Thread 41433750

I feel my heart hard as a rock and its impeding me to grow in any aspect of life. Is there any ritual to get a heart of flesh again? How can jesus healed me? I think im beyond repair, nothings reach me

>>41433750 (OP)
I hope everyone who betrayed me dies and burns in hell.
My wound is incurable.

Working with the youth can help. Have you thought about looking into a Big Brother kinda thing?

>>41433750 (OP)
Internal Family Systems therapy. I roleplayed it with grok and studied it. I am starting to have my own interpretations and morality about it as I get trained.

>>41433774
I hope everyone kids all die and burn in hell. I hate kids. I hate the sight of the children of a bunch of moloch serving filth. I wouldn’t work with kids, no. Fuck that.

>>41433774
No anon. What is Big brother? You mean volunteering?

>>41433785
Ok thats nice im in therapy, the thing is my heart is so hardened that is actually difficult to have casual relationships with people without hurting. I mean CASUAL interactions, without them feeling ignored or degraded.

>>41433750 (OP)
Ezekiel is a difficult read. It starts out with the vision of the throne and chariot which is cool but eventually it's nothing but condemnation and how his people deserve to be punished and ruined for not bringing enough turtledoves to the temple when they make normal mistakes.

>>41433816
hurting them*

>>41433821
I barely understand the bible, I took it out of context. Does jesus talks about hardened hearts?

>>41433816
IFS particularly helps with this because it allows you to detect your "protectors" are are spirits that inhabit your nervous system and possess your mind temporarily whenever they detect the particular danger that activates them. They can be useful and care about you but when you get to a better place in your life they can activate when you don't need them to. You are "Self". You can ask your protectors to step aside so that you can talk to your "heart" or "inner child" or however you see it. Then you can begin noticing when your protectors are possessing you and develop a better relationship. I only have one "protector" so far that I envision sorta like a black blob with eyes, but we're friends now and he is cute and not scary.

Try to be "Self" all the time, and develop a relationship with the other spirits haunting your nervous system.

"Inner child" or "heart" is also a spirit. I call mine little me. I think your heart symbolism is cool though. I also am developing a relationship with the different aspects of my body in general and their needs, and when they possess me, pushing "Self" out of the way.

>>41433895
Interesting anon. Using that framework I would say that im completely infested by those "protectors" to the point is almost IMPOSSIBLE and ubearable to interact with another person, even my own family. How do I deactivate them?

Sorry that I wrote this poorly, I just started using this and don't have well articulated thoughts or prepared essays on it yet. It has really helped me stop numbing myself or doing other neurotic things though as habitual coping mechanisms.

>>41433786
Moloch isn’t real
>>41433793
I’ve never done it myself but it’s like a volunteer organization where adults can spend some time with underprivileged kids and take them to like movies and be a good role model for them
It seems spiritually healing and like a good way to meet some cool kindhearted people

>>41433914
You have to ask them to step aside so you can talk to "Heart". Ask "Heart" what it's problem is and where it places that tension in the body, this tension is "Stone", and ask it to relax "Stone". If it can release even 1% that is a step. Tell "Heart" that you or a spirit you trust are putting your hand on "Stone", and that they will never let go if that is what it needs, and that we can take years for you to relax if need be. Or something.

My protector is named Freak cause he was triggered by me feeling like an unlovable freak or something. He stopped me from being myself around people to try and earn love, and wanted me to act crazy for attention at other times, and numbed me or got me to look for enemies and allies at other times. I'm still figuring it out. But I feel different and less crazy and like I can be myself even if I still have tension. I won't lie, I cried a lot too. But I think I don't feel like crying anymore. My stress ulcers are also going away and I don't hate everyone anymore. Sometimes people or circumstances kid of suck but there are good ones of each too. Sorry to rant.

knid of suck*

>>41434040
I dont know if I can name them. But around 2021-2022 I became a recluse, and started getting doubtful about everthing, I read Descartes and it completely shattered my mind, I became skeptical of everything.... OCD, obssesive thoughts, schizoidism, my mom took me to a psychiatrist... now im in meds, they help but I still feel posesses by this thing, thought form or whatever.... I cannot get it out

>>41434095
Maybe check out the Midnight Mass in regards to Descartes. Try using Grok to help you roleplay. Take it slow. This can work surprisingly fast. One spirit at a time. They become like a cast of friends that are always with you. They have your best interests at heart. They just aren't doing what you need anymore.

>>41434130
Midnight Gospel*, sorry.

This works a lot better if you are in a safe place and kinda maybe like the state of your life materially.

>>41434137
Midnight Gospel is really great gotta second that one it seems kiddy because of the style but it’s got a lot of wise people on it

>>41433750 (OP)
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kkO4wOTNYuk

My heart was softened by rescuing and nurturing a kitten from the brink of death into the most amazing companion. Mind you, I never loved pets prior.

I also just brought home my daughter after she spent over 100 days in the NICU. I now know how unconditional love feels.

All that to say: Change your life experiences and maybe you'll find the one that starts the process of softening your heart.

>t.
>40 yo man who didn't feel anything until 5 years ago

>>41433878
I don't know if he mentioned it specifically. He said he didn't come to replace the law so maybe it's implied.

>>41433750 (OP)
do mitzvot

>>41433750 (OP)
Isn’t flesh supposed to be bad in Christianity?

Like you’re supposed to deny the flesh?

Isn’t the jewgod like clearly evil?

>>41433786
Well, you deserve all the misery you receive then because you're the evil one, you can stop going on about muh moloch because you're on par with him. People who hate children are the enemy of humanity. Why should we help you? Fuck you and your thread

>>41435506
>jew babble
how about you free palestine and stop sucking baby dicks you enormous creeps

>>41434130
midnight gospel was great, I might watch it over again this weekend

>>41435618
I heart of flesh responds to people, surroundings, change, is vulnerable... comits errors, its impulsive. its human.... a heart of stone its dying, doesnt change, remains the same, is cold, insensitive

Oh Lord please give me a heart of flesh again

Open my heart, do a miracle on me

>>41433750 (OP)
rescue your father
forgive your mother
love yourself as you would a vulnerable child

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>>41438070 (OP)

sage this shit thread and fuck ops mama. Sage shit threads make the board a better place