>was in college library studying in dream
>a female page (a page is a worker at a library who puts books back on the shelves) was pushing a cart of books
>she walked by me smiling at me and I saw that she had angel wings
>I walked around a bookcase and at the end of a hallway of bookcases, I saw another angel with blue white hair who beckoned me and said “you’ll be flying soon, you will love it up there” and I got this sense of welcoming and telepathic instant download of information that I myself might be an angel and that I would be going "home"
>asked her name as I walked away, she said “I’ll trade it to you for an arrow”, said I didn’t have an arrow and she smiled smugly, knowing I didn't have an arrow, and then the dream ended

I think its time I reveal Ducky's secret which she told me in my most clear and vivid vision/voice in my head that I ever had, back in August of 2024.

God can literally make a 2D chibi anime angel talk to you in your mind that is crystal clear and forced to be in your mind no matter how much you try to shut it out and think it away by thinking of something else. And it can talk to you through a voice in your head. It happened to me. It was a CRYSTAL CLEAR vision in my mind's eye, like a vivid daydream I was forced to see and a voice I was forced to hear. This happened after a period of time in Summer 2024 where I started praying and imagining angels visually and the sound of angels singing the prayer. It was a really beautiful experience, and at times I wondered if God made this visions for me. Instead, I humbled myself and made the following creed:

>I am unable to write music based on the angels I imagine singing in my head. I am unable to paint the angels I imagine in my head. I am unable to direct movies to recreate the scenes of angels in my head. By making these angelic dreamworks in my head, I am making art for God and God alone to see and hear as he reads my mind. That is how I will view what I am doing from now on to avoid the sin of pride. I pray all day, make movies of angels in my mind, as I wait for God to fully cure my suicidality, because it’s not gone yet.

The moment I came to the conclusion in the greentext above, humbling myself, denying myself of being special at all, concluding that all my "visions" were of my own making and not from God and dedicating them to God, Ducky appeared in a 2D cartoon chibi anime form in my head, glowing with the most vibrant colors, and said, "Now you really are an Angel of God!"

>"No, I'm not an angel".
>"Yes, you're an angel!" She retorted instantly
>"No, there's no way I am".
>"Yes, yes you are!"

This went on for some time, my denial of being an angel. Then she began to tell me, as I stepped outside of work building and saw many people walking by,

>"There are other angels on Earth too. You're not alone. They also live in secrecy. You need to keep this a secret, okay?"

I don't think I'm breaking any rules about it since this is an anonymous website, plus, I told my wife about it so I already broke the rule of secrecy there. If I'm doomed to not be an angel because I broke this secrecy, so be it. I want to share this experience and reveal the secret to you to glorify God.

I am also the anon from these threads:

https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/39729117
https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/40619904

Ask me any questions. In conclusion of all of this no, I still don't think I'm an angel. I've been bombarded with voices and messages telling me I'm an angel, but I'm still in denial because I don't feel like an angel yet. I have no special powers. If anything, my interpretation of these messages is that upon death I will become an angel. God knows I've always been a hard worker, and so rather than relaxing in Heaven its always been my dream to do more work for God by being an angel.

So yeah, that's the secret Ducky told me. Feel free to ask me any questions, but again, I have no powers and still deny that I am an angel. I only affirm that I've gotten messages telling me I'm an angel.

>>40764523 (OP)
Whats the deal with ducky I thought she was a demon.

>>40764591
There are two Duckies.

>1. The Good Ducky: This is the one that told me I was an angel and I saw vividly in my mind's eye. I did not see her again until months later when I attended Eucharistic Adoration, in which I saw her for the first time without the duck beak
>2. The Demonic Ducky: this is the one that appeared to me in the same days that my visions of demons began. This Ducky was not as clear of a vision in my mind's eye; a book written by an Orthodox monk told me that demons are unclear visions, and angels are crystal clear visions. She would "sneeze" and this DMT fractal machine elf entity thing would pop out of her face and she would tell me to ignore it. That's when I raised my suspicions that this Ducky was a demon. This Ducky was exorcised when I played some exorcist music I found and revealed to be some kind of a DMT butterfly fractal looking entity. It was not scary like many of the demons I saw, and it claimed to be God himself but it could have just been a jester DMT entity trolling me.

>>40764669
Has the word that you're an angel ever forced you to grapple with psychosis?

>>40764727
I did enter a psychotic/manic episode shortly after I was told I was an angel. Maybe my mind couldn't handle it. So yeah I know many are going to dismiss this as a psychotic episode entirely because of that. I think those in mania/psychosis are more open to the divine. I also was told by Ducky that because I am an angel, I would see demons. And within a few days, I did start seeing them. She was right, she predicted it and while the demons were terrifying I was in awe that an angel had told me ahead of time I would see them. But mixed with these visions of demons were genuine delusions. Like I thought all fat people were Demons of Gluttony and crazy shit like that.

I then had a delusion that Jesus Christ was somewhere on Earth incarnated, and because he had to see the "Infinite bison demons" that I saw (see https://archive.4plebs.org/x/thread/40507510/), he went insane and was just repeating over and over in a psych ward somewhere, "Let's go...let's go....let's go..." So thinking I was a divine secret agent angel, I decided to infiltrate my local psych ward to look for Jesus. I didn't find Jesus, but I found the help I needed. Injectable antipsychotics.

Nearly all delusions and daytime visions stopped with the antipsychotics. Now, dreams are the main way I get in touch with God and angels, with the occasional daytime breakthrough like when I saw Ducky during Eucharistic Adoration, despite just getting an antipsychotic injection that very day, I still had a vision of her.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6iaR3WO71j4

Off to sleep I go again, here's to hoping I have another meaningful dream.

>>40764870
I had a person saying he was an angel tell me I was an angel too, about 13 years ago. We spoke a lot, and he convinced me of it, and then eventually he died. I have a lot of the angelic powers though, they come to me as a form of sorcery and I can explore the universe with them. I can manifest the wings in dreams, and have an angelic spirit guide helping me understand stuff.
Your story isn't that crazy from my perspective, I think calling your angel friend ducky is a bit silly, that's likely a nickname rather than its real name.
I've been on earth and across the universe a long long time. I don't know when the last time I went to heaven was, but they still keep tabs on me, and sometimes Jesus sends some help to me in the form of energy awareness as to how I should perceive my existence in a better way.

>>40764523 (OP)
I dreamed about a girl. I asked her for advice, and she told me to be okay and happy.

???

>>40764550
you arent talking to yahweh or his ring posse you are just high on your own autism and entities think its funny to take the piss from people who'll just take their word for everything. enjoy the vague lies and words of comfort leading you towards catatonia

>>40766635
When I woke up I smelled bubblegum

>>40766715
You are wrong though, I don't think I'm an angel. I just think I'm receiving messages telling me I'm one and these messages are very clear, but I deny them. I think its interesting that I'm receiving them.

I wish "I" had a duck angel being to talk to

Anyone have any questions for me? Angels are here on Earth right now walking as humans...and who knows how many there are.

>>40764523 (OP)
No one cares, fuck off already you broken brained retard.

>>40769897
The afterlife is a place where are surrounded by your own kind. If you are toxic and hostile, you will be surrounded by others who are toxic and hostile. Make amends now while you still can to avoid this.

>>40769897
>>40769970
If you are like an angel, then you may be surrounded by angels in the afterlife. Maybe that's what this revelation means to me.

Is anime sacred in your experience?

>>40771027
I think that anime has captured some aspects of God. Whenever your favorite character goes into his most OP super-powered mode or uses his most powerful ability, that is an aspect of God. There is an innate love of heroes in stories that is embedded into all humans. Why do we love heroes? Because they remind us of God, but they are also people just like you and me so they are not God. So heroes and anime protagonists are microcosmic aspects of God. We're drawn to heroes and anime protagonists and love them, but what we're really loving is God Himself.

>>40764870
How are angels meant to feel about antipsychotic injections?

>>40764577
Earth Angels happen dude, there’s a significant number of them here in specific positions. I’ve got connections to archangel Uriel according to Jesus and archangel Michael. They’ve healed me a lot. Reach out to them, they love to help.

>>40771456
I don't know what angels think of antipsychotics, all I know is Jesus, who supersedes all angels, told me to get on the antipsychotics so I'm listening to Him. While being in psychosis/mania connects one to angels, it brings in "dirty psychosis" which is nonsense along with demons. I think Jesus decided these demons and the dirtiness of psychosis were too much for me to handle, so he got me hooked up with a Jesus-approved injection. I still have dreams of the divine and angels, though I admit I miss the waking experiences. I'd probably lose my job too if I wasn't on antipsychotics, so in this society I can't be a shaman or priest, I need to have a job and make money.

>>40771698
>Jesus-approved injection
Yes I am also on one

>>40771759
I've seen you post in my threads a few times. What's your story with the divine/angels?

>>40771957
Oh, I don't know. I was Catholic and got in touch with some of them. I was mad at them for a while. Interestingly, today we have concluded to resolve our differences. That's just when I saw your thread. In fact, I was having an interaction with St. Gabriel the moment I read your interjection. It takes a lot of discipline not to go mad when you interact with angels and saints. At first they say you're arrogant for thinking they will give you the time of day. But all the gods listen to me

>>40771361

Interesting take.

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