I feel empty now, I know who runs the world and controls the media. I also know the deep darkness that dwells inside each individual, including myself. Whenever I interact with people I am scared because I became overtly cynical and I assume the worst from everyone

Does it get better? Is there anything positive out of all of this? So far, removing the blindfold has brought me nothing but misery

>>40741653 (OP)
Just do what you wanna do and try to have some fun doing it!

>>40741653 (OP)
If you strive towards the positive or the negative you're gonna be miserable inevitably. The whole point of esoteric mystical models is how there's a balance to everything, there's always a singularity supporting the whole model and everything spawns from it following recursive symmetry. You need to start accepting the good without letting go of the bad, whatever that means to you, only when you find that balance you can shed the whole thing.

>>40741653 (OP)
I've heard that some people have managed to expel the darkness, and they felt much better afterward. Maybe that can be your goal?

>>40741653 (OP)
snap out of it, don't let schizo win OP

>>40741653 (OP)
>Does it get better? Is there anything positive out of all of this? So far, removing the blindfold has brought me nothing but misery
You don't have any esoteric knowledge. You are still looking outside yourself for the secrets of the world, rather than inside yourself for the secrets of the universe.

>>40741653 (OP)
That's all exoteric not esoteric. Look within for the truth, not at the world of appearances.

2bad

>>40743298
"As above, so below"

>>40741680
>If you strive towards the positive or the negative you're gonna be miserable inevitably. The whole point of esoteric mystical models is how there's a balance to everything, there's always a singularity supporting the whole model and everything spawns from it following recursive symmetry. You need to start accepting the good without letting go of the bad, whatever that means to you, only when you find that balance you can shed the whole thing.
Sounds like bad guy propaganda to me. "It's ok bro just let us be bad."

>>40743196
>>40743298
Well you need to know a thing or two about the matter of reality before cracking that spark or you'll become mad.

>>40741653 (OP)
Oh? You understand the esoteric? Then you realize that the only way to go is up in duality. The GOOD side of duality, the side of Angels, the side of happiness and positivity. With that knowledge one can fight depression with a better arsenal. All is well, anon.

>>40743364
What is "bad"? Regardless of what you think bad is, it isn't something you decide to do or not do, it's something you are. Rejecting "the bad" is willful ignorance and it keeps you in the dark. If you don't make peace with what you are (all of it) you'll be miserable in this life, you need to know and accept your darkness, it's that simple.

>>40743398
There is no reality in the maya. Pull your head out.

>>40743454
>What is "bad"?
Stuff like torturing someone for fun for 15 years (And they're not into it). War isn't inherently bad: It can keep population in check, put a more effective group in charge, test people, create heroes. Not so much drone warfare though.

>>40741653 (OP)
Yes