I tend to get drunk every couple of days and everytime I wake up after a night of drinking I feel like my life starts over again and again, while when I try to stay sober for at least a week I feel like I start to feel more alive and actually experience life but also feel depressed at the same time. How do I overcome this cycle? Is there a healthy desire which can replace my drinking one? lame stuff like hobbies don't fill that goal

>>33197436 (OP)
A hobby is something you actually like doing and is definitionally not lame. That said, I don't think everyone needs a strong set of hobbies. It's okay to just appreciate the company of others, to appreciate time to yourself, and to enjoy small things like a walk or making a good meal. From your post it sounds like you don't know what you want. You're talking very significantly about the minutia of whether you drink or not without mentioning life goals. That might be okay, I mean, a life that is constantly spent in the pursuit of goals is not a life, but don't you aspire to something? Drinking releases many neurotransmitters and can lead to relaxation and euphoria when all goes well, so your positive reaction to drinking isn't unusual.

>>33197446
>Drinking releases many neurotransmitters and can lead to relaxation and euphoria when all goes well, so your positive reaction to drinking isn't unusual.
that's a momentary feeling and in time it definitely fried my brain and made me more depressed when I'm not drinking, I obviously can't go like that forever

>>33197436 (OP)
I won't read drunkard threads. Nothing can be done.

>>33199248
>I don't like drunkards
>so ill seethe and bitch at someone explicity stating they want to leave drinking behind
Kill yourself.

>>33197436 (OP)
Get a girlfriend

>>33197436 (OP)
I am you and you are me.

I have found a goal, sadly rooted in petty revenge. I want to own monopoly on a service I control. I want to put all my competitors under my foot. That's why I temporarily stop drinking. Not my family, not my loved ones, not my duties, just that.

>>33197436 (OP)
Only quitters quit

>>33200283
based