>>40733038same as everyone else, it's performative to them.
but, i'll bite. you're looking for a way to be *forced* through understanding. at this point, don't stoop to their level just so you can "be hit by the rulers of reality," because that's just veiled masochism. channel that masochism into *doing the work required to understand* the rulers of reality.
not to rationalize them, not to abide by them.
to understand which circumstances propagated them, and the foundation that underlies any model of institutional authority.
you dont need authority, respect, status, anything really, to become the beautifully irreverent fool that you may.
we need not don the weapon of the adversary when our irreverence nullifies its' power.
you deserve *better* than to just get "smacked by god" until you understand.
your understanding is your own, it is your only true possession.
do not let anybody exert undue influence over it.