>dad cheated on mom when I was around 12
>got divorced and went off to live with new wife and baby
>barely saw him growing up aside from occasional visits
>don't even call or text
>life growing up was very unstable
>moved around a lot and mom was very psychologically unstable
>be me now 27yo
>dad invited me and my older brother to go to a lake house he rented out
>agreed to it months ago
>just recently figured out he's also bringing stepmom and half sister
>really fucking depressed currently
>also he scheduled it around my mom's birthday
>thinking about just skipping and letting my brother take his girlfriend in my place
Should I just cancel it? I mean, I've never showed any anger or confronted my dad about anything. I always forgave him and was nice. I'm not really angry about the divorce anymore but maybe this could be ammunition for me not to go?
>He thought I was gonna go?
>I thought he was gonna be my father.
Also, I can't imagine I'd even have fun. I'm extremely depressed rn and have been repeatedly sitting on my bed staring at a loaded handgun.

>>33199151 (OP)
fuck me dude, yes, fucking cancel. You have a mother who's brought you up, you certainly owe her. I'll tell you what, one day you won't have a mother to enjoy her birthdays with and she's been around you all your life so you know what you got to do.

>>33199190
Yeah, that's what I'm leaning towards. I don't know what's scaring me

>>33199599
What's scaring you is that you crave your father's approval and don't want to disappoint him despite everything he did to your family and put them through. He's a deadbeat, but you can't help wanting his approval and love.

>>33199599
you're craving a stranger's approval. Approval you don't need by the way.

you should go to the lake house. your 27. grow up and stop listening to these pussy ass chuds trying to white knight for your mom. it’s been 15 years

>>33199151 (OP)
Pretty similar situation myself minus the cheating. Nothing wrong with keeping in touch with a distant father, but your mother should take priority.