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This morning I experienced a vivid and powerful dream and im not sure what it could mean or reveal or if it matters at all

I was in some dark ages Europe setting inside the outdoor portion within the interior of a castle and there was an attractive woman there and I was speaking to her about scars on my arm that I had inflicted on myself; she seemed to like that and started to come near me and I felt a strong attraction to her and then just cradled her legs in my lap as we were sitting and she didn't care

There were knights in armor and some people without armor entering a kind of small gladiatorial ring holding small blades and daggers; when I got close to the ring me and the girl had to walk underneath wooden beams in a small passageway that led to the main field of the ring and there was one beam that had a realistic metallic emblem of an eye placed into the beam overhead so that it watched you as you walked underneath
I didn't actually fight in the ring and the only part I remember next was being at a table seated next to Jesus Christ who was at the head of the table and the girl to my right

The room was made of bright yellow shiny stone with green simple triangular pilasters also shiny/reflective looking
Jesus was wearing a bright yellow robe with white parts around the front and arms
This entire scene of the dream I was overcome with intense grief and sadness every time I looked at Jesus
I began to sob uncontrollably and hard; it felt very very real
All I could think was "I'm sorry Jesus" "I'm sorry God" "Forgive me" over and over and I repeated it out loud to him
Jesus looked over at me concerned and asking/mouthing "What's wrong" but never directly said anything to me

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When I looked away and looked back Jesus suddenly had breasts and I started to cry even harder and felt even more sorry because my twisted perception had caused it
A grey mask then covered His face; it was very simple and looked polygonal like it was out of an old video game. His mouth was replaced with a green rhombus that had white writing inside it but I couldn’t make it out; it may have been a word or a string of letters without an simply interpretable meaning
Even though Jesus didn’t do anything to comfort me directly I felt very at ease and comforted and assured as the dream slowly faded from my vision and my normal eyesight had returned already after to when I woke up
The tears had not even flowed when I was asleep in the dream but only after even thought I was lying in bed stunned and calm wondering about the dream; this morning after the dream I felt very well rested and awake despite most of the time feeling lethargic after waking up
I am not intensely religious as some other people online but I read a passage from the Bible every night and constantly keep Jesus within my thoughts during the day
I do struggle with fantasizing and masturbation so this must be related; or, its because I started a powerful new medication to treat an illness I have and my brain is just reacting
Or, this all something fabricated by malicious entities trying to lead me into a trap or dark direction

>>40765326 (OP) https://www.dlshq.org/messages/dream/

>the daily 'i had a dream are you worshipping jews yet?' thread
nope. and im not gonna.