Thread 41466492

I am under the impression that I am/was an MKULTRA targeted individual. I used to be a writer for a major political youtube channel and I was implementing a secret communication system (comms) into my writing through a website I found on this site. After I succeeded my doorknocker ceremony event irl, my mind started being read by people I saw on the street (the clothes they were wearing) and through my computer (videos would respond to my thoughts when I blinked). The mind reading happens more frequently when I'm high, but it's hard to explain how it really feels. It's like being in a hypnotic trance, at first I was trying to fight it, but over the years the feeling became addicting. Anyways, ask me anything
>t. Unironically diagnosed with autism and schizophrenia

>>41466492 (OP)
Do you take medicine for your schizophrenia? Does it have an effect on your listens?

>>41466709
I take paliperidone through a shot once every four weeks. The mind reading and communication signals I get usually only happen when I'm high on cannabis. I'd say I get communications or mind reading signals once or twice a month when I'm not using cannabis. Luckily I haven't experienced any side effects from the medication, but I'm taking a break from cannabis right now until I'm off extended leave, since I can be hospitalized at any time depending on the thoughts I share to my psychiatrist

Anon
I strongly recommend you quit using marijuana
Your mind isnt being read
It is a symptom of schizophrenia
Marijuana makes schizophrenia symptoms worse

>>41466738
The cannibus causes psychosis symptoms anon, its best for you to stop using marijuana. I used to be heavy marijuana user and it is not good for you.

>>41466738
Sorry for your condition, it must be hard. I've never done any drugs like weed or anything. Just two times in a month? I've never felt the need to be hospitalized but I wonder if I have some type of schizophrenia like psychoactive chemicals being released in my brain or something. What does weed feel like?

any examples of the 'mind-reading'

>>41466796
>>41466805
>>41466811
I've been told this by pretty much everyone I've spoken to about it, but the feeling I get when high is very addicting. My recent experience with getting high had less to do with mind reading, and more to do with making my thoughts "clearer and harder" is the best way I can describe it. It's hard to explain if you haven't experienced it, but whenever something happens I will immediately think of the most relevant reference to associate with the situation.
>>41466846
It happened so often that I stopped keeping track, but after completing my doorknocker ceremony, a couple days later I saw a man wearing a shirt stating "It was all a dream". The mind reading through video only really happened when I was first in psychosis, but it was like whatever video I was watching would indirectly reference my thoughts whenever I blinked. Again, it was happening so often and I was in such a haze that I wasn't keeping track, so I can't give any clear-cut examples of this

>>41466911
Yes anon. Marijuana creates that delusion.

>>41466911
Oh it's not the same. The video is kind of similar but not the things like the shirt.
It seems you have something different or maybe just schizophrenia anon. I hope you get better or discover the truth some way if it exists.

>>41466976
>I hope you get better
Things are going pretty well right now, I have a new decently paying sales job with base salary and commission. Also:
>discover the truth some way if it exists
Shortly after my doorknocker ceremony, I was recommended a video that described pretty much exactly what happened with the incident. It's the only semi-concrete thing that I have, and I'm still convinced it was a message for me.

>>41467013
Okay, what is a doorknocker ceremony? Who recommended you the video? You mean it appeared on youtube's recommended page?
Also, the incident you are referring to is the MKULTRA experiment?

Anon there is no such thing as schizophrenia
You should perform rituals of your own design at PRECISE moments of your choosing, for me its sunrises.

>door knocking ceremony

Can you elaborate what it was like and how you were successful

>>41467050
>>41467062
A doorknocking ceremony is an opportunity to enter into the cabal. For me, it had to do with a jewish girl I knew. I was using a website called inspirobot.me for a few months, and there were two pictures that looked like me and the girl. At the time, she was in a relationship similar to pic related. Around a week before I had a party planned with her and 4 of my other friends I watched a video called "we became clowns" by offcanny, and the end of the video had two clowns interacting in a similar way to how I did with the girl, while also featuring two men that were similar to men we both knew. Clowns in comms terms mean "comms aware operators", like clowns in america. After I came to the realization that this video seemed to feature me and the girl, people I followed online, and even one of my friends seemed to be posting about the realization. At the party, I made a move on her near the end of it, which didn't end up working out, but I still did it which is what mattered. A few weeks after the incident I was recommended this video on my youtube feed: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JS4xWHSk0w4 which described pretty much exactly how the situation unfolded

>>41466492 (OP)
Quit doing drugs you fuckin nonce. Wtf is wrong with you? Did your mom drop you on your head as a baby? Never do ANY drugs whatsoever. They’re laced with nanobots. Literally a mechanism to remote control people.

Im guessing you're like a 22 year old schizo. You're not. Telepathy is real. Just admit to your darkest secrets and let go. After breaking oh no they know all my secrets barrier you can just chit chat with people and not have to worry about it. You think you're a freak? Im bigger. I put peanut butter on my balls once and had my dog lick it off in the 10th grade. Or or you can learn to keep your secrets.

>>41467183
>At the party, I made a move on her near the end of it, which didn't end up working out, but I still did it which is what mattered
Pussy bitch fag timmy, you are experiencing time relapses because you lived your whole pathetic life and the. On your deathbed you thought of that one moment over and over again thinking how you could have swung that cunny, and the mental projection has impacted you now to where tou think you can read minds
WHEN IN FACT
You are reliving your life over again because of the massive regret that you let her slip away into some beefsticks dick

You are living in a time loop anon, you have to now figure a way out of it

>>41467183
Ignore the usual yadda-yadda.
Consider some reciprocal nature happening due to AI and mass surveillance/tracking.
>marijuana
Consider it aligns your thoughts, so that your actions become synchronized in frame of time, such that patterns reemerge.
It does imply there is a measurable objective reality that is different, by changing the behavioural aspects of the subject, such that the subject becomes synchronized with a semantic global choreography existing.

>>41466492 (OP)
yeah mind reading is real somewhat, we live in the age of information, just dont make the mistake of talking to anyone irl, or making references about this elsewhere, thats how they get you bro,
they also send glowniggers like this >>41466738
to say otherwise, cuz their false god forbids that sorta information to be talked like normal and theorized deeper

>>41466796
>>41467329
meant to (You) this glownigger, not u 738, myB

>>41467305
>semantic global choreography existing
Not just human behaviour, I mean
>smoke
>get high
>chill out
>just long enough
>that when you leave the house
>a bird shits on your head
that kinda shit, man.

>>41467305
>Consider it aligns your thoughts, so that your actions become synchronized in frame of time, such that patterns reemerge.
You described pretty much exactly how it feels, it's like whatever my thoughts are when high, it synchronizes with my environment