to pick it up. That is when I knew to throw out everything else somewhere safe.

On the second or third day I had little sleep. I managed to get a few hours here and there but my dreams were weird. I had dreams of guns floating in front of me and police coming around the corner. It was like I was being tested if I would grab the gun and start shooting or not. I would yell at them I'm a VET i wont shoot!!! but that was least weirdest thing to happen.

On the third day (April 16-20th somewhere) I decided to get rid of all the evidence. As I was doing this news anchors on television were giving lectures about obstruction of justice. It felt like they were talking to me. Keep in mind.. they still haven't found the boston bombers and there is a nation wide man hunt. This is where it gets really crazy.

I felt so paranoid and desperate that for some reason my mind thought the only way out of this is to get rid of the evidence and get someone else to commit an act of terrorism. So I gathered everything, all the evidence, and any chemistry book that might help me to make a bomb. My plan was to go back to Virginia Tech and put the bomb in one of the muslim students backpacks and call it in...I had many international friends at the school on diplomatic visas. This whole time, it felt like someone was guiding my thoughts. Like they weren't natural. So the first step was to get rid of the evidence.

I went to the closest gas station and dumped all the drug evidence. I continued driving. The radio was annoying. It was like they were playing special announcements and songs for me. I would think a song in my head, turn on the radio and that is the song that would be playing. They liked to play "who are you" over and over again. Also, there were brand new construction cameras all over the place. At this time there wasn't cameras on every intersection so I think they were placed there on purpose.

Anyways, I found myself driving down i-95 towards fredricksburg. I was set on building a bomb and putting in a students back pack at virginia tech. The traffic was light, when all of a sudden a pickup truck came speeding by me and got in my lane ahead of me. There were three men in the back that looked "ex military". They dropped the back of the door and pushed a giant plastic ball out at my car. It barely dodged my front wined shield but managed to take out my side mirror. It was then that I realized my plan was a bad idea and I took the first exit.

All of a sudden I felt very hungry for a cheeseburger or Mexican food. So I stopped at the first chipotles. It was weird, when I pulled up like 10 other cars pulled in at the same time all with different state license plates. By the time I actually got into the store the line was almost out the door. So I was like, fuck this i'm not going to wait forever. At the same time this scary looking dude showed up on a big motorcycle. He looked ex seal team 6 or something. He had a bit of a beer belly and a huge scar coming down his face like someone knifed him. Call me a pussy but as he stood behind me I left.

I forgot to mention one of occurrence on my way down i-95s before the plastic ball. I stopped at a Mcdonalds because I felt like I was being followed. And all the new construction crews and cameras were making me paranoid. I went inside and there was a 20 something year old. He was in front of my and ordered like 20 burgers. He counted out all his money in cash, it was like he was trying to slow me down. While I was waiting a black man parked into the parking lot and ran to the front door. He opened it looked inside and looked frustrated. He didn't enter but just went back to his car and left. Finally it was my turn to order after the guy in front of me took 10 minutes counting all his cash. I sat down and this black chick sat down next to me without any food. But she was on her cell phone talking to someone. She was saying things like "yeah she will know", "they are coming soon" but she didn't have any fucking food and on top of everything else i'm freaked out now.

Back to my exit of chipotles. I started driving down 2 lane highways in the forests of northern virginia. I think I did a 30 mile loop back to my house. But the whole time I was listening to the thoughts in my head. They were saying things like go left, go right, keep going straight. I just listened to my instinct and went left like my thoughts told me to. It was then that I discovered a group of 20 vehicles, all blue, police looking, looked like a mobile FBI unit on an embankment of a small lake. I drove by them and threw out my last piece of evidence which was a pipe with a fully loaded weed bowl =(

I got back home. wiped all my systems and got rid of my crypto keys. I had a sense of impending doom Dreams of police raids and the apocalypse. I eventually got my shit together and went back to school. I could never get over how I felt my rights had been violated so bad. But I didn't even understand how or why. I was so confused. But I went back to my military training and decided to not QUIT. To finish my bachelors degree in computer science and that is what I did. I turned my life around and started running marathons. I left Virginia and moved to Texas. Everything was good.

BEFORE PART 2:
There is a gap between what happened then and what is happening now. But I want to list off weird things that happened during part 1 that I didn't get to. For example. At one point I took my dog for a walk down a path in our backyard. Weird things happened then too. I was walking my dog I noticed 2 bunnies and 2 squirrels. They were walking together in a line next to each other and had no problems with eeachother. At the same time I felt a buzzing in my head but it felt euphoric. Like I was on ecstasy or something. I felt so happy and it was like these animals were walking towards noahs ark. The next day I saw one of my neighbors putting bunnies and squirrels into a cage. I should mention I delivered pizza to quantico virginia. Where they train FBI and Marines. I used to deliever 10 pizzas to the FBI students. They always tipped well. But one thing that was weird in my town was when all this shit went down the clerks at the stores all changed. One time, I entered a store and the new clerk had an ear piece and said "yeah he's here" as a bought burner phones to call the FBI and report this.

>>40682082 (OP)
Kill yourself tranny larper.

Anyways... that is part 1. If you want me to continue with part 2 let me know. There was almost 4 year gap and then they decided t come back for some reason after I graduated. I dont want to go into to much more or the technical aspects of this as a I feel my life is in danger. But I will probably be back to explain 8/14/2016 to present if I dont die. It gets a lot more crazy but i feel like there are competing factions. i'm on the faction that believes in democracy and an educated public. if they aren't unsuspecting victims anymore they will make better choices.

>>40682082 (OP)

This is way too much to read. Copy and paste this into chatgpt and ask it to make a short version that makes it clear what your actual question is.
Post that short version

>>40682082 (OP)
>I contact MKUltra to help me bring to justice MKUltra

>>40682133
It’s just fake I read through the whole thing, hoping it would be real. He’s probably trying to bump some good thread off of the bottom.

>>40682082 (OP)
Hey man, assuming this is not a larp, this is psychosis. The part of your brain that does critical thinking is messed up and you're just constructing a narrative based around random patterns. Just try consider the possibility that that is true.
If you're looking for peace or to heal it can be found through abstaining from drugs and practicing meditation, this is what helped me when I was going through something similar. I hope you take my advice

>>40682109
More like cock blowing

>>40682179
Anon is right. Not sleeping for 5 days on end will make anyone read more into things. Priority is sleep right now, anon. Maybe take a break from 4chan and analyzing this delusion. The focus is on you getting better right now. God Bless.

you are possessed by a demon. fuck the CIA

maybe contact either the infantry, or airbone, psychological operations units of the US military? or the non-army psy. ops armed groups?
I can try to search and list them, if you want

>>40682270
I haven't finished part 2. What thoughts do you have on how to track down the person responsible. I have many ideas.

>>40682275
Contact a REAL esper; a priest possible. Every diocese ,catholic, has an exorcist, but laymen don't know who it is. Ask the bishop's office trough a letter, maybe?
Maybe you need to present evidence you can't post itt, if you have evidence then you might get the help of an ESPer from some religious group..maybe tibetan buddhist even, they have "tulkus" and oracle-men

Psychosis isnt real
Telepathy is however
If you stare at the ceiling while TRYING to think of nothing you can briefly sever the link

>>40682106
>as a I feel my life is in danger
What do you have to fear in losing your life?

>>40682357
I'm worried someone will think i'm special. I'm not special. Just an innocent civilian with average intelligence.

>>40682275
are you going to post it ITT? also, to echo what others said, were you using any drugs in addition to weed during/before this period? those + no sleep + intense paranoia from your activities are a good mix for drug induced psychosis.

>>40682357
In fact. That is the point. I'm not special. There are many unsuspecting victims. I just see through the lies.

>>40682087
> Now, normally my best kill streak is 3 - 4. But all of a sudden I got a HUGE boner. I mean, my dick was sooooo hard I had never felt anything like it before. At the same time I got a 25 kill streak. The whole thing freaked me out and I stopped playing video games.
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHAA

>>40683003
I dont think youre special youre like a lamb of God

>>40683016
.No drug use except 4 months prior. weed mostly............This is about MK Ultra right? 100 xrp to the first person that calls out the name of the song/band that came out in 1973 detailing mind control weapons in an abstract manner.. The year after all the MK Ultra documents were ordered to be destroyed. HINT: Bilbo baggins had a ring. These guys had a golden earing..

>>40683468
SECOND HINT: Allan H Frey discovered you can make sounds that feel like they are coming from behind you with microwaves in 1963. It is called the Frey effect.

They were ordered to destroy documents. They sang songs instead.

>>40682082 (OP)
Even at 40 you would be way too young for this. That program was decades before you were born,
Stop larping. It’s boring,
>>40682105
This.

>>40682082 (OP)
https://deprogramwiki.com/

Let me know when your ready for part 2. Which covers 8/14/2016 - present

>>40683526
Sorry to burst your bubble but there were hundreds of programs. The ones that worked never ended. That might be why..(fill in the blank)

>>40683468
>https://youtu.be/aRlSHG5hRY4
We’re all losing it a bit fren, plot has lost the narrative.

>>40683650
what's your xrp address? I will send 100.


This is what I was looking for. I think it's is a metaphor for mk ultra program from 1970's and some vague description of some of the techs they knew worked.

Waiting for someone to request part 2. i'm out till then. Peace and love to all.

>>40683529
thanks for this but it seems overwhelming. My own experiences are enough and I am comfortable enough with the truth as I understand it.

>>40683814
Don’t worry bout the coin fren, just keep your will strong. That vid was ripped from “the devil made us do it.” Many such cases of media referencing this stuff. Live your best, wishing you well.

>>40683819
Okay I wanna hear it anon

>>40682138
kekkled

>>40682082 (OP)
>It's worth mentioning my instinct and gut told me that these thoughts were coming from somewhere remotely. At the time I had no idea, a device in the wall? a laser? an app on my phone? I had no idea.


Spiritual logic; ie does not need some sort of technical piece of equipment. The third eye is the organ you process spiritual information with.
Do you hear "surreal sounds" sometimes as well; sometimes "HD-sound"; as in sound that sounds like "higher definition audio than normal sound"?

Try this sigil for Third eye Calibration; said book teaches you how everything spiritual works. Liber Falxifer 3 ("Q-anon: trust the plan" etc is from said book series);
https://archive.org/details/liber-falxifer-iii-the-book-of-the-52-stations-of-the-crosses-of-nod/page/84/mode/2up

Loads of defenses etc in said book series; teaches you how things work and how to get good at it.
Sounds like you've been "outside of Eden; in the lands of "Nod". (ie outside of "normal experiences with reality").

>>40682144
I don't think it's fake.
It reads like a schizophrenic episode, and I don't say that as an insult to OP.

>>40682179
I 100% think this is the correct take and second your advice.

>>40682133
This. Op I kind think you might need help just by the fact you took all the time to write that.

>>40683468
“Radar Love” by Golden Earring

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Memo
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>>40686434
"Schizophrenic episodes" is often related to what i mentioned here >>40686416
ie "being "outside of eden"; having surreal experiences with reality.
Schizophrenia is often misdiagnosed on people who have had real physical experiences with physically real "surreal stuff"; which is percieved by people in their surroundings as "strange behaviour they can't comprehend" due to being on a different spiritual wavelength.
Stuff like "Gangstalking" refers to people experiencing this sort of stuff; and noticing that a lot of people in their surroundings start acting strangely; since they become part of "scenarios" (that work on a bunch of spiritual logic, spiritual statistics etc). Such phenomena is in reality just people in a persons surroundings going into a specific kind of "surreal mindset".
People like for example Terry A Davis (RIP) was very obviously "a bit outside of natural experiences with reality".
You can learn how stuff in that tier of reality works, as well as start recognising others in the same situation; everyone experiences the same types of "stereotypical scenarios"; that works on "basic formula of "archetypal behaviour"; for example "<A police> doing <X thing> (or "trying to"; the exact results is affected by stats like metaphysical defenses of the target of the offense etc; loads of spiritual stats involved)

>>40682099
I have a a family member with a schizophrenia and you sound like him anon. Ngl.

It’s good that you got out of selling drugs. Doesn’t mean the gov was using mind control weapons on you. Just means you have a conscious and you aren’t meant for that life and it gave you crazy paranoia.

>>40682087
>But all of a sudden I got a HUGE boner. I mean, my dick was sooooo hard I had never felt anything like it before. At the same time I got a 25 kill streak.
lmao

>>40682082 (OP)
Consider doing a parasite cleanse.
Parasites are basically biological transceivers used by demons to put thoughts/emotions into your nervous system.
Ivermectin, Prazinquantel, fenbendazole, etc.
Also do A fungal parasite cleanse. Pic related.
Also stop consuming anything with yeast in it.
Good luck.

>>40686416
>>40686501
Yo OP this person is a demon-worshipper derailing your thread. The sigil they want you to look at will harm you. Literally harm you just by looking at it. Ignore their religious metaphors and stick to your account of your experiences. What's been happening since 2016?
>>40686457
Fuck off glowie

>>40686843
Lol, only if you're a very "hebrew" person.

>>40687116
"Traps set for the unworthy" etc. If you're harming yourself you've done something wrong.

>>40687128
Loads of mentions of traps.

>>40687137
>>40686843
What you're reffering to is also called "Anti-cabbala".

>>40682082 (OP)
most of /x/ is larping, but this is just really shitty, baby-tier fanfiction.

let me give you a tip: larping is swiss cheese. keep it small so the holes arent so apparent. the more you write, the more holes there are. the more holes there are, the less of a story you actually have. the more you write, the less its believable.