>>40721753 (OP)I don't know if it's demons so much per se, but childhood traumas and experience definitely will have an effect.
My mom used to beat the shit out of me as a kid, more than just disciplining, and at different times she would have me massage her feet because she was tired from work.
Now as an adult I have an insane giantess fetish and nothing turns me on more than the idea of being tiny and worshiping a woman's feet. I figure it's because I didn't get the love and affection that I should have gotten from my mother, only abuse, so now I fantasize about being powerless to something greater in hopes that by worshiping I can receive the affection I was always deprived of.
One thing I do want to say though is that porn is definitely an energy sapper and manipulator. Given the wealth of, and ease of access to, porn available, in my case giantess foot worshiping porn, What should be a fantasy and fetish is now turned into the only thing that will get me hard as fuck. Even with with girlfriends I've had in the past, I'm able to get them off but unless they indulge in my fantasy I ain't nuttin'.