My friend killed herself. I and her are both agnostic/atheists
I tried to convince her not to but she still did it anyway. She seemed really determined to die

I still feel guilty for not somehow doing more.

What sort of afterlife is she having if any

>>40757883 (OP)
My condolences OP
I've been through something similar.
Its not your fault for not knowing what you don't know, and you're not alone.

>>40757883 (OP)
I am legitimately so sorry for your loss, anon.
I don't think there would be much more you could've done for her if she was determined to leave.
I have no idea what an afterlife would be, but I believe all the good has to go somewhere. So she lives on in the good and beauty in this fucked up world.
We are all doomed to suffer and die and there is no shame in taking a way out yourself, that is a blessing given to sapient beings, although it harms the ones who love them.
I am so so sorry.

>>40757962
Thanks
I miss her so much
I never told her obviously but I also hate my life. Hate this world and many or most of the people in it
>>40757947
Thanks

>>40758010
Then let her be your beacon and enjoy your life, even if you only start doing it to honor her memory.

I know enough to know I know nothing.what comes after is anyone's guess but for now...

Life and death and love and birth,
And peace and war on the planet Earth.
Is there anything that's worth more
Than peace and love on the planet Earth

>>40758018
I can't life sucks I had to at least half lie to her and say it didn't.i don't know what the fuck I'm doing here

>>40758034
Then I can suggest a different path.
Allow yourself to just be crazy for a moment, talk to the God you don't believe in out loud.
Admit to him your failings, how you feel about yourself, how you feel about the things you've done, and what you really want out of life.
When you're done you can go right back to being not crazy, but it might help to do this and externalize your own thoughts honestly.

>>40758078
I've tried that

>>40758078
God truly does leave some people hanging bro. Its the reason I rarely suggest prayer.

>>40758105
"He always answers sometimes he just answers with no!"

>>40757883 (OP)
Standard Christian answer is she'll sleep until Judgement Day where she'll get her performance review.

Some people do the ghost thing apparently but not for more than like 100 years (you never do see ghosts older than like cowboy days)

>>40758129
the old cold shoulder or the reply lost in the echo

>>40758105
Its not so much God leaves you hanging as it is, you havent opened an honest window he can talk through in a way you understand.

>>40758425
Him not answering prayers easily is exactly what I'd expect on atheism

>>40758742
God provides proof to atheists too, otherwise we wouldn't have math or physics.
Thats kinda what I mean about a way you understand Him.

OP I am an Arch Angel.

Good news, the Bible is bullshit God lets em all in.

After punishing em appropriately or rewwardings. No faith in any son of his needed.

Arch Angel as in I am over 1 trillion years old.

However, Old God....if you suicide sometimes he sends you back for another life on earth. No short cuts. Her soul still exists OP. I didn't specifially check but no eternal eradiation of souls or eternal burning exists.

>>40758852
This seems pretty believable.

Answer my prayers listed below please? Ideally as soon as possible

I'm shorter then I'd like to be. Will you Please make me at least 6'3" tall permanently?
My face especially my nose is not as symmetrical as I'd like it to be. Will you Please make me have an extremely symmetrical face permanently?
My ears are more prominent and large then I'd like them to be. Will you Please make them be less prominent and more attractive and normal looking permanently?
My voice is higher and less masculine than I'd like it to be. Will you Please make my voice extremely deep and extremely masculine permanently?
My hairline isn't as low or as full as I'd like it to be. Will you Please make my hairline much lower and much fuller permanently?

>>40757883 (OP)
Condolences, anon.
What a contract of grief you signed on.
If you haven't watched the movie "Constantine" you should watch it. It will be uncomfortable.

RIP in peace.

>>40758941
Yes
>>40758933
Why

The things we do...
When we put our minds...
To it...
Astonishing...

>>40758921
I'm not miracle plastic surgerying you. Learn to accept who you are and how you look like some how. I was meerly doing old angel of death and mercy work to OP as I am the most qualified here perhaps. I am married to an anon and a female angelic being who lols when she says she is a succubus to be hot and funny.

>>40757883 (OP)
>You pity her
>She pities you

>>40757883 (OP)
in aftelife, i usually think we die into the void or become new gods of new different realities

>>40758921
Imagine what a vapid fucking demon you have to be to come into a thread about suicide and order plastic surgery like you're in a fast food restaurant. Go to Instagram you psychotic fucking loser, or better, back to the topic at hand: kill yourself

Was she - if anything - able to find what she was looking for before she departed, even if it was something as simple as a goodbye to/from someone who genuinely cared?

>>40761357
Looksmaxx obsessed zoomers will never be happy. Their circumstances are very tragic desu.

>>40758921
>>40761357
This shit is a copypasta an anon throws into random thread no matter the content. I have half a mind to use it as encouragement for magical practice in giving them the opposite - worse looks whenever I see their post.

>>40761372
Yes

>>40758010
>I also hate my life. Hate this world and many or most of the people in it
there's your problem. Hate is a choice, and a very, very weak one, at that. Grow up and stop feeling sorry for yourself. Take full responsiibility for your life. Find God. Sacrifice. Be kind. Have hope.

>>40761876
God isn't real and if he is he isn't kind or just

>>40757883 (OP)
OP I collect ghosts can I put her in my harem?

OP, I genuinely do feel the pain of your loss and I'm so sorry. What you're experiencing, the feeling of regret and that you could or should have done more, is a very real and painful part of the process.

It will take time to make peace with that yourself, to find closure in a situation that was left open-ended. Try your best to resist the voice that chastises yourself, to try and direct that feeling elsewhere in a healthy manner. If keeping her memory alive in your mind and your heart becomes too painful, just do your best to say goodbye and let go when you feel ready to.

>>40763778
I just want her back alive

She was likely put in a life loop. meaning she will live this exact same life again and again. and again. until she chooses not to kill herself. her soul will remember and feel each and every loop

The entities who control this reality put you in the life you’re in for a reason. its a life designed to harvest the most emotional energy possible. usually negative. they know just how much to give u so u wont break but will still feed them even if u succeed and live a happy life you are still generating the energy for them usually by creating envy and jealousy and hatred among others. or by working a job that is directly harming others whether you know it or not

they don’t like when people try to escape their game. suicide is a great way to say “fuck you and your simulation” but they aren’t gonna be happy about it. most people aren’t powerful enough to be able to escape after suicide and as u mentioned your friend is an atheist meaning she has absolutely no chance of having the level of knowledge and spiritual awareness necessary to fight the entities off so sadly. your friend is living this same life again. and she will likely be psychologically tormented for whats basically eternity. and when she does escape the loop which is inevitable she will just be reincarnated again Into a life that is worse

>>40757883 (OP)
She is will eventually re-spawn from a previous save point but she just threw away all her coins, extra lives and load-outs. She will still need to go through the same level again that forced her to take the suicide option, maybe next time she gets back to that point she will remember this and pass through it.

>>40761876
what a shitty response, cease your faggotry and try to have empathy for this person and their dead friend.

>>40757883 (OP)
OP I collect ghosts can I place her in my harem?

>>40764538
Something like this. Reincarnate into the same scenario upon another, yet same world.

>>40758010
>I never told her obviously but I also hate my life. Hate this world and many or most of the people in it

You were possibly friends in similar incarnations because of this belief you shared. You should attempt to break this cycle, starting with going past the atheist thing.

>>40757883 (OP)
I can look it up.

>>40765206
is that who i think it is

>>40758105
What terrible advice.
Just because he has not given you what your ego wanted, doesn’t mean he does not care for you.
You just don’t understand the level of care he has for you, and the lessons you have to learn.
Same with a child that resents their parents for parenting.
You should really stop bringing people away from God, it’s an unpardonable sin to lose yourself in this hatred.

>>40758852
This is not an archangel, but a schizophrenic person

>>40758921
And here you have the perfect example of someone asking God for things that will just help fulfill one’s lustful and prideful desires.
Spoiler: he won’t get it.

>>40764601
This is literally the best advice this person could have gotten.
You expect people to show comfort on a schizo board?
How about you complain about the other retards saying she’s in a soul matrix and further schizo babble? As if anyone here knows the truth about the mechanics of the universe. Everyone either knows it from someone else or from a their schizophrenic delusions.
What one CAN know though is how to cope with one’s volatile inner world.
So how about you shut up if you can’t provide anything meaningful?

>>40757883 (OP)
One of my friends died a few years ago.
I used to get annoyed with him because he had embodied a lot of the traits I wanted for myself.
He was energetic and outgoing, good with martial arts.
When we had started to grow up in our early 20’s we met up at a party and he spent the entire night crying to me in a room alone. He told me he felt like a failure, and like everyone else was going someone in life but he was still stuck.

I just hugged him and told him that he wasn’t as bad off as he felt, that we are all struggling, and more importantly that he was very important to everyone.

When the morning came (we spoke all night), we went to get breakfast with a small group of people.

I was hung over by this point and as we were walking he told me he wanted to show off his skills in rhyming, something I’d always been good at. I told him I wanted to hear it but I was too hung over. That I’d listen to him next time.

Two days later I got a call from our other friend that he was dead.

I’ll always regret not doing more, not listening more… the truth is though I did everything I could. If you loved your friend unconditionally, then know that it’ll be ok.

We will always miss our friends we lose.

But we shouldn’t lose our own lives because they chose to.

Don’t give up.

>>40768506
It's so much more then just losing her
Life sucks

>>40757883 (OP)
Supposedly offing yourself means that you couldn't achieve your mission in life, and you went out while harming your loved ones.

She ain't gonna go to "hell" but she will have to try again, probably in a harder difficulty. Praying for her supposedly helps.

>>40768712
>Praying for her supposedly helps.

How and why

Sorry about your fren anon

I would love to see this supposed universal axiom that new age love and light fluffers always pull out of their asses that if the life forced on you by god is so miserable that you want to kill yourself that you are somehow wrong and god and new agers must never have their oh so precious feelings offended.

>>40768934
thanks

>>40757883 (OP)
>What sort of afterlife is she having if any
that's up to you
after my friend died I met a shaman who instructed me in a ritual he performed after all his friends died
he called it "phowa" or compared it to that but unlike the real tibetan practices this one doesn't necessarily conflict with your agnostic/atheistic beliefs
—————
first thing in the morning before you open your eyes and again right after you close your eyes to go to bed in the evening, do this:
1. visualize yourself as a colored light in a black void
2. visualize her as a colored light in a black void
3. use your light to shine light on hers, like a spotlight illuminating
4. hold it for a few seconds, then end the visualization
repeat daily until you experience a confirmation, message, etc. (took me a week)
—————
my friend became telepathic with me about two years later btw and confirmed this ritual extracted her from a dantesque "suicide forest" hellscape, or more specifically the light showed her a path to a portal to a better realm

>>40757883 (OP)
I'm the psychompoms kid, delivered by a stalk. And I've been murdered by the psychopomp and I can get myself accross.

I started with what I call the crap animals they come and be your friend and eat ya. If you remember quantum physics at the crap animals you can get a Santa's deal home. But then again I've got the genes of the psychopomp