I want to know how can I get a glimpse into my past life much better if there any methods for that or even people having a business and being specialized in this who could help me, from a young age I do have those weird memories which gave me shivers and felt like they're mine but not from this life but from other.


For those interested by far my experience of what I remembered was like this:
>be me 4-5 years old
>used to have an immigrant couple of Japanese as neighbors who were good friends with my family to which I felt we were the same
>been looking thru photo albums of my family in Japan and everything felt so familiar and got a feeling of confusion like I was there last time in 1998 but I knew I was born in 2001
>started to have all kind of dreams and feeling related to certain years 1970 to 1998
>late 1970s me as a kid going to school on a rainy day thinking how cool would be to life in America and when I get older I'll drive a Nissan Fairlady or something simialar, running away from home via train with friends and smoking
>1980s hot summer day around seemed around 19 o clock, me and my family spending time together we were laughing how happy my lil bro was that his fav cartoons started, being fanatic about baseball, stealing money to go to arcade and flirt with girls, getting in troubles for perving in high school, last day of high school how cool it's been and regretting finishing my studies,

>>40759102 (OP)
>1990s trying to help my a parent in garden remember well how I was wearing rubber green boots and actually had an argument because I wasn't doing enough, ending up to move to Tokyo in a small apartment getting a corporate job, life somewhat seemed fine but felt it was wasted for other's expectations me actually wanting to join the army, sleeping outside, being ran by a group of men but feeling amused by that while hiding, getting a gf for which i've gone mad over especially she was already in a relationship, driving at night on bridges of Tokyo while listening to music in a grey Mitsubishi or Nissan
>1996 to 1998 gf is no longer there a feeling of grief maybe she killed herself, becoming an alcoholic, spending money in bars and brothels, being in my hometown at night drinking on a curb, being all alone with workmates on a high floor at night in an office building in Tokyo looking on the windows and joking going to take some water and feeling so weak, trying to binge on video games and getting mad that I'm so useless I can't even play MGS, around november or december of 1998 suicide jumping from a tall structure while being drunk
>seeing from above how cops were coming to pick up my body, ending up in some kind of place that looked like Tokyo but everything looked grey, places were displaced and floating and there was that gf, ending up in a completely white space
>from current life as a kid being obsessed to end up in Japan n things from the 80-90s, weirdly attracted to nip girls, getting very easy dizzy from height, hating feeling under others control, at 8 yo going to Japan and feeling really sad that we left and I haven't meet somebody

I wouldn't care at all if things were so vivid and those feelings some of them being able to relate to me right now.

>>40759102 (OP)
>or even people having a business and being specialized in this who could help me
It ain't a business but you might have some luck from the reincarnation researchers from the Division of Perceptual Studies.

>>40759192
Seconding this op. There are quite literally thousands of cases identical in structure to yours. By the way, consider yourself lucky, most people have little to no coherent memories of their past lives; much less their most recent one, much less in such vivid detail, and finally much less with the memories staying with them past 5-10 years old.
My suggestion is to meditate on these memories, buddhism has some good frameworks for doing so but the gist is to just sit quietly and watch your breath and thoughts arise and disappear. Consider why you felt the need to come back, the attachment to the idea of being an American, the attachment to your girlfriend and her suicide, and your decision to suicide in your nip life. Don’t fall into the same pattern my friend, you are early 20s this life and suicided late 20s/ early thirtys in jap life, so try to build a more fulfilling and peaceful life this time around because suicide has bad kammic weight due to making your friends and family sad. Consider sending loving thoughts to your past life parents and friends and also girlfriend and forgive her for killing herself

>>40759478
This time yes I will and especially now that I got this mystery to solve, knowing on my own skin that reincarnation is pretty much real I guess that will be a big no thing to do no matter what, I was thinking of meditating all of that but I had no idea at all on how to do it, by far my plan is like this
>getting into meditation/rituals anything or anybody that could help to gain more information
>try to find registries or news articles about men in their late 20s dying from suicide around 1997-1998
>paying visits to Japan to places which I could simply recognize like bridges at night from Tokyo or Yokohama
>try to get in touch with researches if I get all the necessary and feelings become way more stronger