>>283513160
People tell me that, yeah. Like how it's a green flag that i'm even considering these things and such. I can only hope but part of me does suspect she could be maybe on the spectrum or at least have some sort of thing that seems to slow her mental development to some extent in certain ways, maybe she's even special needs and hey if i can help with that for someone i care for, absolutely i will. That's another thing, she doesn't seem to want any space when im with her, just the opposite, which again also makes me worry and sort of assume the worst sometimes. That and when this happens, all i get is like positive reinforcements from her parents and other family members basically both egging her on but also sort of commending me for letting it happen. I hope i can and will but i am also genuinely concerned about my own capacity to say no to, well, not just people i feel close to and care about but girls in particular i've always been really bad at saying no to, so uh yeah, not ideal situation really but thanks for your words, sincerely
