This reality is not for me and I am not for it and thus, I'd like to weaken it if possible. That way, I can either reshape it bit by bit or slip out of it and end up in a different - perhaps even kinder and more fitting - reality. What fields of magic and theological study might be of interest for me regarding this? Picrel kinda

>>40715835 (OP)
Sounds like you want to understand the Hylic, Psychic and Pneumatic soul after a fashion

The secret understanding is that there both IS and IS NOT one true reality
Once you understand this you can carve out a little piece of reality, claim it to yourself and shape it to your will
Good luck