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I was extremely depressed and suicidal at the time I was having these dreams. Shortly after the dreams stopped, my mental health improved. I have bipolar disorder type 2 so I still get depressed and irritable at times, but I don't self-harm anymore and I open up when people show concern. Something about getting repeatedly killed by wild animals seems to have changed my attitude towards suffering. Also, something interesting happened several years later, this time while I was wide awake.
>go to a family reunion in the Smoky Mountains>show up to a big resort on the side of a mountain>when I arrive I overhear my aunts and uncles talking about encountering black bears before I showed up>family is all city slickers so they just cower in fear in every time and wait for the bears to go away>one morning I wake up early and step out on the ground floor balcony for a cig>it's very quiet, no one around>suddenly I get the feeling I'm being watched>i turned and look behind me>a large black bear is standing 6 feet away, blocking my path>we momentarily make eye contact, then the bear turns and calmly walks away>I sense she's too comfortable being that close to people, so I climb the steps up to the second floor balcony>proceed to scream my lungs out at her>"BAD BEAR! GET OUT OF HERE!" ect>she panics and goes around the cabin>I go around the other side and keep screaming and throwing sticks until she disappears into the forestI scared off two more bears in the next hour. Some of my relatives thanked me. I told them I did it for the bears' sake as much as ours.