Should I become a Prosthetist, an Engineer, or something else entirely?
I am suffering from intense depression and anxiety, and I don't have anyone else to help me or guide me through my doubts, life, and the confusion and chaos that is existence as it is.
I will just be honest here, I don't know what I should do with my life, these two things are just things I thought about [spoiler]besides massage therapy, and arts. I don't really want to do massage therapy because I don't want to mess my hands to the point I can't try anything else. I am interested in art and creations but I don't know how to describe this properly, I just always thought the idea of creativity a good and fun thing, but I don't know jobs for this, especially jobs that will not let me rot in my country[/spoiler]
But everything I see is scary for me. I wasted years of my life being a NEET, and now that I am almost 24, life seems to be fading faster, and I am so much weaker now.
It seems like to become a Prosthetist you need to study for 7 years, just to earn less than an Engineer that from what I understand studies for 5 to earn more.
But... MATH!!! I am having a mental breakdown over time and MATH! I. DON'T. KNOW! I don't know how to solve this
>∫(x2 + cos(x)) dx from x=0 to x=π/2
(Cont)

>>33200250 (OP)
and apparently, there are things 10 times harder than that!
I heard you don't 'need' math to *work* as an engineer, but you really need it to finish college and get a degree, and I heard it's very hard.
I thought multiple times how cool it would be to combine the Prosthetist part with engineering by being a bionic engineer, but if I can't solve that equation, how will I even...
I am so sad, so lonely, it hurts so much and I am such a fucking dumbass who quit at the very start of high school because I had an emotional breakdown at the time too. I am trying to return, to finish things properly, but I don't know if I will be able to, I don't know, I don't know, I don't know!
The only thing I ever learned by myself is English, and I know that even my English is not perfect. I hate this, I hate suffering and not knowing what to do. I hate being useless, being tired, being weak and incapable. I'm sorry for making this post, this thread. I am sorry for straying so far away from the topic.
(I just saw I messed up by trying to spoiler my OP...)

>>33200260
>you don’t need math to be an engineer
Stop being dumb anon

>>33200250 (OP)
your job will not make you less depressed even if it a good title or status. been there. unfuck your mind and your ego, don’t be dependent on external factors to feel normal. and pursue vocationally what you can do as fast as possible and could understand well

also pretty sure an orthoptist or some shit requires much less schooling

>>33200250 (OP)
>Should I become a Prosthetist, an Engineer, or something else entirely?
I won't read threads where OP requests that a bunch of anons on 4chan decide his direction in life. Come back when you decide what you want.

>>33200250 (OP)
If by prothetist you mean a prosthodontist, do that. They make more and you get to do cool things with your hands. Also my general dentist has a special extra degree in prothetics and hes the best dentist Ive ever had and has corrected issues from previous dentists that had been plaguing me and ruining my life (literally). Also dont listen to the guy that says choosing course wont fix your life. It wont necessarily make you feel less anxious or stress, but when I finally found a path and stuck to it, it was the first time I felt meaning and security in my life.

>>33200331
>>33200370
Thank you. And just to clarify I didn't mean dentist or prosthodontist but one who creates prostheses for people who lost hands, arms, and legs.
According to Google:
>An orthotist designs, makes, and fits braces or splints (orthoses) to support or correct problems with bones, muscles, or nerves. A prosthetist, on the other hand, creates and fits artificial limbs (prostheses) to replace missing body parts.
>>33200349
Sorry, I just feel really lost.

>>33202008
No an ORTHOPTIST. READ MY FUCKING POST your vocation will not cure your depression these are two separate things

>>33202016
Ah sorry! Really sorryI misread! I will try to read multiple times next time.

>>33202016
And I don't really know what will cure my depression... I don't know how to unfuck my mind and my ego.

>>33200250 (OP)
What would you like to be when you grow up?

you should focus on yourself. focus on getting mentally stable +mindset and healthy and physicly healthy.
your garbled mess of a word salad + caps shows.
once you calmed down, you can reissue your questions
im 27 and look like 21 and have even less than you. are you in a hurry to die? do you must work or do you want to work?
stress, cortisol = oxidation of cells = more replication of cells = more errors = you fucking die sooner