Against modern Judaizers/'Christian' Zionists edition! Made this thread because the previous one died out

Christian Esotericism is the inner and/or mystical aspect of the Christian Religion, it includes:
>Christian Gnosis (Clement of Alexandria)
>Desert Fathers Spirituality (Evagrius Ponticus)
>Catholic Contemplative Tradition (Bonaventure)
>Hesychasm (Gregory Palamas)
>Chivalry (Wolfram von Eschenbach)
>Christian Alchemy (George Ripley)
>Rhineland Mysticism (Meister Eckhart)
>Christian Cabala (Johannes Reuchlin)
>Paracelsianism (Paracelsus)
>Rosicrucianism (Robert Fludd)
>Christian theosophy (Jakob Böhme)
>Martinism (Louise Claude de Saint-Martin)
>Swedenborgianism (Swedenborg)
>Magical Idealism (Novalis)
>Romanticism (Baader)
>Anthroposophy (Rudolf Steiner)
>Sophiology (Sergei Bulgakov)
>Christian Hermeticism (Valentin Tomberg)
>Fourth Way (Boris Mouravieff)
>Christian Traditionalism (Jean Borella)
>Divine Love (James Padgett)
And much more, so let's continue to talk about it!

>Resources (WIP)
https://www.john-uebersax.com/plato/cp.htm
https://jacobboehmeonline.com/
https://archive.org/details/awakening-to-divine-wisdom-christian-initiation-into-three-worl-nodrm_202202/mode/1up
https://janelead.org/resources.html
https://archive.org/details/bookofcontemplat00unde/
https://archive.org/details/rudolf-steiner-book-collection/
https://swedenborg.com/bookstore/free-ebooks-downloads/
https://www.gornahoor.net/?page_id=47
https://archive.org/details/meditations-on-the-tarot/
https://files.catbox.moe/8n4061.djvu (Meditations on the Tarot)
https://eliasartista.substack.com/
https://passtheword.org
https://catenabible.com/mt/1

i'd recommend this if you want the pdf version for Meditations on the Tarot: https://ia903401.us.archive.org/0/items/meditations-on-the-tarot/Meditations%20on%20the%20Tarot.pdf

I've been feeling so spiritually dead and alone for a while. How do I feel Gods love? How do I get a response? Get anything? Prayers feel so unheard

>>40690500
Lots to unpack, so I'm just going to work with the assumption that these questions are in good faith

Take the mystic pill. I felt similarly to you, and I realized I had spent so much time thinking that I knew God just because I memorized a bunch of things about him like doctrine and historical arguments etc. I wasn't looking at my regular life experiences, both good and bad, through uhh a more meaningful lens so to speak, so I had to train it.

>>40690500
Read the Church Fathers. It's easy, really.