I used to be a diehard theist for majority of my life. Praying every single day, keeping up with religious scriptures and embodying them unto myself as best as I could, going to fucking church on Sundays, the works. It even got to the point where I was coming to this board and delving into religious apocrypha and esotericism, to the point where I genuinely started to consider myself to be some kind of enlightened prophet. If there was a second coming of Christ, Muhammad, Rama, or Buddha, it was probably going to be little ol' me.

Then I moved out of my parents house and experienced actual real life for the first time.

Fast forward a couple of years, and I now consider theism and most types of spiritualism to be incredibly mentally deficient and childish. Bygone necessities of a bygone age. Monsters of our own minds' making. What makes us so inclined to take comfort in such an obvious, egregious lie?

And so, for the past couple of days, I've been lurking this board trying to see what the fuck younger me found so alluring about this utter cave allegory of a site. Please, I beg you. Tell me why you believe in the spiritualism that you do. I must understand.

B'cuz Barkon is the only one and Jesus is a reference to him, we keep him safe like a child.

>>40773806 (OP)

If you didn’t receive blessings and feel a godly presence for doing all that, then you were probably sinning (looking at porn/fapping, envying, jealousy etc)

>>40773806 (OP)
Yeah your problem is you started reading shit that made you feel special instead of accepting the reality that you are a human and are small. Go the fuck back to church and stop mixing belief systems and larping as an enlightened main character. You learned a very pertinent spiritual lesson through exposure to the harshness of life that these mediocrities amongst mediocrities either never will and will die psychotic and alone or will and be just as fucked up by it as you. Other anons here will get angry at this statement because they're the exact same sort of person you were. Anything that is self-aggrandizing is poison. You are made of clay and will pass into dust. Man is fallen and wretched. You are not a prophet or a reincarnated boddishiva, you are a guy with schizoid personality disorder and internet access. Satan kicked your ass now go home

>>40773806 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=imiAXNnzkAc

>>40773829
realest post possible, thread's over go home

>>40773806 (OP)
You are a dirty American and your land is cursed and your brain is marshmallow fluff, soon you will be a putrid pile of rotting stench, you are no second coming, maybe it was the second time you got cummed in this morning HaHa

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>>40773806 (OP)
Spiritualism needs to be experienced, not believed in.
When you were delving into esotericism, did you actually practice any rituals or feel god's presence?
If the answer is no then you only had an intellectual understanding of it. Knowledge without wisdom.
If the answer is yes then the feeling of god's presence that comes along with the practice and knowledge is irrefutable proof of the esoteric truths.

>>40773837
No. This is the sort of thing that makes people braindead narcissists. Gnosticism is exactly what I'm talking about, everyone who believes it thinks of themselves as being in a super secret special club of enlightened pneumatics when really you all just smell like weed and work in warehouses. Do lsd. Fucking look at yourself you are not escaping the physical world and fleeing to the plemora you have eaten fast food like within the last week. Probably multiple times. U are gay!

>>40773876
YOU are the one that WANTS it to be a super secret club because YOU just want to be a COOMER at EVERYONE else's EXPENSE!

You write CON-tracts because it's about CONTRACTIONS with you corporeal lot!

>>40773884
What the fuck are you talking about

>>40773829
this site tends to simultaneously attract both the self-aggrandizing and the self-deprecating, and does nothing to convince either of the otherwise

>>40773884
Are you who I think you are

>>40773914
As paradoxical as it may seem, I belive most people on this site are both. Lord knows I was, for a time.

>>40773806 (OP)
Just take it metaphorically and you will understand all religions are human being map and tutorial. But idiots insist in takingit literally. You have every God invented in your own psyche. But ignorance is so powerfull i dont think it can evwr be overcame

>>40773806 (OP)
Ah. In the face of the Demiurge's world, I just dig my heels in even more to the notion that I am God and that there is no good reason for this place and that I am seriously going to dissolve it all until it is just me and Sophia.

>>40773829
I refuse to die, never doing that shit. I'm immortal

maybe youre just not doing it right
if theres no spirituality, then your life is just a series of reactions to environmental stimuli and it has no purpose. may as well just 'do what feel good', like a caveman, or most animals would. because thats what you are. may as well just embrace your inevitable unexistance. yolo, and what not.

you sound like an impressionable, hyperactive, manic and puerile mind.
>Tell me why you believe in the spiritualism that you do.
because it is true. i have verified it in every possible way.